Danielle1232 |
30-11-2010 07:10 PM |
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Originally Posted by JackFrost
(Post 3953324)
What have you sent? :joker:
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Well,here i go again,eh. I'm so sorry,i actually think it will be okay cos to be honest i dont care if it isnt this time. I'm scared,but not as much. You probably dont have a clue what im talking about,well im a lesbian & yeah ill explain so dont start shouting like last time.
I know i told you i was bi,but guess what I'm not. I wasnt lying though because i was but since Ive been with Rachel and Compared that to guys,how different i feel and the longer I've been with her i gradually went off guys.
For the longest time I planned on never telling anyone and hoping it would just go away or just say im bi but be with girls. But now I truly realize that I don’t have a choice in this, and that I will have to be this way my whole life. Not that it’s a horrible thing, it’s just a lot different than I expected, and a lot more complicated. For me, the worst part was always the keeping it in, and I regret the fact that it became weird I didn’t even realize I was doing it anymore.
Whats the point in keeping a secret your either happy or your not. I'm not sad,I'm happier than I've ever been. It's not a choice & i cant change it,so dont say that either.I know this is not a phase and is who I am meant to be. I would have told you sooner but you would have been just as confused as I was. I wouldn’t have been able to answer any questions you would have because I wouldn’t know the answer myself,but know i do.
I’m actually crying as I write this. I’m so sorry and I really hate myself. I still love you so much,I'm just being honest.
Just remember i love you,x
WhatAMong i am,I'm just being selfish. :/ Couldve waited. < i never wrote that bit though...... /
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