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I AM NIGEL

....well, you might sometimes just get a feeling of sadness out of the blue hit you and if you feel lost or anything then you know where my wall is Jonathan.....you take care...

..aww, you silly sausage of course you have a heart..we all express our emotions differently Jonathan...some people try to contain them because they're afraid of the strength of them but bottling them up doesn't make them go away, so it's best to always just let it go...anything that you realease doesn't cause you pain anymore inside...the thing is Jonathan that yesterday was just something we all have to go through to pay respects but you already said goodbye and that's the thing you'll always have to carry with you and to remember who she was and the good times..you were there to see her before she completed her circle and that's the most we can ever love someone....and it's what will help rememberand honour them as they were.....

..oh and yesterday was a nightmare it was so slow...stupid CBB.....

..are you ok Jonathan...?...I've just read it was the funeral today...it's probably one of the worst parts....

..Jonathan...you know the thing about grief and losing someone you loved..is that everyone one of us feels things differently and shows things differently...some people feel numb for a while..as long as it takes..and then they just start to face each day again..as normal...that happened to me..I never cried..never had any huge surge of emotions, yet I knew in my heart that I was grieving..that I had lost something....please don't expect anything of yourself...your emotion will guide you...if you cry then you'll cry..if you don't then you wont...your sadness will come or it wont...there aren't any rules to this...just let it sink in and try not to think about how you feel...just feel it, whatever it is......

...you went to see her Jonathan and that will help you in the future as well.......

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He wrote this song about his gran who was in the hospital after a stroke, from his Gran's perspective. I know it's a different situation, but it's a beautiful song, and you should have it.

Right, fair enough, and i dont purposefully try to cause arguments in there, in the past i've actually contributed, which i will, but it doesn't help when you have someone making you feel like even if you do contribute you will still be bitched at. So i will occasionally come in and contribute, just don't make little digs at me not being welcome, and i won't mind at all.