[xDramatick]

I'm so frustrated atm.
excuse the rant, i have nowhere else to do it.

BASICALLY.
At college, my final major project is due on the 20th May, and my class is doing a performance of Marat/Sade. We've been doing it for about 7 weeks now, and we only have about 18 minutes. Well, we probably have nearing half an hour now, but what's so frustrating, is that the play should be an hour and a half and it's not looking good. Me, and only like, 3 other people know all their lines/cues and can stay in character, because everyone else slacks and is unmotivated and it does my nut in. I understan people get distracted but it'd be nice to have some focus.

Then I'm under pressure to get a full distinction because I have for the past two units, and although my tutors say I shouldn't feel pressured, I really do.

OH, and I have a monologue to learn which is EXTREMELY sexual and dirty, and it's so hard to act out because I don't really know where to go with it & we have like no time to work on it as it's due in like, a week or so after the FMP.

I'm there for the work and that's always been my priority. My work, before friendship and anything else, and there's a few others who feel the same. But there's a big bunch of girls who obviously put themselves first and are always shouting at my tutor and I feel so sorry for him because he tries so hard and me and some friends do stand up for him but then it turns the class into war.

Therefore we've had to do extended rehearsals.
On top of this, my bf is doing early hours at work [like. 4am - 12noon] so it's hard for us to do anything together as he's tired. We do Orange Wednesdays, and we try to make the most of the weekends but it's hard when he's exhausted.
&&he has next week off but is going back to birmingham to work on a car rather than spend it with me. Fair enough but I just wish he'd spend some of it with me considering we don't get to do much.

On top of that, I have 2 fancy dress parties friday & saturday night, though I'm probably going as a schoolboy to one, and peter pan to the other. I've gotta go shopping thursday [which i always have off from college] to get some stuff.

Along with that, I have several online commitments [including TiBB FA] and to make it worse, I have a few auditions coming up which I'm totally unprepared for. Or well, I don't think anything really needs to be prepared but I'd like to feel confident for it.

OH, and 3 of my friends want to form a band, not for serious, just to jam and see what we can do because we feel if we take it too seriously, then nothing good will be created because we're all into different musical directions [me - electro/rock, the guitarist - grunge, the drummer - punk, and the bassist - alternative/experimental] so we don't want to take it too seriously but then we're all so weighed down with work that we don't have time.
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ugh.
bring on the summer plz.

[Shaun]

[Sam!]

If you get too busy just bin TibbdoesFA. It is well less important than the other things.

[Ninastar]

Aww I am sorry! x Has it helped you posting this?? Sometimes hen I post how i am feeling it helps so much!!! x

[*mazedsalv**]

Aww, hope everything goes well with the performance. I would probably be like the others, im really unmotivated, and its really good that you want to do well, just tell them that you want to do the best you can and for them not to ruin it.

And yeah your bf will be tired after work, but at least you do those Orange Weds things.

As for the fancy dress parties, sounds good!!

[MarkWaldorf]

*dresses up as Darenn and does some work for him*

[xDramatick]

LOL MARK.
Thanks guys<3 It's helped a lottt ranting on here, it's what I've needed :| like a big weight off my shoulders 'cos it's hard to complain anywhere else :\