Who are you really?

[Conzors]

Hello.
I'm sure, because its a forum, that people are perceived really different on here, than they are in real life. Perhaps its due to the way that they write, how many pictures they upload, their jokes that just aren't funny on here, but if spoken would be hilarious.

I know I've made a judgment about people on here, that have turned out to be decent people outside the forum - and I'm pretty sure that people perceive me as some picture taking, self obsessed homosexual.

This thread is a positive thread about, maybe, posting about some of your vulnerabilities, your insecurities - or just random facts that just make you a real person, or that differs you from what is thought about you here.

I'll go first...

My name is Conor. I used to be quite a bigger person, so therefore after slimming down i am conscious of my weight, and tend to look at myself a lot/take a lot of pictures to re-assure myself that i actually look normal. I work in a bog standard shop and I recently moved out of my house, into living with two complete strangers. It's been hard adapting to this environment of individuality, and going from a household of six noisy people, to three quite people has been quite lonely - but i think i'm adapting quite well, from doing my own washing/cooking - to making my own company quite nice.

I turned 20 a few weeks ago, and this past year I have really grown up and found myself as a person, and I'm much happier with who i am, how i am, and who i am around. I like to be positive. Nothing really disgusts me, and you can be the biggest slag around, and i wouldn't care because i make a judgement on how people act towards me. Each to their own.

I am known at work for farting a lot because i must take in a lot of wind because I eat so fast - I have IBS, and being a homosexual that's hard because nobody wants a ****dick.

I used to think i got bullied a lot in school, so i used to make a big deal out of it when really i know they were only having a laugh, but as a Vulnerable teenager who didn't really know who he was it seemed really bad a real.

I've only ever had one fight in my life, and I won. Yay.

I am very clumsy, fall over atleast once a day - i'm always banging myself. I've cut my bum cheek open twice, my penis once, my head three times and have been in hospital every year of my life up until the age of about 13. I get paranoid easily, but once i know you well that eases off a bit.

I'm not serious unless i need to be - thats the way i believe life should be!

I can't open medicine bottles, and i have a phobia of urinals and citrus (the actual thing, not the juice)

I am currently volunteering at a disabled home where there's people with autism, learning difficulties, down syndrome etc - and I am hoping to go into that field full time - Working a full time job and volunteering is tiring but hopefully it will pay off.

Now, you?

[Fetch The Bolt Cutters]

i am jackie travers

[thesheriff443]

Hello.
I'm sure, because its a forum, that people are perceived really different on here, than they are in real life. Perhaps its due to the way that they write, how many pictures they upload, their jokes that just aren't funny on here, but if spoken would be hilarious.

I know I've made a judgment about people on here, that have turned out to be decent people outside the forum - and I'm pretty sure that people perceive me as some picture taking, self obsessed homosexual.

This thread is a positive thread about, maybe, posting about some of your vulnerabilities, your insecurities - or just random facts that just make you a real person, or that differs you from what is thought about you here.

I'll go first...

My name is Conor. I used to be quite a bigger person, so therefore after slimming down i am conscious of my weight, and tend to look at myself a lot/take a lot of pictures to re-assure myself that i actually look normal. I work in a bog standard shop and I recently moved out of my house, into living with two complete strangers. It's been hard adapting to this environment of individuality, and going from a household of six noisy people, to three quite people has been quite lonely - but i think i'm adapting quite well, from doing my own washing/cooking - to making my own company quite nice.

I turned 20 a few weeks ago, and this past year I have really grown up and found myself as a person, and I'm much happier with who i am, how i am, and who i am around. I like to be positive. Nothing really disgusts me, and you can be the biggest slag around, and i wouldn't care because i make a judgement on how people act towards me. Each to their own.

I am known at work for farting a lot because i must take in a lot of wind because I eat so fast - I have IBS, and being a homosexual that's hard because nobody wants a ****dick.

I am currently volunteering at a disabled home where there's people with autism, learning difficulties, down syndrome etc - and I am hoping to go into that field full time - Working a full time job and volunteering is tiring but hopefully it will pay off.

Now, you?

great post, your a very open person.

[jackc1806]

Hello.
I'm sure, because its a forum, that people are perceived really different on here, than they are in real life. Perhaps its due to the way that they write, how many pictures they upload, their jokes that just aren't funny on here, but if spoken would be hilarious.

I know I've made a judgment about people on here, that have turned out to be decent people outside the forum - and I'm pretty sure that people perceive me assome picture taking, self obsessed homosexual.


This thread is a positive thread about, maybe, posting about some of your vulnerabilities, your insecurities - or just random facts that just make you a real person, or that differs you from what is thought about you here.

I'll go first...

My name is Conor. I used to be quite a bigger person, so therefore after slimming down i am conscious of my weight, and tend to look at myself a lot/take a lot of pictures to re-assure myself that i actually look normal. I work in a bog standard shop and I recently moved out of my house, into living with two complete strangers. It's been hard adapting to this environment of individuality, and going from a household of six noisy people, to three quite people has been quite lonely - but i think i'm adapting quite well, from doing my own washing/cooking - to making my own company quite nice.

I turned 20 a few weeks ago, and this past year I have really grown up and found myself as a person, and I'm much happier with who i am, how i am, and who i am around. I like to be positive. Nothing really disgusts me, and you can be the biggest slag around, and i wouldn't care because i make a judgement on how people act towards me. Each to their own.

I am known at work for farting a lot because i must take in a lot of wind because I eat so fast - I have IBS, and being a homosexual that's hard because nobody wants a ****dick.

I am currently volunteering at a disabled home where there's people with autism, learning difficulties, down syndrome etc - and I am hoping to go into that field full time - Working a full time job and volunteering is tiring but hopefully it will pay off.

Now, you?


Not at all. You seem really nice and you don't come across like that :)

[Conzors]

thanks :D
what about you?
anything that makes any of you different from here?
x

[Vanessa]

Im Keiser Sose.

[HD]

What's IBS?

Oh I googled.

do you like, randomly **** or something? :confused:

[Vicky.]

Hmm

I'm Vicky. I am a DJ primarily, but also a karaoke presenter/singer. Work has dried up a lot recently so I am looking for something a bit more steady..but not looking very hard if I am honest. I am one of those people who just expects things to fall in my lap rather than actually work hard to get something..has done me well so far :p

I recently had a baby and have been rather fat since then..but again..havent really done anything about it so far. Keep using the excuse that I have just had a baby, but that excuse will only wash for so long, its been 7 months now and I have only lost half a stone of pregnancy weight..so I'm going to have to get my (large) arse into gear soon to get it sorted.

I am addicted to gambling. Literally every spare penny I have goes on gambling of some sort. Which is a BAD combination when you have a kid. I also need to sort that out because I feel sometimes that I am wasting cash on a buzz when I should be buying more stuff for my child. She doesnt go without or anything, and she has more than enough of everything, but I still feel guilty for spending money on nothing.

I am emetophobic..which means fear of vomit. This is awful and affects my everyday life. If I am out drinking or something, I am constantly worried that someone around me has had too much and is going to be sick. If I know anyone is ill I avoid them for weeks and weeks until I am sure its out of their system. Oddly enough, I can deal with Skye being sick..but thats it. Even my partner, if he is ill, is relegated to another room until its over.

This has been quite negative really..but I do enjoy life in general. Especially when I have had some codeine, which seem to work as antidepressants..I dont know if they are meant to. Was given them when I was taken into hospital not long ago with suspected appendicitus(turned out to be a cyst)..and now if I feel a bit down I have a couple and I'm much better within about half an hour

Anyway..probably said more than I should but there you go :laugh2:

[thesheriff443]

Hmm

I'm Vicky. I am a DJ primarily, but also a karaoke presenter/singer. Work has dried up a lot recently so I am looking for something a bit more steady..but not looking very hard if I am honest. I am one of those people who just expects things to fall in my lap rather than actually work hard to get something..has done me well so far :p

I recently had a baby and have been rather fat since then..but again..havent really done anything about it so far. Keep using the excuse that I have just had a baby, but that excuse will only wash for so long, its been 7 months now and I have only lost half a stone of pregnancy weight..so I'm going to have to get my (large) arse into gear soon to get it sorted.

I am addicted to gambling. Literally every spare penny I have goes on gambling of some sort. Which is a BAD combination when you have a kid. I also need to sort that out because I feel sometimes that I am wasting cash on a buzz when I should be buying more stuff for my child. She doesnt go without or anything, and she has more than enough of everything, but I still feel guilty for spending money on nothing.

I am emetophobic..which means fear of vomit. This is awful and affects my everyday life. If I am out drinking or something, I am constantly worried that someone around me has had too much and is going to be sick. If I know anyone is ill I avoid them for weeks and weeks until I am sure its out of their system. Oddly enough, I can deal with Skye being sick..but thats it. Even my partner, if he is ill, is relegated to another room until its over.

This has been quite negative really..but I do enjoy life in general. Especially when I have had some codeine, which seem to work as antidepressants..I dont know if they are meant to. Was given them when I was taken into hospital not long ago with suspected appendicitus(turned out to be a cyst)..and now if I feel a bit down I have a couple and I'm much better within about half an hour

Anyway..probably said more than I should but there you go :laugh2:

this has to be one of the most honest posts i have seen or ever likely to see on this forum!.
i hope you can knock the codeine on the head, they are highly addictive.

[jackc1806]

this has to be one of the most honest posts i have seen or every likely to see on this forum!.
i hope you can knock the codeine on the head, they are highly addictive.

Ditto.
Hope you feel better soon Vicky!

[Cherie]

Hmm

I'm Vicky. I am a DJ primarily, but also a karaoke presenter/singer. Work has dried up a lot recently so I am looking for something a bit more steady..but not looking very hard if I am honest. I am one of those people who just expects things to fall in my lap rather than actually work hard to get something..has done me well so far :p

I recently had a baby and have been rather fat since then..but again..havent really done anything about it so far. Keep using the excuse that I have just had a baby, but that excuse will only wash for so long, its been 7 months now and I have only lost half a stone of pregnancy weight..so I'm going to have to get my (large) arse into gear soon to get it sorted.

I am addicted to gambling. Literally every spare penny I have goes on gambling of some sort. Which is a BAD combination when you have a kid. I also need to sort that out because I feel sometimes that I am wasting cash on a buzz when I should be buying more stuff for my child. She doesnt go without or anything, and she has more than enough of everything, but I still feel guilty for spending money on nothing.

I am emetophobic..which means fear of vomit. This is awful and affects my everyday life. If I am out drinking or something, I am constantly worried that someone around me has had too much and is going to be sick. If I know anyone is ill I avoid them for weeks and weeks until I am sure its out of their system. Oddly enough, I can deal with Skye being sick..but thats it. Even my partner, if he is ill, is relegated to another room until its over.

This has been quite negative really..but I do enjoy life in general. Especially when I have had some codeine, which seem to work as antidepressants..I dont know if they are meant to. Was given them when I was taken into hospital not long ago with suspected appendicitus(turned out to be a cyst)..and now if I feel a bit down I have a couple and I'm much better within about half an hour

Anyway..probably said more than I should but there you go :laugh2:

Wow, that is honest, whatever about the gambling, the codeine has to go Vicky.

[Ninastar]

codeine <3

[LikeABoatOnWater]

I value my anonymity.

[Kizzy]

Well seeing as we are sharing...
I'm a recovering alcoholic, it crept up on me from a few bevvies with mates gradually building up to drinking alone,
It severely affected my health and have had related problems since, but not touched a drop since 24th december so am well on the road to recovery.
I worked for yrs as a housekeeper in a hotel but left to get some GCSE's at 35.
I promised myself by 40 I would be educated, slim, sober, working and in a relationship...
Not quite there but ticking them off... :)

[Doogle]

I'm Dylan, I'm a 15 year old originally from London who now lives in Dover where there's not much to do. I live with my mum. My dad is a Turkish musician who lives in Malta (he was in the running to represent Malta on Eurovision this year apparently but he didn't get it s0b) and I speak to him occasionally on Facebook but I've never met him. I'm an only child (my dad has another daughter but I don't know her) and I live in a little countryside village within Dover with terrible internet and no shops or transport.

When I got to like 11 I became really fat like loads of kids do but people made comments for years about my weight and it still bothers me now even though people keep telling me otherwise :joker:

I sing a lot, I'm not tone deaf but I'm nothing special. A musical director (Barney Ashworth) whom I worked with recently told me I had talent though which gave me a confidence boost. I go to a drama group every week and have done loads of plays over the years, but still get extremely nervous before every single one.

My plan in life is to be a journalist or work in PR or something, I don't have any idea but my dream ambition is probably talk show host, as pathetic as that sounds.

TL;DR I'm fairly uninteresting

[Marcus.]

my names marc i am 24 years old
i have to on time for everything
i am a shy man around ladies
i am at the red cross vol
i have been told i have told i have different problems but they can pin it down that much
i am always happy and very smiley
if any little bit goes wrong i panic

hope that ok

[Jarrod]

My name is Jarrod Jones, 16 and living in Wales at the moment. Moved to Wales from Wolverhampton when I was 9 years old to a small seaside town on the north coast. I was pretty big... weight wise. I had no worries about my looks etc until I started high school where I slimmed down to 11st (I'm that now) and 5ft 12. Brownish hair, finally I have longish hair actually (Like... Louis Tomlinson's style from a year or so ago) and finally wearing clothes which are fashionable and nice (I never took pride in myself until pretty recently)

I recently finished Year 11 and my GCSE's and I'm nervously waiting on the results. I currently live with just my mum, brother and sister. My dad doesn't live with us anymore. For the past year, I've had an ongoing battle with Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder after an event which basically knocked me really badly. I'm getting over it and to be honest I really do think I am now.

I never really made that many friends in school until around Year 9 where I latched onto a small group where we stayed together and we are still best friends now. I came out as gay to select few in March and then eventually to everybody at the beginning of May. Actually I think TiBB knew before my mum... Honestly, my life isn't bad. I get around and I enjoy it. I aspire to be either a producer for television or film, an actor or set designer.

My current job... I don't have one. I run my own BB website which is such an amazing experience, you see Big Brother through a different light it's great.

Phobias
Spiders
Knifes
Fire
Alcohol
Cigarettes
Enclosed spaces
The underneath of airplanes and boats
Being lonely
Industrial type things (Mines, dumps anything like that)
Bees and Wasps
Onions...

[Conzors]

see there you go!
Vicky - you may not feel beautiful but you squeezed the most beautiful thing out of your vagina - you'll feel more healthy soon, maybe cut down on the gambling and codeyne, but whatever makes you happy. Your sick phobia is not unusual either - i know alot of people that have it.

Kizzy - i praise you. Alcoholism is a hard thing get over, especially when there are loads of influences around you! - keep it up and maybe in the future you can trust yourself to control it and drink it on special occasions - maybe have a glass on your 40th aye ;).

Doogle - i need to hear your music, im sure your very talented and more confidence you will get to where you need to be. So cool that your dads a turkish musician, its not everyday that you hear that!

Marcus - Red cross <3 - when i had to be in a wheelchair thats where i got mine from! - maybe panic a bit less and just go with the flow - and with the ladies, just be yourself - your really really sweet :D

[Vicky.]

but you squeezed the most beautiful thing out of your vagina

-

PMSL :laugh2:

[Conzors]

My name is Jarrod Jones, 16 and living in Wales at the moment. Moved to Wales from Wolverhampton when I was 9 years old to a small seaside town on the north coast. I was pretty big... weight wise. I had no worries about my looks etc until I started high school where I slimmed down to 11st (I'm that now) and 5ft 12. Brownish hair, finally I have longish hair actually (Like... Louis Tomlinson's style from a year or so ago) and finally wearing clothes which are fashionable and nice (I never took pride in myself until pretty recently)

I recently finished Year 11 and my GCSE's and I'm nervously waiting on the results. I currently live with just my mum, brother and sister. My dad doesn't live with us anymore. For the past year, I've had an ongoing battle with Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder after an event which basically knocked me really badly. I'm getting over it and to be honest I really do think I am now.

I never really made that many friends in school until around Year 9 where I latched onto a small group where we stayed together and we are still best friends now. I came out as gay to select few in March and then eventually to everybody at the beginning of May. Honestly, my life isn't bad. I get around and I enjoy it. I aspire to be either a producer for television or film, an actor or set designer.

My current job... I don't have one. I run my own BB website which is such an amazing experience, you see Big Brother through a different light it's great.

Your like me with the whole appearance thing! I'm so happy your coming out was good too - it should be made to be such a big thing!! - Maybe in the future you can speak about your incident and maybe inspire others! Im sure your GCSE's are just fine, you have over a month till the results, so get with your friends and enjoy your summer! Stop worrying mr! x

[Jarrod]

Your like me with the whole appearance thing! I'm so happy your coming out was good too - it should be made to be such a big thing!! - Maybe in the future you can speak about your incident and maybe inspire others! Im sure your GCSE's are just fine, you have over a month till the results, so get with your friends and enjoy your summer! Stop worrying mr! x

We're pretty alike then if you think about it. :) Thanks dude. Means a lot :love:

[Conzors]

I am very clumsy, fall over atleast once a day - i'm always banging myself. I've cut my bum cheek open twice, my penis once, my head three times and have been in hospital every year of my life up until the age of about 13. I get paranoid easily, but once i know you well that eases off a bit.

I'm not serious unless i need to be - thats the way i believe life should be!

[Conzors]

We're pretty alike then if you think about it. :) Thanks dude. Means a lot :love:
We are! Seriously i never cared about my weight or appearance till high school, then i got too skinny and got bullied and didnt make friends till about year 9, and i still talk to my best friend from that group everyday to this day - and im 20.
If you do need advice or anything mister message me, i'll gladly help <3.

but you squeezed the most beautiful thing out of your vagina

-

PMSL :laugh2:
hahahaha sorry, i word things weird.

[Jarrod]

I am very clumsy, fall over atleast once a day - i'm always banging myself. I've cut my bum cheek open twice, my penis once, my head three times and have been in hospital every year of my life up until the age of about 13. I get paranoid easily, but once i know you well that eases off a bit.

I'm not serious unless i need to be - thats the way i believe life should be!

Oh dear. :O

Same with the paranoia. Seriously we seem to have a bit in common.

[Marcus.]

Marcus - Red cross <3 - when i had to be in a wheelchair thats where i got mine from! - maybe panic a bit less and just go with the flow - and with the ladies, just be yourself - your really really sweet :D

awww bless ya
i taking classes for the panic
and thanks

[Conzors]

awww bless ya
i taking classes for the panic
and thanks

Yay!
I've noticed your writing has improved too! Keep it up man!
x

[Conzors]

I can't open medicine bottles, and i have a phobia of urinals and citrus (the actual thing, not the juice)

[Conzors]

Oh dear. :O

Same with the paranoia. Seriously we seem to have a bit in common.

it seems we do!

[Kizzy]

Aw thanks conzors this is better than therapy haha!

[Jarrod]

Put my phobias up..

[Marcus.]

Yay!
I've noticed your writing has improved too! Keep it up man!
x

thank you
had help with that from classes and the amazing members on here

[Conzors]

Aw thanks conzors this is better than therapy haha!
haha - it's just a good way of understanding each other - or maybe just getting to know - like now me and jarrod are now similar and we have things to discuss!

BRINGING THE FORUM TOGETHER!

thank you
had help with that from classes and the amazing members on here
So good Marcus!
Keep it up you actually are doing really well.
x

[Marcus.]

So good Marcus!
Keep it up you actually are doing really well.
x

thanks

[Munchkins]

Eh i've wrote about my eating disorder problems and things like that on here before, cba to do it again :laugh:
Interesting reads of everyone though! it's amazing how people can be so honest on here

[Munchkins]

Eh i may post a long post tomorrow when i can be bothered i dont even know :laugh:

[Patrick]

I am known at work for farting a lot because i must take in a lot of wind because I eat so fast - I have IBS, and being a homosexual that's hard because nobody wants a ****dick.


:joker::joker::joker:

[Patrick]

I'll do mine - I'm pie eyed and listening to Pink Floyd so this should be good.


I'm Patrick, hi. Most of you know me (older members, not like age.. but duration wise) anyway - but for those of you who don't, I'm nearly seventeen years old and have just left school - starting college in September to do a two year course on Film and TV Production as I've always had an interest in that area.

Over the course of my short life so far - so much has happened, things that wouldn't normally happen to a typical teenager.

When my Mum and Dad split up back in 2002, I had to move away and became isolated from friends. The only company I had was my little brother, having alot of free time lead me to developing an interest in Big Brother, an interest that only developed further as the years went on, until eventually I joined this forum and for two years it became my primary source for socializing.

When the end of 2010 came - I changed as a person, dramatically in quite a short space of time, unintentionally aswell.
I've became more outgoing, more sure of myself and who I am, and have learnt alot.

I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder, Sensory Processing Disorder and Aspergers - all within 8 months, after dealing with sever depression and prolonged insomnia the previous year.

I got picked on quite alot in school for being different, it wasn't until the final two years that people started respecting me for who I was and felt able to include me - the last few months of 2012, I was attacked numerous times in town - this ultimately has driven me to complete and utter paranoia, but I'm overcoming it now and hopefully, getting back to myself and hope to have a good summer.


Hope that wasn't too long or dull haha x

[Munchkins]

Here goes omg, i bet no-one will read this but :laugh:

Hello I’m Jenna, and I’m from the UK.. I’m sweet Seventeen.. fun fun fun. I really have no idea what I want to do in the future, I get really good grades, but I just have no idea what I should be, and so im kinda stuck at a crossroad which sucks, as I’ll have to make my mind up soon enough

I’m a bit of a selfish bitch, I put up a front, and don’t let anyone in to be honest, most of my best friends don’t know the slightest of information about me, like some of my best friends didn’t even know where I lived until like a few months ago, and they’ve known me all my life. I come across cold at times, and I’d rather just not let people get close to me, I prefer to be alone, and that sucks but it is what it is, and I feel guilty for my friends. I've recently started socializing more, but it's been very very difficult


I got diagnosed with EDNOS (Eating disorder not otherwise specified) when I was 13, I’ve always hated how I look and I ABSOLUTELY cannot stand writing things like this on the internet, or even talking about it in real life, because it just comes across complete attention seeking and that annoys me, so I just never bother to talk about it, I’d rather people not know, so this post is hard. At my worst I was simply having a bottle of volvic flavoured water, and a Rivita, I genuinely just thought I was so fat and ugly. I currently weigh 7 stone 3lbs and I’m really not happy at all, but I’m forcing myself to get through it. I’ll never be happy with how I look tbh, and I’ll always want to be thinner or have a smaller nose etc, but I’m just trying to learn to live with it, and focusing on my studies, prevents me from getting too sad about it. I've never self harmed or anything though ,because the thought of harming my body would just make me hate it even more idk! :s

I love Dancing, I find it such a passion participating in tournaments and everything, and it takes my mind off a lot of things!
I identified my self as Asexual a few months ago, but I know that isn’t true, it’s very complicated, I can’t see myself ever going out with someone, the thought of ever letting someone into my life, and allowing them to know everything about me utterly terrifies me, and so I just don’t see the point. I can put up a front online, and everything but in real life the thought of someone even touching me or kissing me makes me want to be sick, and that’s scary, like the thought of it makes me shiver nad that’s not right for someone my age :s

So yeah I really have no idea what I’ll do in the future, and I hate the thought that this post will just be deemed as attention seeking but whatever -_-

[Kizzy]

Wow what amazing honest responses, kudos to both of you for being so open.

[Withano]

withadefinitely

but I'm far too ironic

[GypsyGoth]

Wow, really good reading these :love:


My name is Claudia and I live with my mom and sometimes her boyfriend stays here. I have an older sister and it’s strange how a few years ago I had good relationships with friends and a not so good one with my family, and now that’s the complete reverse. I still meet a friend for a walk or a chat but I’d consider my sister as probably being my best friend now.

I don’t drink or smoke, I like being healthy.

I’ve lived over half my life without my father, he died of cancer. I have memories of him and I think my life would have been very different had he lived. I feel I was too young for his death to register with me properly, I don’t recall crying that much, however when our family dog (well he became my dog in his final years) died I was totally heartbroken.

Continuing the sad theme, part of my life I’ve suffering from depression, that was a really tough time. I attempted suicide and fully expected to die, I used to cut myself, and I had weird reactions to drugs. I was in a pretty dark place.

I don’t think there was any turning point in my life, I was on meds for a short time and just things slowly started to change, my outlook on life brightened. My diet now includes foods that are meant to lift my mood, and I exercise regularly.

I’m passionate about writing and I love doing research.

I took a year out from education with my mom’s permission, kinda a gap year, mainly to write but secretly I think I wanted to start to feel happy inside again. And of course I found here. The year turned into two and so on, anyway now I hope to be starting a job later in the year, it’ll be my first one.

Not sure what else to put, I've a lot of flaws, I’m still mildly crazy but other than that I don’t think I’m that interesting.

[billy123]

Im not bob.

[thesheriff443]

to all that have wrote on here, I have the upmost respect for you all!.
its very brave to show people the real you.
it also shows how strong you are and that you are dealing with issues that can make life a living hell.

[mizzy25]

mine quite boring to the rest of u on here. my name is carole and im 46 ive been living with my partner peter since I was 23 im engaged but have no intention of getting married. we have 7 dogs (whippets) 4 live in the garden in kennels and 3 oldies in the house. the 4 that live outside go racing @ weekend. whippet racing is different to greyhound racing, theres no betting and they run on a field, still out of traps behind a lure with muzzles on but its more family orientated. im even secretary of the local whippet club even though I don't want to be lol I write a column for a whippet magazine monthly about the dogs from my region. I love writing and would love to do more of it but I just don't get round to it. I have chrones disease which im on medication for so @ the moment it doesn't really affect my life but if I ever get a flare up its really really bad but codeine helps a lot I take one every day which the drs know about. I also have carpol tunnel which affects your fingers/thumbs they sometimes swell up but its been ok lately as well as that I have sciatica in my back which exercize helps a lot and u have excema on my hands. for work I currently work part time for an agency cleaning houses,something that I know u could do myself if I ws motivated enough. Ive started to get into keeping fit and do 2 classes a weekl one is kettlebells one is a bootcamp. I used to have a massive phobia of moths but lately ive had loads in the house thankfully just small ones so now I can kill them @ one point I couldn't be in the same room as them. I have very weird dreams which ive actually grown to love and look forward to, yes odd I know. the one I had last night my car got stolen but it wasn't the car I have. Im a complete tv addict and would rather stay in and watch the bb eviction on a fri night that go out. I also love the soaps especially home and away and I love the chase. that's about it about me quite boring tbh.

[Kizzy]

Far from boring mizzy, phew I feel exhausted reading your activities!
Gypsy, I hope you do become a published writer I think you have a special gift.

[Ninastar]

So many brave people on here. makes me feel selfish for not realising it.

I dont know where to start really. i guess i could start with the fact that I was born in Scotland...

I was born in scotland in a town on the coast. I lived there for a few months and then we moved to Pensacola, Florida. I wish I could remember living there because it was beautiful. But I was only 6 months old. We then moved to Italy where I stayed until I was 2.

When in Italy, outside the apartment we lived in there was a box on the side of the road. Inside it we found some kittens (I say this like i walked outside and found them myself... I didn't. Anyway) and we still have one of them to this day. He's very old now. I fear we are going to lose him soon. it terrifies me. I've had him in my life longer than my sisters. I think that's my biggest fear at the minute. Loosing our cat. I'm not ready and I know it will kill me when it does happen.

Anyway... I moved from Italy, back to America (Maryland) when I was 4. We stayed there for 7 years and I miss it so much. I think that was the happiest point of my life growing up over there. I don't know whether I want to go back or not.

We moved to England when I was 10/11 and have stayed in the same house since.

When my grandmother died in 2005, we had to go up to Scotland every weekend for pretty much a year to help my Grandad fix the house up. It was a fire and the living room, office, kitchen and laundry room were destroyed. My grandad tried to save my grandma, but he couldn't. He ran out to the main road for help, but 3 people drove past until 1 man finally stopped.

I don't think the was fixed until a year and a half later.

it's awful, but this event happening in my life has pretty much ****ed my life up. My mum ended up with depression and had a drinking disorder. Its pretty much the reason my grandma died (she drank too much and took sleeping pills and fell asleep whilst smoking). For the longest time, my mother was a horrible horrible woman. I could have honestly said I hated her. My parents split up and it was that bad that my sisters and I wanted to move away and live with my dad.

I think once my mum realised this, she knew she had done wrong. She stopped drinking (replaced it with smoking) and went to the doctors and they put her on medication immediately. She's like a different woman now. The woman i loved growing up. She's like my best friend.

Which is why I'm struggling so much at the minute.

I have no idea what i want to do in life. I hate my job right now. It's an awful place to work in. I know i'm going to leave soon, but I don't know what I want to do career wise. It's really messing with me. I'm stuck and I don't know what to do.

God this sounds all like doom and gloom, but i am pretty happy i guess. I'm just going through a tough time.

[Niall]

I think I'll give this a go too. It's been really interesting to read everyone else's! :D

I'm Niall, and I'm 18. I live in a Elm Park, Havering which is a boring London suburb. I've been here all my life and it's a nice place really I guess.

When I was 5, my parents divorced and my Mum went to live in Italy for 6 years. I kind of hated going over there to see her, not only because it meant being cut off from home and everything that was familiar but also because I hated her new boyfriend that she lived with. Though he never used to hit her, he was often verbally abusive to her, which is something that's stuck in my head to this day. I also used to speak Italian quite fluently when I was little, thanks to all the time I spent there. But because I never practised it when I came back home, I've sort of lost it all. It's a shame really.

Eventually she left him, and after a short return to Britain, my Mum lived in Ireland for another 6 years. That was... better, but having a parent a country away didn't make things easy really. Recently though, she's moved back to Britain for good, and I don't think it's quite sunk in yet. I have this odd feeling and I'm not sure how I feel over it all. I'm happy of course, but simultaneously it's so alien to me I'm not sure what I think about it.

Other than all that, I'm not terribly interesting. Eventually I want to be an author. I know that's a bit aspirational so I want to try and get into video game writing before that as an actual career, but one day I really hope that a book I've written does become a bestseller. It's a big dream of mine. :tongue: So to try and achieve all of that, i'm going to be (hopefully) studying English at University come September. It's always been one of my favourite subjects, and my grades for it at A-Level have been far better than anything else I've ever achieved in any other subject. Hopefully I'll get the grades to get into Uni! I also love to read, mainly because of the fact that in Italy there was no English entertainment when I was little. Immersing myself into any book is something I love to do. :love:

I also have really bad anxiety problems. I have anxiety attacks when I go out and I'm positive I suffer from a mixture of agoraphobia and social anxiety disorder. I'm supposed to be entering into therapy for it all shortly which should hopefully get rid of it all. It's just such an irritating thing though, I mean the anxiety keeps me from going out with my friends and stuff and It's just horrible.

I love to travel too, and thus far I've been quite lucky. My parents used to go to Florida quite often when I was small, so my brother and I have been at least 7 times each. Since then I've been to all sorts of different places, but my favourites will always be Florida and the trip to China I took with my Mum a few years ago. Some day I want to visit Japan (and learn Japanese too), South Korea, Hainan (in China), Hong Kong, Moscow, and take a massive road trip across the west coast of the US.

[Niall]

So many brave people on here. makes me feel selfish for not realising it.

I dont know where to start really. i guess i could start with the fact that I was born in Scotland...

I was born in scotland in a town on the coast. I lived there for a few months and then we moved to Pensacola, Florida. I wish I could remember living there because it was beautiful. But I was only 6 months old. We then moved to Italy where I stayed until I was 2.

When in Italy, outside the apartment we lived in there was a box on the side of the road. Inside it we found some kittens (I say this like i walked outside and found them myself... I didn't. Anyway) and we still have one of them to this day. He's very old now. I fear we are going to lose him soon. it terrifies me. I've had him in my life longer than my sisters. I think that's my biggest fear at the minute. Loosing our cat. I'm not ready and I know it will kill me when it does happen.

Anyway... I moved from Italy, back to America (Maryland) when I was 4. We stayed there for 7 years and I miss it so much. I think that was the happiest point of my life growing up over there. I don't know whether I want to go back or not.

We moved to England when I was 10/11 and have stayed in the same house since.

When my grandmother died in 2005, we had to go up to Scotland every weekend for pretty much a year to help my Grandad fix the house up. It was a fire and the living room, office, kitchen and laundry room were destroyed. My grandad tried to save my grandma, but he couldn't. He ran out to the main road for help, but 3 people drove past until 1 man finally stopped.

I don't think the was fixed until a year and a half later.

it's awful, but this event happening in my life has pretty much ****ed my life up. My mum ended up with depression and had a drinking disorder. Its pretty much the reason my grandma died (she drank too much and took sleeping pills and fell asleep whilst smoking). For the longest time, my mother was a horrible horrible woman. I could have honestly said I hated her. My parents split up and it was that bad that my sisters and I wanted to move away and live with my dad.

I think once my mum realised this, she knew she had done wrong. She stopped drinking (replaced it with smoking) and went to the doctors and they put her on medication immediately. She's like a different woman now. The woman i loved growing up. She's like my best friend.

Which is why I'm struggling so much at the minute.

I have no idea what i want to do in life. I hate my job right now. It's an awful place to work in. I know i'm going to leave soon, but I don't know what I want to do career wise. It's really messing with me. I'm stuck and I don't know what to do.

God this sounds all like doom and gloom, but i am pretty happy i guess. I'm just going through a tough time.

You're must be so strong to go through all that Caitlin. Whoa. :hug: And I never knew that you lived in Italy before? :shocked:

[michael21]

well

i am awesome

[Firewire]

My name is Jonathan. I'm 17 and I live in Glasgow. I've lived in Glasgow for my whole life and it's not such a bad place. I live outside of the main city, in a small town. It's quiet, nice and just a nice place to live. However, it is boring. I've lived in the same house for 13 years, which isn't so bad (it's in a nice area), with my parents, my younger brother (aged 15) and my two younger sisters (aged 12 and 7), and, of course, my dog, Buddy, a Jack Russell Terrier.

I recently left school. For the last two years of school I suffered a great deal of abuse. I befriended a boy in my year and subsequently fell for him, which I wish I hadn't. I trusted him more than I should have, but I couldn't help it. I told him everything. I came out to him some time in August 2011. I confided in him and he told people behind my back, which I wasn't ready for, yet. I didn't really know this until recently. He cheated on his ex-girlfriend with his current girlfriend, and I told his ex-girlfriend, "A", a close friend of mine now, that this happened. I think this ruined everything, but I personally don't care because I feel it was right of me to do. It happened at a party 18 months and I recently found out that it happened many more times, which backed up my view of me being in the right. At the time, however, "C" didn't let on that I had did him wrong. We continued being friends, or so I thought.

During my penultimate year of school, I was left out. I went out with my friends fairly little because C's friend "L" had a hatred for me. To this day I'm still not completely sure why she hates me, was it because I exposed her friend's affair (which I actually didn't expose it exposed itself)? Or was it because I was gay? I was now out and it wasn't easy. The group consisted of about 20 people and I liked most of them. There were just three who tried to make my time hell. One of them was C, whom I thought was one of my best friends, I just didn't know it was all fake.

Everything changed (for the better?) about 8 months ago. Our group of 16 split and now features a group of 8 (which I am part of and happen to be the only boy) and another bigger group. We have literally been at war since. At a party, I received abuse via twitter from CLJ, L told me that she wishes that she could "slit my throat", J said that my career prospects were "busking on the streets" and C said that I was a "******" (tell me something I don't know) and then laughed about it.

Since the group's divide, I have been a much happier person. However, this doesn't stop the group of dickheads trying to put me down whenever they can. I've left school now and I've left all these people behind. I never have to see them again.

Other things that are worth knowing are the fact that I once got suspended for calling my Headteacher "Adolf Hitler" on Wikipedia, I want to be famous and I once met Cleo Rocos in Victoria Station.

There's so much more that there is to know, but I'll leave it at this right now.

[Conzors]

I'm so happy people are taking to this thread nicely! I know I think i know you all a little more now!

I'll do mine - I'm pie eyed and listening to Pink Floyd so this should be good.


I'm Patrick, hi. Most of you know me (older members, not like age.. but duration wise) anyway - but for those of you who don't, I'm nearly seventeen years old and have just left school - starting college in September to do a two year course on Film and TV Production as I've always had an interest in that area.

Over the course of my short life so far - so much has happened, things that wouldn't normally happen to a typical teenager.

When my Mum and Dad split up back in 2002, I had to move away and became isolated from friends. The only company I had was my little brother, having alot of free time lead me to developing an interest in Big Brother, an interest that only developed further as the years went on, until eventually I joined this forum and for two years it became my primary source for socializing.

When the end of 2010 came - I changed as a person, dramatically in quite a short space of time, unintentionally aswell.
I've became more outgoing, more sure of myself and who I am, and have learnt alot.

I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder, Sensory Processing Disorder and Aspergers - all within 8 months, after dealing with sever depression and prolonged insomnia the previous year.

I got picked on quite alot in school for being different, it wasn't until the final two years that people started respecting me for who I was and felt able to include me - the last few months of 2012, I was attacked numerous times in town - this ultimately has driven me to complete and utter paranoia, but I'm overcoming it now and hopefully, getting back to myself and hope to have a good summer.


Hope that wasn't too long or dull haha x
Aw Paddy! - I feel for you we have some similarities!

Here goes omg, i bet no-one will read this but :laugh:

Hello I’m Jenna, and I’m from the UK.. I’m sweet Seventeen.. fun fun fun. I really have no idea what I want to do in the future, I get really good grades, but I just have no idea what I should be, and so im kinda stuck at a crossroad which sucks, as I’ll have to make my mind up soon enough

I’m a bit of a selfish bitch, I put up a front, and don’t let anyone in to be honest, most of my best friends don’t know the slightest of information about me, like some of my best friends didn’t even know where I lived until like a few months ago, and they’ve known me all my life. I come across cold at times, and I’d rather just not let people get close to me, I prefer to be alone, and that sucks but it is what it is, and I feel guilty for my friends. I've recently started socializing more, but it's been very very difficult


I got diagnosed with EDNOS (Eating disorder not otherwise specified) when I was 13, I’ve always hated how I look and I ABSOLUTELY cannot stand writing things like this on the internet, or even talking about it in real life, because it just comes across complete attention seeking and that annoys me, so I just never bother to talk about it, I’d rather people not know, so this post is hard. At my worst I was simply having a bottle of volvic flavoured water, and a Rivita, I genuinely just thought I was so fat and ugly. I currently weigh 7 stone 3lbs and I’m really not happy at all, but I’m forcing myself to get through it. I’ll never be happy with how I look tbh, and I’ll always want to be thinner or have a smaller nose etc, but I’m just trying to learn to live with it, and focusing on my studies, prevents me from getting too sad about it. I've never self harmed or anything though ,because the thought of harming my body would just make me hate it even more idk! :s

I love Dancing, I find it such a passion participating in tournaments and everything, and it takes my mind off a lot of things!
I identified my self as Asexual a few months ago, but I know that isn’t true, it’s very complicated, I can’t see myself ever going out with someone, the thought of ever letting someone into my life, and allowing them to know everything about me utterly terrifies me, and so I just don’t see the point. I can put up a front online, and everything but in real life the thought of someone even touching me or kissing me makes me want to be sick, and that’s scary, like the thought of it makes me shiver nad that’s not right for someone my age :s

So yeah I really have no idea what I’ll do in the future, and I hate the thought that this post will just be deemed as attention seeking but whatever -_-
Not attention seeking - this thread is about this stuff!

Wow, really good reading these :love:


My name is Claudia and I live with my mom and sometimes her boyfriend stays here. I have an older sister and it’s strange how a few years ago I had good relationships with friends and a not so good one with my family, and now that’s the complete reverse. I still meet a friend for a walk or a chat but I’d consider my sister as probably being my best friend now.

I don’t drink or smoke, I like being healthy.

I’ve lived over half my life without my father, he died of cancer. I have memories of him and I think my life would have been very different had he lived. I feel I was too young for his death to register with me properly, I don’t recall crying that much, however when our family dog (well he became my dog in his final years) died I was totally heartbroken.

Continuing the sad theme, part of my life I’ve suffering from depression, that was a really tough time. I attempted suicide and fully expected to die, I used to cut myself, and I had weird reactions to drugs. I was in a pretty dark place.

I don’t think there was any turning point in my life, I was on meds for a short time and just things slowly started to change, my outlook on life brightened. My diet now includes foods that are meant to lift my mood, and I exercise regularly.

I’m passionate about writing and I love doing research.

I took a year out from education with my mom’s permission, kinda a gap year, mainly to write but secretly I think I wanted to start to feel happy inside again. And of course I found here. The year turned into two and so on, anyway now I hope to be starting a job later in the year, it’ll be my first one.

Not sure what else to put, I've a lot of flaws, I’m still mildly crazy but other than that I don’t think I’m that interesting.
Omg i would so read your book! You like an inspiration.

mine quite boring to the rest of u on here. my name is carole and im 46 ive been living with my partner peter since I was 23 im engaged but have no intention of getting married. we have 7 dogs (whippets) 4 live in the garden in kennels and 3 oldies in the house. the 4 that live outside go racing @ weekend. whippet racing is different to greyhound racing, theres no betting and they run on a field, still out of traps behind a lure with muzzles on but its more family orientated. im even secretary of the local whippet club even though I don't want to be lol I write a column for a whippet magazine monthly about the dogs from my region. I love writing and would love to do more of it but I just don't get round to it. I have chrones disease which im on medication for so @ the moment it doesn't really affect my life but if I ever get a flare up its really really bad but codeine helps a lot I take one every day which the drs know about. I also have carpol tunnel which affects your fingers/thumbs they sometimes swell up but its been ok lately as well as that I have sciatica in my back which exercize helps a lot and u have excema on my hands. for work I currently work part time for an agency cleaning houses,something that I know u could do myself if I ws motivated enough. Ive started to get into keeping fit and do 2 classes a weekl one is kettlebells one is a bootcamp. I used to have a massive phobia of moths but lately ive had loads in the house thankfully just small ones so now I can kill them @ one point I couldn't be in the same room as them. I have very weird dreams which ive actually grown to love and look forward to, yes odd I know. the one I had last night my car got stolen but it wasn't the car I have. Im a complete tv addict and would rather stay in and watch the bb eviction on a fri night that go out. I also love the soaps especially home and away and I love the chase. that's about it about me quite boring tbh.
Not boring - you seem really cool actually.

So many brave people on here. makes me feel selfish for not realising it.

I dont know where to start really. i guess i could start with the fact that I was born in Scotland...

I was born in scotland in a town on the coast. I lived there for a few months and then we moved to Pensacola, Florida. I wish I could remember living there because it was beautiful. But I was only 6 months old. We then moved to Italy where I stayed until I was 2.

When in Italy, outside the apartment we lived in there was a box on the side of the road. Inside it we found some kittens (I say this like i walked outside and found them myself... I didn't. Anyway) and we still have one of them to this day. He's very old now. I fear we are going to lose him soon. it terrifies me. I've had him in my life longer than my sisters. I think that's my biggest fear at the minute. Loosing our cat. I'm not ready and I know it will kill me when it does happen.

Anyway... I moved from Italy, back to America (Maryland) when I was 4. We stayed there for 7 years and I miss it so much. I think that was the happiest point of my life growing up over there. I don't know whether I want to go back or not.

We moved to England when I was 10/11 and have stayed in the same house since.

When my grandmother died in 2005, we had to go up to Scotland every weekend for pretty much a year to help my Grandad fix the house up. It was a fire and the living room, office, kitchen and laundry room were destroyed. My grandad tried to save my grandma, but he couldn't. He ran out to the main road for help, but 3 people drove past until 1 man finally stopped.

I don't think the was fixed until a year and a half later.

it's awful, but this event happening in my life has pretty much ****ed my life up. My mum ended up with depression and had a drinking disorder. Its pretty much the reason my grandma died (she drank too much and took sleeping pills and fell asleep whilst smoking). For the longest time, my mother was a horrible horrible woman. I could have honestly said I hated her. My parents split up and it was that bad that my sisters and I wanted to move away and live with my dad.

I think once my mum realised this, she knew she had done wrong. She stopped drinking (replaced it with smoking) and went to the doctors and they put her on medication immediately. She's like a different woman now. The woman i loved growing up. She's like my best friend.

Which is why I'm struggling so much at the minute.

I have no idea what i want to do in life. I hate my job right now. It's an awful place to work in. I know i'm going to leave soon, but I don't know what I want to do career wise. It's really messing with me. I'm stuck and I don't know what to do.

God this sounds all like doom and gloom, but i am pretty happy i guess. I'm just going through a tough time.
Yeah thats what i do - smile through the gloom, itll all work out eventually!

I think I'll give this a go too. It's been really interesting to read everyone else's! :D

I'm Niall, and I'm 18. I live in a Elm Park, Havering which is a boring London suburb. I've been here all my life and it's a nice place really I guess.

When I was 5, my parents divorced and my Mum went to live in Italy for 6 years. I kind of hated going over there to see her, not only because it meant being cut off from home and everything that was familiar but also because I hated her new boyfriend that she lived with. Though he never used to hit her, he was often verbally abusive to her, which is something that's stuck in my head to this day. I also used to speak Italian quite fluently when I was little, thanks to all the time I spent there. But because I never practised it when I came back home, I've sort of lost it all. It's a shame really.

Eventually she left him, and after a short return to Britain, my Mum lived in Ireland for another 6 years. That was... better, but having a parent a country away didn't make things easy really. Recently though, she's moved back to Britain for good, and I don't think it's quite sunk in yet. I have this odd feeling and I'm not sure how I feel over it all. I'm happy of course, but simultaneously it's so alien to me I'm not sure what I think about it.

Other than all that, I'm not terribly interesting. Eventually I want to be an author. I know that's a bit aspirational so I want to try and get into video game writing before that as an actual career, but one day I really hope that a book I've written does become a bestseller. It's a big dream of mine. :tongue: So to try and achieve all of that, i'm going to be (hopefully) studying English at University come September. It's always been one of my favourite subjects, and my grades for it at A-Level have been far better than anything else I've ever achieved in any other subject. Hopefully I'll get the grades to get into Uni! I also love to read, mainly because of the fact that in Italy there was no English entertainment when I was little. Immersing myself into any book is something I love to do. :love:

I also have really bad anxiety problems. I have anxiety attacks when I go out and I'm positive I suffer from a mixture of agoraphobia and social anxiety disorder. I'm supposed to be entering into therapy for it all shortly which should hopefully get rid of it all. It's just such an irritating thing though, I mean the anxiety keeps me from going out with my friends and stuff and It's just horrible.

I love to travel too, and thus far I've been quite lucky. My parents used to go to Florida quite often when I was small, so my brother and I have been at least 7 times each. Since then I've been to all sorts of different places, but my favourites will always be Florida and the trip to China I took with my Mum a few years ago. Some day I want to visit Japan (and learn Japanese too), South Korea, Hainan (in China), Hong Kong, Moscow, and take a massive road trip across the west coast of the US.
Omg, thats so cool you want to travel! I was thinking about that too!

[Conzors]

I used to think i got bullied a lot in school, so i used to make a big deal out of it when really i know they were only having a laugh, but as a Vulnerable teenager who didn't really know who he was it seemed really bad a real.

I've only ever had one fight in my life, and I won. Yay.

[HD]

Okay let's go:

I'm Kev, 23 from Teesside.

I've had a somewhat 'weird' upbringing, my mum & dad separated when I was about 6, they were always on and off for years to come, but now I've not seen him since December - doesn't bother me too much 'cos I'm a mummy's boy.

I've had a decent education with plenty of GCSEs & GNVQs nailed.
I had a good school life, I never stuck to one clique so I had plenty of mates,
However I had a rough patch in Year 8 when I got my phone stolen and was threatened with a knife, so I left school for 6 weeks. The boy who done it was, hmm, of an 'ethnic minority' and for months after I was very racist, I distanced myself from people who weren't white. I know this is wrong but I was a teenager and after what happened I didn't know any better, until I met this one person who changed my perception thankfully and now my stupid views are a thing of the past :hugesmile:

When I was 19 I went through a rough patch with no job etc, I used to spend hours on the internet and just locked myself away - Some days I wouldn't leave my room. This continued for another year until I met some new people, who were of the wrong crowd and I ended up drinking and taking coke most nights. This went on for a good few months until I decided enough was enough and I needed to get my life back on track!

Now at 23 things are looking up, although I left my job in March (was only temporary) I've got my confidence back, an amazing circle of friends and plenty of jobs applied for - just waiting for some unfortunate soul to take me on :devil:


Read ma full story in next weeks News of the World.

[Conzors]

Okay let's go:

I'm Kev, 23 from Teesside.

I've had a somewhat 'weird' upbringing, my mum & dad separated when I was about 6, they were always on and off for years to come, but now I've not seen him since December - doesn't bother me too much 'cos I'm a mummy's boy.

I've had a decent education with plenty of GCSEs & GNVQs nailed.
I had a good school life, I never stuck to one clique so I had plenty of mates,
However I had a rough patch in Year 8 when I got my phone stolen and was threatened with a knife, so I left school for 6 weeks. The boy who done it was, hmm, of an 'ethnic minority' and for months after I was very racist, I distanced myself from people who weren't white. I know this is wrong but I was a teenager and after what happened I didn't know any better, until I met this one person who changed my perception thankfully and now my stupid views are a thing of the past :hugesmile:

When I was 19 I went through a rough patch with no job etc, I used to spend hours on the internet and just locked myself away - Some days I wouldn't leave my room. This continued for another year until I met some new people, who were of the wrong crowd and I ended up drinking and taking coke most nights. This went on for a good few months until I decided enough was enough and I needed to get my life back on track!

Now at 23 things are looking up, although I left my job in March (was only temporary) I've got my confidence back, an amazing circle of friends and plenty of jobs applied for - just waiting for some unfortunate soul to take me on :devil:


Read ma full story in next weeks News of the World.

amazing how someone can go through all that and still have a positive outlook <3

[Samuel.]

I'm Sam (no one really calls me Samuel unfortunately :(), 21 y/o from Haywards Heath, studying Creative Music Technology in Doncaster at degree level.

I have aspirations of being a successful hip hop artist, but more realistically I plan on teaching English in South Korea when I finish uni, and potentially travel Asia doing the same. Would like to work in the video game industry at some point, but the long hours and little pay is the big put off.

For most of my life up until uni, I was mostly a quiet loner with very little confidence. I was on anti-depressants as a 13/14 y/o, borderline suicidal during parts of my teens. I didn't have a hard life, albeit some bullying at school (nothing unordinary), I just wasn't happy. After dropping out of Sixth Form at 17, I spent the next year and a half basically sitting in my room, not knowing what on earth I wanted to do in life. Wasn't until I was 19 I realised music was for me, and I decided to do CMT on a fast track course at college.

A year later, after cramming a year's work into the final month of college, I was in Donny. Since then, I feel like a completely different person confidence-wise. The last year has easily been the best of my life and I'm happier than ever.

I've never met my dad, having left my mum before I was born claiming not to be the father. Part of me is glad, as I think growing up with just my mum has shaped me into a better person, and it drives me onto wanting to be successful even more. Still not sure if I want to get in contact with him, but I reckon I will at some point, even just to see what he looks like.

So yeah :spin2:

[the truth]

Im Louis cipher

I search the entire planet for free thinking mavericks who have original thoughts
Ive visited this website for a few years and Ive only ever read about 5 original thoughts
This whole country tries too hard to find an identity, most seem to want to define themselves by some disorder passed down by celebrities. In the end almost everyone is trying so hard to be different they all end up the same... Almost everyone gives in to peer pressure, must have these shoes, these clothes, must look like this, must sound like that, must listen to this music, all on the credit card building up unaffordable debt etc etc This drive for materialism and vanity, ego and pride superceedes everything else........Take away all the anger , the ego, the desperate need for attention seeking, the peer pressure and what is left of the individual? Its more like a poster than a person, more like

It reminds me of that sketch with harry enfield where some angry punk kid who is plastered in tatooes, he says this is my favourite one it reads INDIVIDUAL.....I got that because my mates have too

In this world we have 100001 tv channels , 1001 trash magazines, how many of them actually have interesting people? how many great movies are really made? how many great music videos are really made? how many great actors are alive now? you can count them on 2 hands. Where is todays Bruce li? Michaelangelo? Marlon Brando? Da Vinci?

it is only those brave enough to do things differently and not sell out to peer pressure and with no ego who are truly great.

The quest for originality goes on.

[DrunkerThanMoses]

Jon, 22

When I was younger I used to be a goth, but then towards the last year of school I made friends with new people who are still my friends and eventually one became my girlfriend of 4 years. We broke because we both were busy at the time, but we remain good friends, she was my most serious relationship. She actually got me into big brother, I mean I used to watch it when i was younger but when starting to date her she was really into it and we ended up watching it together.

My weight has been wired, I used to be really fat when younger then lost it, then put it back on, but the last year I lost it again and feel the best that I have in a while.

Currently employed, I worked in a bar but quit because the boss was a bitch to me, then I worked in Tescos for a while but that ended, then I worked in a old folks home for a bit but they laid me off so looking for a job.

I feel depressed at the moment because all my friends have jobs and I am stuck in a flat all the time doing nothing, and I never have any money now to go out. So yeah, hoping things turn around soon.

[Conzors]

I'm Sam (no one really calls me Samuel unfortunately :(), 21 y/o from Haywards Heath, studying Creative Music Technology in Doncaster at degree level.

I have aspirations of being a successful hip hop artist, but more realistically I plan on teaching English in South Korea when I finish uni, and potentially travel Asia doing the same. Would like to work in the video game industry at some point, but the long hours and little pay is the big put off.

For most of my life up until uni, I was mostly a quiet loner with very little confidence. I was on anti-depressants as a 13/14 y/o, borderline suicidal during parts of my teens. I didn't have a hard life, albeit some bullying at school (nothing unordinary), I just wasn't happy. After dropping out of Sixth Form at 17, I spent the next year and a half basically sitting in my room, not knowing what on earth I wanted to do in life. Wasn't until I was 19 I realised music was for me, and I decided to do CMT on a fast track course at college.

A year later, after cramming a year's work into the final month of college, I was in Donny. Since then, I feel like a completely different person confidence-wise. The last year has easily been the best of my life and I'm happier than ever.

I've never met my dad, having left my mum before I was born claiming not to be the father. Part of me is glad, as I think growing up with just my mum has shaped me into a better person, and it drives me onto wanting to be successful even more. Still not sure if I want to get in contact with him, but I reckon I will at some point, even just to see what he looks like.

So yeah :spin2:
Teaching in south korea is so cute! Youd get a hell of a load of life experience and learn so much teaching out there! Its good that maybe you want to get into contact with your dad, and its better to do so now when your happier in your life than when your not so happy!

Im Louis cipher

I search the entire planet for free thinking mavericks who have original thoughts
Ive visited this website for a few years and Ive only ever read about 5 original thoughts
This whole country tries too hard to find an identity, most seem to want to define themselves by some disorder passed down by celebrities. In the end almost everyone is trying so hard to be different they all end up the same... Almost everyone gives in to peer pressure, must have these shoes, these clothes, must look like this, must sound like that, must listen to this music, all on the credit card building up unaffordable debt etc etc This drive for materialism and vanity, ego and pride superceedes everything else........Take away all the anger , the ego, the desperate need for attention seeking, the peer pressure and what is left of the individual? Its more like a poster than a person, more like

It reminds me of that sketch with harry enfield where some angry punk kid who is plastered in tatooes, he says this is my favourite one it reads INDIVIDUAL.....I got that because my mates have too

In this world we have 100001 tv channels , 1001 trash magazines, how many of them actually have interesting people? how many great movies are really made? how many great music videos are really made? how many great actors are alive now? you can count them on 2 hands. Where is todays Bruce li? Michaelangelo? Marlon Brando? Da Vinci?

it is only those brave enough to do things differently and not sell out to peer pressure and with no ego who are truly great.

The quest for originality goes on.
This is a really thought out opinion - Im happy people think this way.

[Conzors]

Jon, 22

When I was younger I used to be a goth, but then towards the last year of school I made friends with new people who are still my friends and eventually one became my girlfriend of 4 years. We broke because we both were busy at the time, but we remain good friends, she was my most serious relationship. She actually got me into big brother, I mean I used to watch it when i was younger but when starting to date her she was really into it and we ended up watching it together.

My weight has been wired, I used to be really fat when younger then lost it, then put it back on, but the last year I lost it again and feel the best that I have in a while.

Currently employed, I worked in a bar but quit because the boss was a bitch to me, then I worked in Tescos for a while but that ended, then I worked in a old folks home for a bit but they laid me off so looking for a job.

I feel depressed at the moment because all my friends have jobs and I am stuck in a flat all the time doing nothing, and I never have any money now to go out. So yeah, hoping things turn around soon.

Were similar with the weight thing!
Don't feel bad about not having a job! A number of people in Britain don't have jobs but very little are actually out looking - your a minority and you WILL find a job. www.reed.co.uk has given me loads and loads of job opportunities!
x

[Princess]

I'm Laura, 22, living in Ireland, having just finished my English and Linguistics degree with a 2:2. I'm moving to London in a couple of months and I'm very excited.

Ideally I'd love a job in publishing/journalism, I just want to be paid to read and write. Though really I just want to marry rich/win the lottery and have loads of children.

I really didn't like school, I was always the weird kid and then although I wasn't bullied in uni I was fed up of studying books and what not that I didn't like and getting rubbish grades because I didn't write like I was supposed to.

I've been on this website nearly 8 years and think I'm seen as I am pretty much, I used to be the one always obsessed with a BB couple and then Take That(still probably) and at the moment Caroline Flack and Olly Murs.

I can feel trapped here sometimes, stuck in a country I despise but I'm getting out soon and I'm so fricking excited and happy about it I can't even describe it.

[anne666]

Niall, I am new to this site so don't want to seem too familiar but reading your story wow I wish you all the very best of luck. I am so glad you are going into therapy, which I hope will benefit you greatly. I can identify with your anxiety issues and found therapy helped me a lot.x

[anne666]

Can I just say to all of you good luck and how brave to share the way you have xx

[Jessica.]

My name is Jessica, I am 20 years old. I live in the south west of Ireland and have lived in the same estate for my whole life. When I was just born my father was holding me and I basically died in his arms but luckily the doctors managed to resuscitate me, it was discovered I had fluid on the lung and was given three days to live, but miraculously I pulled through.

My father died on his birthday when I was three years old, for most of my life my mother was dishonest with me about how he died. She told me he fell into the river and drowned but I have only come to know and accept that he took his own life in the last few months. I have an eighteen year old half brother whom I don't have much contact with, again I don't know if my father cheated or if my parents had broken up at the time.

After my fathers death my mother went into severe depression, she would stay in bed all day and night for years only getting up to wake us for school or buy food, she missed all of my nativity plays and concerts and performances when I was in Primary school, I still have some resentment for that. We lost both of our parents instead of just one. My oldest brother, who is 10 years older than me, developed incredible rage problems and would occasionally beat me, my mother had to call the police on more than one occasion to save me from him because he couldn't control himself.

When I was 10 my sister had a baby and it changed all of our lives, my niece showed me that love exists and my mother realised that her family mattered and she wanted to be a good grandmother, she was 38 at the time, my life became so much more worthwhile after that, I didn't have any social skills since I barely had any human interaction apart from school for many years. My sister got pregnant again and when she was about 8 months pregnant with her second child she broke up with her boyfriend one night, he had been in and out of prison for assault and other things, he came to our house looking for her and we didn't let him in, so he stabbed the dog my niece got for her first birthday with a screwdriver, he tried and failed to break into our house while the whole family hid in terror upstairs.

I performed averagely in secondary school although I still didn't have any social skills, I found some people I was comfortable talking to, but never really could call any of them real friends. I got into a lot of trouble and got suspended every year of secondary school. I was never punished or disciplined by my mother of course, so I never respected any boundaries. I graduated when I was 16, since I had skipped a year in primary school and decided to take a gap year since I didn't get into the university I wanted. I used the internet very much in this time and joined TiBB etc.. The gap year turned into more than a year but I didn't really know what I wanted to do and I was quite happy to just do my own thing and enjoy time with my nieces and nephew.

In 2010 my sister got a new boyfriend, he did not treat her two children very well, for example my nephew was afraid of elevators and my sisters bf put him in an elevator alone and went up the stairs himself as a joke. My sister told me she was pregnant in July and I wasn't sure what to think of that. She said she was taking my niece and nephew on holiday to England for two weeks the day after that. When she got there she sent my mother a text saying she was never coming back, my whole world fell apart, I stayed in my room all the time crying and never went outside, I was in a very dark place, I couldn't look at anything that reminded me of them or I would cry uncontrollably, it was the hardest time of my life and I still get upset about the shock of it to this day. I saw the kids about 3 times since they were taken away. I had nobody to turn to irl but I had some really good online friends who helped me through a lot of stuff.

In April 2011 I started playing an online game and got very addicted, I made some friends in it and it took my mind off a lot of my problems. I made friends with this guy and we started chatting a lot, he was so kind and understanding, he made me smile when I didn't even know I was able. In June 2011 he asked me to be his girlfriend, I was hesitant at first but I felt something about him that I had never felt before. I began a long distance relationship with him and he changed my life, he fixed my heart. We had our two year anniversary this month and I am gonna fly to him for a week in August. I plan to move to Portugal for good as soon as we are both stable.

In March of this year my sister moved back to Ireland for good with her three children and left her abusive boyfriend who had changed my nephew to a shell of his old self, if he spilled water by accident or if he accidentally played too roughly he would cry to be punished because he thought he deserved it, I will never forgive my sister for allowing this to happen but all of the kids are improving very well and fitting in at their new school.

That is only that half of it really, there's a lot more I could say but I think this is long enough, I have a much brighter outlook on life now and I hope it will continue this way. :bigsmile:

[Ammi]

..wow Jess, that's actually made me cry..you're so young and you've been through so much and felt pain that you shouldn't have...you deserved a childhood, everyone deserves that and you didn't get one...I'm sorry about your dad, that you didn't know and that it was so hard for your mum to come to terms with and she probably lost her heart for a while with that and certainly lost herself...I'm glad that your sister is back in Ireland with her children and away from that guy and that maybe her grandchildren will help fix your mum and make her whole again

..I'm glad you met someone, I hope he makes your life happy and is always kind to you...and have the best time in Portugal, ok...:hug:...

[Ammi]

..oh and I should say, with all of that Jess...you seem like a lovely..and very outstanding young lady...

[Kate!]

I'm undecided about whether to participate in this. I've unburdened myself on the forum in the past already so a lot of people know my basic story.

Conzors, you've started an amazing thread here though. It's eye opening and quite humbling.

There are a lot of amazing people here.

:love:

[King Gizzard]

Nathan 22, born in Norfolk, live in Suffolk my whole life. 2 parents, and a brother and a sister which I am the youngest. Growing up was okay, but my parents never got on yet were always civil. They broke up at officially in 2010 ish after being separated for a while. They sold the house, so I went and lived with my mum in rented until she bought the house we live in now.

I got through school fine, got 8 GCSE's, but by the time I went to 6th form my parents kind of split up so that was a bit hard, I never really did enjoy 6th form as all my friends went to a 6th form college and I just stayed on at my high school's 6th. I never really put any effort in so I ended up with a U in History, C in Media and D in General Studies.

Suffered from anxiety and been a hypochondriac as long as I can remember, worry about anything..panic attacks the lot..so I signed up to here to keep my mind off stuff one summer and never looked back, although I know I'll have to leave here sooner or later to go and do something. Never exactly been thin my entire life, I can put weight on easily, but then lose it as well, that's why I don't put many pictures on here..I don't think I've put one on here that's new in about 4 years..I still do get quite depressed but have to always remember there's people alot worse off than I am, but it's hard when all my friends came from probably happier upbringings and they're all graduated from University/have girlfriends now..

I really, really hate not being liked but in a good way I suppose, I try to get on with everyone that was the same as school, always a floater, always try to be anyway. That's why I hope any disagreements I've ever had on here can be forgotten because I really don't wanna hold grudges

I've just put random bits in random paragraphs so this probably makes no sense now..I was raised a Christian, my family both sides are christian, well, the older generation anyway. I guess I do believe in it, that's why whenever there's a thread in Serious Debates I get pretty uptight because my mum is the nicest person you'll ever meet, and she's christian, and it's kind of like our rock to keep positive. That's why it's so annoying when people stereotype the Church. Not everyone sits in a COE generally being snobbish about everything and hating gay people..there are different types. I gave up really caring about going to Church when I was 17 because I just didn't get on with anyone there so I gave up

I've always made a thing out of not drinking and not taking drugs, but I don't want to judge anyone else for it as it's a life choice for me. I don't like most alcohol's anyway..

Unemployed now, looking to get what I can, build some money up and see where it goes from there..I'm starting voluntary work soon just to get out a bit..if anyone has suggestions to what career I should go into or whatever talk to me :laugh: I definitely have a weight on my shoulders because my brother and sister have done well for themselves. Yeah..I've definitely realized I'm not as bad off as I could be

Oh and I definitely need some new hobbies :idc:


and one last thing: I'm a terrible moderator, I get it..but I still do moderator stuff...ish

[Jessica.]

..wow Jess, that's actually made me cry..you're so young and you've been through so much and felt pain that you shouldn't have...you deserved a childhood, everyone deserves that and you didn't get one...I'm sorry about your dad, that you didn't know and that it was so hard for your mum to come to terms with and she probably lost her heart for a while with that and certainly lost herself...I'm glad that your sister is back in Ireland with her children and away from that guy and that maybe her grandchildren will help fix your mum and make her whole again

..I'm glad you met someone, I hope he makes your life happy and is always kind to you...and have the best time in Portugal, ok...:hug:...

..oh and I should say, with all of that Jess...you seem like a lovely..and very outstanding young lady...

Aww Ammi, I don't want you to cry! :sad: My mother was engaged for a few months recently but the guy broke up with her a few weeks ago, she's sad but she'll never go into that kind of depression again. My oldest niece and nephew come and sleep in my house at least two nights a week and they keep us going. :D Thanks a lot Ammi! :lovedup:

[HD]

I just want to give you a hug Jessica, I take my hat off to you, I don't think I'd have coped with what you've been through.

I hope the future pans out well for you because ****ing hell you deserve it. Big love <3

[HD]

Unemployed now, looking to get what I can, build some money up and see where it goes from there..I'm starting voluntary work soon just to get out a bit..if anyone has suggestions to what career I should go into or whatever talk to me :laugh: I definitely have a weight on my shoulders because my brother and sister have done well for themselves. Yeah..I've definitely realized I'm not as bad off as I could be


Voluntary work is a great start to getting full time employment, when I volunteered it helped me with my confidence a lot.

Hope you find something soon :hugesmile:

[Kazanne]

I was born in 1976,I was abandoned as a baby along with my brother and adopted by the best mother and father anyone could wish for,I was hospitalised quite a few times with hearing problems which left me partially deaf for life,I had an amazing childhood,loved school and always remember being happy,have no desire to find my birth mother,I found her once via the Salvation Army,she wrote me one letter and that was it so I never bothered again,(my dad died a few years back)1993 was a traumatic year for our family,I lived in New York for a while,I have a brother who lives there also,and another brother who is a firefighter,I also worked in Greece and Turkey. I married Jay 11 years ago we have three beautiful kids,and I am in a happy place ,we live in a nice area of Shropshire,so that's me in a nutshell,for a little abandoned kid it worked out very well,lol.

[Kazanne]

My name is Jessica, I am 20 years old. I live in the south west of Ireland and have lived in the same estate for my whole life. When I was just born my father was holding me and I basically died in his arms but luckily the doctors managed to resuscitate me, it was discovered I had fluid on the lung and was given three days to live, but miraculously I pulled through.

My father died on his birthday when I was three years old, for most of my life my mother was dishonest with me about how he died. She told me he fell into the river and drowned but I have only come to know and accept that he took his own life in the last few months. I have an eighteen year old half brother whom I don't have much contact with, again I don't know if my father cheated or if my parents had broken up at the time.

After my fathers death my mother went into severe depression, she would stay in bed all day and night for years only getting up to wake us for school or buy food, she missed all of my nativity plays and concerts and performances when I was in Primary school, I still have some resentment for that. We lost both of our parents instead of just one. My oldest brother, who is 10 years older than me, developed incredible rage problems and would occasionally beat me, my mother had to call the police on more than one occasion to save me from him because he couldn't control himself.

When I was 10 my sister had a baby and it changed all of our lives, my niece showed me that love exists and my mother realised that her family mattered and she wanted to be a good grandmother, she was 38 at the time, my life became so much more worthwhile after that, I didn't have any social skills since I barely had any human interaction apart from school for many years. My sister got pregnant again and when she was about 8 months pregnant with her second child she broke up with her boyfriend one night, he had been in and out of prison for assault and other things, he came to our house looking for her and we didn't let him in, so he stabbed the dog my niece got for her first birthday with a screwdriver, he tried and failed to break into our house while the whole family hid in terror upstairs.

I performed averagely in secondary school although I still didn't have any social skills, I found some people I was comfortable talking to, but never really could call any of them real friends. I got into a lot of trouble and got suspended every year of secondary school. I was never punished or disciplined by my mother of course, so I never respected any boundaries. I graduated when I was 16, since I had skipped a year in primary school and decided to take a gap year since I didn't get into the university I wanted. I used the internet very much in this time and joined TiBB etc.. The gap year turned into more than a year but I didn't really know what I wanted to do and I was quite happy to just do my own thing and enjoy time with my nieces and nephew.

In 2010 my sister got a new boyfriend, he did not treat her two children very well, for example my nephew was afraid of elevators and my sisters bf put him in an elevator alone and went up the stairs himself as a joke. My sister told me she was pregnant in July and I wasn't sure what to think of that. She said she was taking my niece and nephew on holiday to England for two weeks the day after that. When she got there she sent my mother a text saying she was never coming back, my whole world fell apart, I stayed in my room all the time crying and never went outside, I was in a very dark place, I couldn't look at anything that reminded me of them or I would cry uncontrollably, it was the hardest time of my life and I still get upset about the shock of it to this day. I saw the kids about 3 times since they were taken away. I had nobody to turn to irl but I had some really good online friends who helped me through a lot of stuff.

In April 2011 I started playing an online game and got very addicted, I made some friends in it and it took my mind off a lot of my problems. I made friends with this guy and we started chatting a lot, he was so kind and understanding, he made me smile when I didn't even know I was able. In June 2011 he asked me to be his girlfriend, I was hesitant at first but I felt something about him that I had never felt before. I began a long distance relationship with him and he changed my life, he fixed my heart. We had our two year anniversary this month and I am gonna fly to him for a week in August. I plan to move to Portugal for good as soon as we are both stable.

In March of this year my sister moved back to Ireland for good with her three children and left her abusive boyfriend who had changed my nephew to a shell of his old self, if he spilled water by accident or if he accidentally played too roughly he would cry to be punished because he thought he deserved it, I will never forgive my sister for allowing this to happen but all of the kids are improving very well and fitting in at their new school.

That is only that half of it really, there's a lot more I could say but I think this is long enough, I have a much brighter outlook on life now and I hope it will continue this way. :bigsmile:

Jess?I take my hat off to you:hug:

[Cherie]

The nice thing about all these back stories is that even though some people have had a rough time at one point or another, everyone feels fairly positive for the future.

[Jessica.]

I just want to give you a hug Jessica, I take my hat off to you, I don't think I'd have coped with what you've been through.

I hope the future pans out well for you because ****ing hell you deserve it. Big love <3

:hug: Thanks, I hope your life turns out how you want too!

[Kizzy]

If we combined our life stories into a book it would be a bestseller..... Thank you everyone for your shocking, sad, heartwarming and honest stories.

[Jake.]

Right, might as well do mine then..

I'm Jake, 17 and currently live in Gravesend in Kent. Shorty after I was born my parents split up, which worked out okay as I have a lovely stepmother and two half-brothers. I've been brought up primarily by my mum, and she's done an amazing job really. We've never been in a good financial situation, which is hard but she does her best and I'm always happy to help her out with stuff.

We lost her mum and dad within two years of eachother. I took my nan passing hard, I was young (it was 2006), and we went to see her in the hospital. I then started doing worse in school, and along with this I tried being a vegetarian. The shock of my nan passing/me being there and not eating meat (according to the doctors anyway) caused me to start having panic attacks and I couldn't eat, I had this weird thought that I was going to choke on my food and started panicking whenever I ate. I became a stick, but thankfully with help and what not I got over the panic attacks, started eating meat again and got my life back.

Year 7/8 was ****, bullied most of the time over silly stuff, but in year 9 I really came into my own and made friends, and school was enjoyable. I did well at GCSE, got C's and B's, didn't do well in the first year at 6th form so I moved to college, which I'm still doing now. Moved place with my mum 6 months ago and live in a nice house. Do a part time job in burger king which isn't great but I've saved to go on holiday in August with my friends, should be a laugh :D I'm 18 in less than a week and I cannot wait for it now, gonna start driving so that should be good... yeah, me in a nut shell really :p

[Kazanne]

Can I just say to all of you good luck and how brave to share the way you have xx

:xyxwave:Hello anne666,welcome to TIBB

[sooty]

Like Kate, I am humbled. I respect you all.

[Kazanne]

Like Kate, I am humbled. I respect you all.

We respect you too Sooty:hugesmile:

[sooty]

We respect you too Sooty:hugesmile:

Kazanne:love:

[Z]

There are so many wonderful people on this forum and this thread has taught me so much about people I have known for years yet I've never really known at all... :hug:!

[Jessica.]

Jess?I take my hat off to you:hug:

:hug: :love:

[mizzy25]

conzers im loving the fact that u r reading every single post and commenting on them. Oh and ive never been called cool in my life so thanks for saying that lol
very good thread.

[reece(:]

Ah go on then/

I'm Reece, 17 from a little coastal town called Seaham in North East England. :) I'm an only child and live with my mum and dog/cat (quite a lonely household), as my Dad left before I was born and hasn't bothered to contact me at all - yet can openly provides for his 3 daughters. So cannot stand him, I value my grandad as my real Dad as he's been there for me since day 1 and always comes over to get out of his shabby lonely bungalow. I'm in an awful council estate so time's can be quite rough but we pull through it.

Through school I sorta excelled, I've been through about 5-6 primary schools due to constant moving about.. Life got a bit wobbly after bullying through year 7 and 8 from the chavs, and I obviously did not fit in that whole clique so was sort of segregated with a few friends but this built and still to this day I've got a tight knit friendship group. I got through my GCSEs with mainly As and Bs so got onto to do A levels at sixth form which has probably been one of the most depressing years of my life, as I've struggled to defeat exam pressures leading me to crumble in my exams and getting Us and Ds in January but whilst doing 3 A levels I've also done a BTEC (ICT) along them which has been much more suited and I've found better for me, so I've discussed with my tutor and will be moving onto a full time one in September in Medical Science :)

I've become very self concious over the years as most of my friends have gotten in solid relationships and I've, most of the time, been the third wheel in many groups, so I pretty much hate my appearance but try to convince others that I don't. I've been told often I am funny to be around which makes me smile - and I enjoy making others smile :). I often hide my emotions in real life with having a strong exterior and having faced a lot **** through my life (mostly from mum's crazy ex-boyfriends... ). I'm often paranoid about whether I'm annoying someone and I have some anxiety issues, so I almost never pop up or start a conversation. But I never like to think about all these negative things and believe that positive thinking will always let you prevail and there's no point dwelling on stuff that's the past. :)

[Jessica.]

I'm often paranoid about whether I'm annoying someone and I have some anxiety issues, so I almost never pop up or start a conversation. But I never like to think about all these negative things and believe that positive thinking will always let you prevail and there's no point dwelling on stuff that's the past. :)

I can relate to everything you have said here! I also agree that negativity is really something that's not necessary in anyones life. :hugesmile:

[reece(:]

I can relate to everything you have said here! I also agree that negativity is really something that's not necessary in anyones life. :hugesmile:
:amazed:
**** happens, get over the negativity basically. As hard a challenge it is sometimes. :)

[BigSister]

Im Rebecca age 26 and from a little town in north west England called Accrington which some of you might know from a well know milk ad about a football team.
When I was born I was born 3 months premature and also couldn't come home for 6 months after I was born. Currently I have been made redundant twice,once from woolworths and this year from a library I worked at, and am currently on trial cleaning an office and hope to be made permament soon until I can find something better. After all theres no jobs about I also went to university for 2 years but had to quit after my second year.
My dream job was to become an librarian and nearly got it sorting books and tidying but after getting made redundant the closest thing is to hope to work in some sort of book store. I love to read and write, watch tv, listen to music general things. I enjoy watching many US comedies, drama comedies, Coronation Street Neighbours, Waterloo road and anything really reality tv. I also enjoy watching many sports my faves include football tennis athletics but can watch any sport really.
I also am quite shy which is why I enjoy the internet to express my feelings as I think nobody knows the real me really.
Anyway hope you enjoyed that and hoped it wasn't too boring

[Marsh.]

Not read the whole thread, working my way through. Debating whether to participate. :D


This has been quite negative really..but I do enjoy life in general. Especially when I have had some codeine, which seem to work as antidepressants..I dont know if they are meant to. Was given them when I was taken into hospital not long ago with suspected appendicitus(turned out to be a cyst)..and now if I feel a bit down I have a couple and I'm much better within about half an hour

Oh bugger, don't go down that road they're highly addictive. The doctor banned my mother from them after 3 months because she was becoming too dependant.

Well seeing as we are sharing...
I'm a recovering alcoholic, it crept up on me from a few bevvies with mates gradually building up to drinking alone,
It severely affected my health and have had related problems since, but not touched a drop since 24th december so am well on the road to recovery.
I worked for yrs as a housekeeper in a hotel but left to get some GCSE's at 35.
I promised myself by 40 I would be educated, slim, sober, working and in a relationship...
Not quite there but ticking them off... :)

:hug: I'm glad things are turning around for you, you seem like a strong person (my perspective of you on the forum anyway).

I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder, Sensory Processing Disorder and Aspergers - all within 8 months, after dealing with sever depression and prolonged insomnia the previous year.

I got picked on quite alot in school for being different, it wasn't until the final two years that people started respecting me for who I was and felt able to include me - the last few months of 2012, I was attacked numerous times in town - this ultimately has driven me to complete and utter paranoia, but I'm overcoming it now and hopefully, getting back to myself and hope to have a good summer.[/B]

Wow, I hope you're managing well. From personal experience depression is not at all good but to have it on top of everything else. I hope you manage to keep everything under control. :)

My name is Jessica, I am 20 years old. I live in the south west of Ireland and have lived in the same estate for my whole life. When I was just born my father was holding me and I basically died in his arms but luckily the doctors managed to resuscitate me, it was discovered I had fluid on the lung and was given three days to live, but miraculously I pulled through.

My father died on his birthday when I was three years old, for most of my life my mother was dishonest with me about how he died. She told me he fell into the river and drowned but I have only come to know and accept that he took his own life in the last few months. I have an eighteen year old half brother whom I don't have much contact with, again I don't know if my father cheated or if my parents had broken up at the time.

After my fathers death my mother went into severe depression, she would stay in bed all day and night for years only getting up to wake us for school or buy food, she missed all of my nativity plays and concerts and performances when I was in Primary school, I still have some resentment for that. We lost both of our parents instead of just one. My oldest brother, who is 10 years older than me, developed incredible rage problems and would occasionally beat me, my mother had to call the police on more than one occasion to save me from him because he couldn't control himself.

When I was 10 my sister had a baby and it changed all of our lives, my niece showed me that love exists and my mother realised that her family mattered and she wanted to be a good grandmother, she was 38 at the time, my life became so much more worthwhile after that, I didn't have any social skills since I barely had any human interaction apart from school for many years. My sister got pregnant again and when she was about 8 months pregnant with her second child she broke up with her boyfriend one night, he had been in and out of prison for assault and other things, he came to our house looking for her and we didn't let him in, so he stabbed the dog my niece got for her first birthday with a screwdriver, he tried and failed to break into our house while the whole family hid in terror upstairs.

I performed averagely in secondary school although I still didn't have any social skills, I found some people I was comfortable talking to, but never really could call any of them real friends. I got into a lot of trouble and got suspended every year of secondary school. I was never punished or disciplined by my mother of course, so I never respected any boundaries. I graduated when I was 16, since I had skipped a year in primary school and decided to take a gap year since I didn't get into the university I wanted. I used the internet very much in this time and joined TiBB etc.. The gap year turned into more than a year but I didn't really know what I wanted to do and I was quite happy to just do my own thing and enjoy time with my nieces and nephew.

In 2010 my sister got a new boyfriend, he did not treat her two children very well, for example my nephew was afraid of elevators and my sisters bf put him in an elevator alone and went up the stairs himself as a joke. My sister told me she was pregnant in July and I wasn't sure what to think of that. She said she was taking my niece and nephew on holiday to England for two weeks the day after that. When she got there she sent my mother a text saying she was never coming back, my whole world fell apart, I stayed in my room all the time crying and never went outside, I was in a very dark place, I couldn't look at anything that reminded me of them or I would cry uncontrollably, it was the hardest time of my life and I still get upset about the shock of it to this day. I saw the kids about 3 times since they were taken away. I had nobody to turn to irl but I had some really good online friends who helped me through a lot of stuff.

In April 2011 I started playing an online game and got very addicted, I made some friends in it and it took my mind off a lot of my problems. I made friends with this guy and we started chatting a lot, he was so kind and understanding, he made me smile when I didn't even know I was able. In June 2011 he asked me to be his girlfriend, I was hesitant at first but I felt something about him that I had never felt before. I began a long distance relationship with him and he changed my life, he fixed my heart. We had our two year anniversary this month and I am gonna fly to him for a week in August. I plan to move to Portugal for good as soon as we are both stable.

In March of this year my sister moved back to Ireland for good with her three children and left her abusive boyfriend who had changed my nephew to a shell of his old self, if he spilled water by accident or if he accidentally played too roughly he would cry to be punished because he thought he deserved it, I will never forgive my sister for allowing this to happen but all of the kids are improving very well and fitting in at their new school.

That is only that half of it really, there's a lot more I could say but I think this is long enough, I have a much brighter outlook on life now and I hope it will continue this way. :bigsmile:

I'm glad things are turning around for you. :hugesmile:

If we combined our life stories into a book it would be a bestseller..... Thank you everyone for your shocking, sad, heartwarming and honest stories.

:laugh: Who needs Big Brother when we have this forum?

[Kizzy]

True dat marsh :D

[Jessica.]

I'm glad things are turning around for you. :hugesmile:


Thank you! :bigsmile:

[the truth]

when we ask the question who are we? do we simply answer , by stating the things that have happened to us, or do we state who we want to be and what we want to achieve too? It s a journey isn't it and we have to believe that as we live and learn we have it in us to try and create a better tomorrow.....as a man once said in all these experiences we have in this thing we call life, it is only the failures and the risk of failure that teach us how to become winners and to learn and grow

[Benjamin]

I'm Benjamin (aka Ben/ukturtle). 29 years old and currently reside in Bristol. For those that know me, know I love my travels, for those that don't, I have just returned from New Zealand after a year living and adventuring there. I have also travelled and lived in Australia and Asia a few years back and lived in Portugal.

I come from quite a well-off family. My father and two brothers (one older and one younger) passed away when I was a kid, leaving me, my mother and two younger sisters. I used to get on with my family but haven't seen any of them in about 5 years now. I have a good friend who I refer to as my sister (as she was there through a lot crap) and her kids call me uncle Ben.

I have been to university, passed A-levels, got 98% in my 11+, and I am pretty intelligent, but not always very good at showing it. I generally like to be a laugh, but can be prone to a little bit of anger now and again, as well as going through phases of being talkative and non-responsive. I have been engaged and it ended (several times) after my partner was violent towards me, however I can be a bit of a commitment coward since and now keep my distance from all men.

I've never really struggled with my sexuality, except that I can't have the "normal" wife and kids set-up, but I have suffered with an eating disorder when I was 17/18 and lost loads of weight.

I have a very curious and inquisitive nature and love to explore and ask questions, and I love playing games and using strategy to progress in them. I also like to host games and find inventive new tasks for them.

I also write poetry and stories, mainly sci-fi, and am aiming to get published soon (one day it will happen).

My biggest fear is dying before 30 like my father and I also have a fear of goats and maggots.

My favourite thing to do is stand outside in the middle of the night when the full moon is out and just watch the clouds roll past it and listen to the breeze. Failing that, when I'm hiking or just walking through a beautiful place with no people is when I'm happiest, free and most creative.

[Ramsay]

edit : on second thought, i'd rather i just say my name is karl and i am irish yaaa

[Jords]

Karl you are a good man :hug:

[Jords]

Ive just read through the whole thread and really some of you have had very interesting lives up to now but most of all its good to read that everybody's position right now is better than it had been in the past.

Jess your story is particularly quite inspiring, I hope Portugal works out.

I was born in 1976,I was abandoned as a baby along with my brother and adopted by the best mother and father anyone could wish for,I was hospitalised quite a few times with hearing problems which left me partially deaf for life,I had an amazing childhood,loved school and always remember being happy,have no desire to find my birth mother,I found her once via the Salvation Army,she wrote me one letter and that was it so I never bothered again,(my dad died a few years back)1993 was a traumatic year for our family,I lived in New York for a while,I have a brother who lives there also,and another brother who is a firefighter,I also worked in Greece and Turkey. I married Jay 11 years ago we have three beautiful kids,and I am in a happy place ,we live in a nice area of Shropshire,so that's me in a nutshell,for a little abandoned kid it worked out very well,lol.

This made feel so sad but so happy at the same time Kazanne. For a little abondoned kid you did brilliant :bigsmile:

[Kate!]

You're an amazing person Kazanne, and your experiences have made you the warm hearted, loveable lass I've gotten to know well. I'm proud to call you my friend :love:

[Ammi]

....Awww, Karl I just don’t know what to say..this thread is really turning into something...how you could ever hate yourself when on this forum you are probably one of the most beautiful souls I have ever had the honour to ‘meet’ and I believe that in real life you are too...well, I know you are....but yeah, I truly believe that things are meant to be and that ceiling was telling you something..(probably that it was dodgy..) and really Karl you are meant to be here but I know how hard that must be for you sometimes because you hold your emotions inside and find it hard to release them...and you were never ever a ‘stupid stoner’ you were just consumed with those emotions and as you were lost as to how to let them flow and release from you, you tried to hide from them but we know that doesn’t make them go away and they're always there trying to break free because we can’t restrain anything so powerful inside us, it doesn’t disappear unless it’s allowed an exit...and your cousin..?..I’m so very sorry but don’t hate yourself, how could you possibly feel anything when you have no more room for emotions, you have a full tank of them already..that would just be too much for you...for anyone...you know Karl, I didn’t feel that much different to you when my dad died..he died suddenly. I never got a chance to say goodbye, just to make sure he never felt scared or alone because I just don’t know what happens when you pass away but all his life he was loved and it didn’t seem right if he felt alone at probably the most scary thing he ever had to face...and I was really stubborn and wouldn’t wait until they do whatever they do to people when they pass away and was going to tear that hospital down unless they let me see him the minute I got there and his face wasn’t calm or peaceful, it was how it was when he died, contorted and full of physical pain in those last few seconds..I think the noise that I let out probably shook the whole country but I never cried and later at the chapel of rest, when he was calm and peaceful, I still looked at him and thought this isn’t my dad at all, this is just an empty container that carried my dad, I don’t believe that the soul and spirit of someone ever dies, only the body... and that’s because everything they are, everything they meant to you, what they made your heart feel stays there with you forever...it’s just impossible for them not to be here anymore because they have touched hearts and souls in a way that will last forever...we carry their spirit with us always...that thing that makes their eyes light up, animates their voice..just everything they are..


..I don’t know Karl, maybe one day you will release those emotions, maybe you won’t, maybe you’ll find a box inside you to keep them in but try not to ever be scared of them because they just need you to kind of say hey to them and let them get on their way and do what they need to do, once felt then they will never need to be felt again....Karl I just kind of think you’re pretty amazing, that’s probably all I needed to say....:hug:...

[billy123]

This thread really is something special the respect i hold for each and every person that has had the faith in tibb to be able to open up is enormous.
I cant do it i envy people brave enough to do it i bottle it up.
I have probably let my demons slip only once or twice since i have been a member here and then deleted the posts as quick as i wrote them.

[Conzors]

Too many people have commented to quote each individual person - but i will quote.

There are so many wonderful people on this forum and this thread has taught me so much about people I have known for years yet I've never really known at all... :hug:!

I never really knew everyones life stories and i guess its just bought us together in a sense on understanding.

You all are brave. Seriously - proud of my fellow members!

Princess, Anne, Jess, Ammi, Nathan, Kazanne, Jake, Kate, Reece, BigSister, Ben and Karl <3

So happy.
I'm undecided about whether to participate in this. I've unburdened myself on the forum in the past already so a lot of people know my basic story.

Conzors, you've started an amazing thread here though. It's eye opening and quite humbling.

There are a lot of amazing people here.

:love:

Aww thanks :D - It is really nice to see these things!
x

[Jake.]

You're all very brave people, and it's so great to see what people you've all become despite the past. Karl, that roof falling was the biggest sign ever, and you was never ready to go then. From you to get from that dark place to where you are now is amazingly braze, you're a strong guy :)

[anne666]

Thank you for the nice welcome Kazanne. So happy to read your story. You were adopted by the right people obviously. Not everyone who gives birth is a responsible mother or father. You are right you were much better off with your loving Mum and Dad . You sound well adjusted and happy. How refreshing on a web site to read of peoples lives ,such openness and courage. I will now think about me doing the same. Am I as brave as the rest of you? LOL

[HD]

Do it Anne, it's like internet therapy :D

Welcome to the forum :love:

[Kazanne]

Thank you for the nice welcome Kazanne. So happy to read your story. You were adopted by the right people obviously. Not everyone who gives birth is a responsible mother or father. You are right you were much better off with your loving Mum and Dad . You sound well adjusted and happy. How refreshing on a web site to read of peoples lives ,such openness and courage. I will now think about me doing the same. Am I as brave as the rest of you? LOL

I look forward to reading your story annie666,I have just done a summary of mine ,not gone into much detail,but it's nice to read others life experiences:xyxwave:

[Kate!]

right, okay....here goes.

I'm Kate, and I am a complete mess a lot of the time, I could write an entire book (seriously) The two things I retain which keep me going is my sense of humour, and a few people I allow close enough to call genuine friends.

I am 43, but I don't feel/act like that age, this could be considered either a good or bad thing depending on your point of view.

My background....

Grew up in an average family, mum and dad, two kids. I am the elder, my brother is three years younger. My dad has now passed away, and my brother is married, we are complete opposites, not at all close. My mum isn't at all touchy feely or one for demonstrating emotion, and was brought up herself very strictly and to always have the house perfect and is far too bothered about what other people think. She nags constantly. I always felt her disapproval and that I was a disappointment. She won't leave the house with so much as a hair out of place. I don't give a ****. (:D) I rarely do make-up and I live in jeans and t-shirts. You will NEVER get me in a dress.

I left home at nineteen and went to stay in my mate Jane's house. Got a job in a make-up factory packing. (I went to college after school, but just pissed about, I am not overly academically qualified, I am bright but was lazy, just wanted to have a laugh. Went a bit (ok a lot) wild. Weekends would see me at Lowie's club in town, with mates, picking up lads. I slept with a fair few, bit sluttish, but there you go.

At 21 I met my son's dad, and was involved with him on and off till the age of 29. I can't say it was the biggest mistake of my life because I have my lovely son as a result and he really is my pride and joy, but other than that it was a nightmare from start to finish, the best thing I ever did was (finally) walk away, though it took a hell of a long time to get there. If I thought I had low self esteem then, it was nothing compared to the state I was in emotionally when it was all over, some 8 years down the line.

He was the perfect guy for about 6 months, long enough for me to consider myself in love and then almost overnight, like flipping a switch, he changed. Well, he didn't really, he had just been hiding his true self.

He cheated on me regularly, and made no attempt to hide it, he enjoyed seeing me upset. He gradually isolated me from all my friends, and completely controlled every aspect of my life. The putdowns and insults were constant. When we moved in together he started to hurt me, he would twist my arm, flick his lighter in my face, or singe my hair, and laugh, say he was just playing.... He drank heavily, more and more as time went on. One night, he brought a bread knife to bed and put it on the floor, saying it was for if I got on his nerves. That became a regular occurrence.

When I got pregnant he calmed down for a while, he was still very controlling, but he was working away a lot driving coaches. He lost his license for drink driving in 1996, it was coming up to Christmas, and he was sacked. He came home drunk out of his head, smashed a glass on the floor and tried to shove it in my face. I was about 2 months pregnant at the time, was terrified. I managed to put my hands up to protect my face and my index finger was sliced to the bone, he phoned his mum in a panic, she took me to the hospital. I had to have plastic surgery on my hand and it is still scarred noticeably today, they took skin grafts from the inside of my palm to repair it.

I was ashamed, so I told my parents that I had cut it washing up, that a sharp knife had been in the bowl and I didn't see it, that lie is intact to this day, if they ever suspected they never said so.

I finally left him just after my son was born, he was born in July and I left in September 1997, the day Diana died it was. I just took him from the house saying we were going for a walk. We never went back. I went straight to my mums and that was the end.

In the final few months his behaviour had escalated to nightmare proportions, he had rigged up a noose in the bedroom and said he was going to kill himself soon, but he hadn't decided when, I would just come home to find him swinging. He had started using his lighter on my hair again and bringing the knife to bed.

The day I left he had gone out to the pub and I was ironing baby clothes and bedding, the news was on, it was all about Diana's death. I decided to go, this complete calmness just came over me. When he came in I said I was taking the baby for a walk, and as I mentioned previously, we never went back.

He tried taking me to court for access but the judge ruled him unfit. I never saw him again. In 2010 he was jailed for life, he stabbed his partner with a kitchen knife, I hope the evil bastard rots and dies in there.

I have rebuilt my life, but the effects still linger, I am not the person I was before I met him, I trust very few people. I have undergone long term counselling twice, once directly after I left him, and once after he was jailed as it brought everything back to me.

I will never have a relationship again. I know I will be single for the rest of my life, probably be a mad cat woman, I just cannot do it, I am quite happy on my own.

So right back at the the beginning of this epic post, I said I was a mess. But I am not unhappy. I thank God for the blessings and good things I have, and that I got out when I did.

I am far happier talking to people on a forum than I am interacting in real life. I prefer the written word to conversing in person, I write a lot for pleasure, creative writing is my main hobby. I enjoy organising stuff for people to do, and just being daft and light hearted. I crave praise and people saying good stuff about me, because I have never had it in actual life. This is more than a little sad, but whatever gets you through eh...

(I think I'm done)

[HD]

A lot of respect for you Kate!

Thank God you got out whilst you did!

[Marsh.]

Kate's 43? :eek:

http://media.tumblr.com/658a588b5e50f6881b6d007c3e4f9619/tumblr_inline_mhlz8nfqSC1qz4rgp.gif

But, seriously, big respect. You did what was best for you and your child.

[Ammi]

..crikey Kate, I think I knew that your sons dad was in prison for murder..?..did he kill her..?...I think you posted that before but I didn’t know it was his partner or about the abuse in your relationship...it doesn’t sound as though you were a confident person anyway but that time in your life must have diminished your self-esteem completely...no one has the right to do that to another person and no one, either male or female, deserves it..I’m lucky in that I met the most caring and kind person in the word and I always say that a few moments with someone like that is better than a lifetime with an idiot..your ex-partner was a bit more than an idiot, I think...I’m so glad that you were brave enough to get away from him and sorry that his other partner didn’t..and you have a son, who I know you adore, so a ‘silver lining’ came out of it, which I know you would never change but you shouldn’t have had to go through any of that...

...Kate, you say that you have a passion for writing and people often write best from their own life experiences..have you ever thought of writing down any of this...I think there are far too many people who are still where you were then and maybe it could help them to escape their circumstances....

[Kate!]

Kate's 43? :eek:

http://media.tumblr.com/658a588b5e50f6881b6d007c3e4f9619/tumblr_inline_mhlz8nfqSC1qz4rgp.gif

44 in a couple of weeks!

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[joeysteele]

That is a really compelling outline of your life so far *Kate*. The respect I already had for you is even more increased now.

Well done on your re-building of your life and I really hope all you really hope for comes to you in life.

Take care. thank you for sharing all that with us too.

[joeysteele]

Kazanne, loved your write up, you are to me one of the most inspirational members on tibb anyway.

[Kazanne]

Kate you are so brave,you must have been terrified,so glad you have your beautiful boy out of that carnage,life deals us a bad hand sometimes ,but sometimes we can turn it round and come out on top,Life is a gift,try and treasure it and forget the bad things that blight it,Glad you are happy on your own as some people cant seem to function without a partner,you are brave and thankyou for sharing that,I understand you more now.

[Kazanne]

Kazanne, loved your write up, you are to me one of the most inspirational members on tibb anyway.

Thankyou Joey,I am a great believer in life is what you make it,yes I've had sad times some very traumatic,but I've dealt with them best I can and I thank God for everything I have.Thankyou for that compliment Joey it means a lot to me.:hugesmile:

[Kazanne]

I'm Benjamin (aka Ben/ukturtle). 29 years old and currently reside in Bristol. For those that know me, know I love my travels, for those that don't, I have just returned from New Zealand after a year living and adventuring there. I have also travelled and lived in Australia and Asia a few years back and lived in Portugal.

I come from quite a well-off family. My father and two brothers (one older and one younger) passed away when I was a kid, leaving me, my mother and two younger sisters. I used to get on with my family but haven't seen any of them in about 5 years now. I have a good friend who I refer to as my sister (as she was there through a lot crap) and her kids call me uncle Ben.

I have been to university, passed A-levels, got 98% in my 11+, and I am pretty intelligent, but not always very good at showing it. I generally like to be a laugh, but can be prone to a little bit of anger now and again, as well as going through phases of being talkative and non-responsive. I have been engaged and it ended (several times) after my partner was violent towards me, however I can be a bit of a commitment coward since and now keep my distance from all men.

I've never really struggled with my sexuality, except that I can't have the "normal" wife and kids set-up, but I have suffered with an eating disorder when I was 17/18 and lost loads of weight.

I have a very curious and inquisitive nature and love to explore and ask questions, and I love playing games and using strategy to progress in them. I also like to host games and find inventive new tasks for them.

I also write poetry and stories, mainly sci-fi, and am aiming to get published soon (one day it will happen).

My biggest fear is dying before 30 like my father and I also have a fear of goats and maggots.

My favourite thing to do is stand outside in the middle of the night when the full moon is out and just watch the clouds roll past it and listen to the breeze. Failing that, when I'm hiking or just walking through a beautiful place with no people is when I'm happiest, free and most creative.

Ben,I love doing that too.I have been told I am a deep thinker and I do like to ponder on things,dont get me wrong I like people but I treasure those moments you've described there.:hugesmile:

[joeysteele]

Reading some of the write ups on here,my life is still rather non eventful really with still loads to come though,never mind I find these things therapeutic so here goes.

I am 21 years old, Male,I came a little early while my Parents were visiting a relative in the South of England otherwise I would have been born in Ireland.
I am of full Irish ancestry on my Mother's side and full Scottish ancestry on my Father's.
My Father is a barrister and I have 3 older,much older, Brothers of whom all of them are in fact old enough to be my Dad too.
In fact 2 of my Brothers Children are in fact older than I am.It is odd when they call me Uncle.

I am fortunate to still be here at all, I have had pneumonia twice in my life and it nearly ended my life when I was 4 years old.
However that is the real only health problems I have had.
As a child I had a massive fear of Santa Claus, I wanted nothing to do with him,I couldn't sleep on Christmas eve but all for the wrong reasons,dreading him coming,even saying I wanted no presents and for him to take mine to someone else.

I have a wonderful supportive family who are always there for me but not in an intrusive way. What I decide to do as to my life has their support even if it goes against their own train of thought.
For instance, I come from a strong Conservative background, however I no way hold to any power or person who prey on the weakest while bulding up the richest and strongest.
This means I have crossed completely the political divide now following this Govts hard hearted policies against the weakest and most vulnerable.

Politics is something I am fascinated with and Law too, it is why I spent all my teenage energy making sure I got the grades to go to University and study Politics and Law, courses I have now just completed.
Now I have at least the next 6 months or so to go travelling a bit and catch up with people I have not seen for a fair few years now due to my intense studying.

The greatest influence in my life would be my Grandmother on my Mother's side, she was Irish and very outspoken but she instilled in me so many things that I try to live by.
When she died just before I got to University,I was really sad because I wanted so much for her to see me do it and be there when I finsished. That's life though.

I think I will likely stick with Law, I feel in poitics you are a small cog in a massive wheel that has one purpose to keep the party machine rolling, I don't see how that really helps people who are unable to fight or speak for themselves.
In Law,I will get the opportunity to help those who need it ease their worries and burdens, hopefully too by being as sucessful for them as I can.

I love music, all types of music except for rap, from classical right through all the commercial pop to the punk era and to the present.
My journey through music and I do like singing a bit too, has brought me to be a strong,almost obsessed,fan of PETULA CLARK.
Downtown, is my all time favourite song and I have set myself the aim to acquire as near as I can get to all her recorded work.
I am driving people mad with that.

I have a major problem though, I never know when to stop talking, I go on and on as you will have noticed in this write up. The description of me from some of my tutors was,that I was someone who if he was going to London from Manchester,he would go via Aberdeen.
I have tried to acquire the skill of saying a lot in a few words but have all but given up now.

I am in many ways a loner,
I have a wonderful family and extended family,I have many friends but few that I call really close friends,I need to be on my own a lot, preferably spending time with my dog but I always also make sure I am there for people who may want to talk to me or who may need me.
I can be sneaky, I have tested people I wondered if I could trust with some totally random nonsense about myself and thankfully only a few have proven unable to be trusted.
I hate genuine muck stirrers and 2 faced people, I have no problem with people talking about others but hate it when they quote the person they are talking about but add their words and what they wished they'd said rather than what they actually said.
Anyone in my life that was like that would be cast out of it very quickly.

I have at this point, no girlfriend, no intention of looking or any intention of getting married in the medium future.
I want to get my career sorted and secured and who knows what may happen then.
My family and friends and also some people on here,(tibb),are the people I like around me at this point in my life.

I come from a privileged background but the people I get on with best are those who didn't. They make up the bulk of my real closest friends.
I am a staunch and rigid supporter of the Police and I believe in the equality of all,where all benefit from all good things and not just some.

That's really me up to now, I have loads of Nephews and Nieces and few difficulties in life.
My only real fear is of daddy long legs, I lterally still freeze if I am in room with one,I am fascinated by the insect world but find it a cold and sinister world too.

A lot more to come for me in life,good and bad so I hope I keep to the words my Grandmother said, ''if you cannot say something good about someone then don't say anything, look to do good turns to people not bad ones''.

[Bluerang1]

Here goes omg, i bet no-one will read this but :laugh:

Hello I’m Jenna, and I’m from the UK.. I’m sweet Seventeen.. fun fun fun. I really have no idea what I want to do in the future, I get really good grades, but I just have no idea what I should be, and so im kinda stuck at a crossroad which sucks, as I’ll have to make my mind up soon enough

I’m a bit of a selfish bitch, I put up a front, and don’t let anyone in to be honest, most of my best friends don’t know the slightest of information about me, like some of my best friends didn’t even know where I lived until like a few months ago, and they’ve known me all my life. I come across cold at times, and I’d rather just not let people get close to me, I prefer to be alone, and that sucks but it is what it is, and I feel guilty for my friends. I've recently started socializing more, but it's been very very difficult


I got diagnosed with EDNOS (Eating disorder not otherwise specified) when I was 13, I’ve always hated how I look and I ABSOLUTELY cannot stand writing things like this on the internet, or even talking about it in real life, because it just comes across complete attention seeking and that annoys me, so I just never bother to talk about it, I’d rather people not know, so this post is hard. At my worst I was simply having a bottle of volvic flavoured water, and a Rivita, I genuinely just thought I was so fat and ugly. I currently weigh 7 stone 3lbs and I’m really not happy at all, but I’m forcing myself to get through it. I’ll never be happy with how I look tbh, and I’ll always want to be thinner or have a smaller nose etc, but I’m just trying to learn to live with it, and focusing on my studies, prevents me from getting too sad about it. I've never self harmed or anything though ,because the thought of harming my body would just make me hate it even more idk! :s

I love Dancing, I find it such a passion participating in tournaments and everything, and it takes my mind off a lot of things!
I identified my self as Asexual a few months ago, but I know that isn’t true, it’s very complicated, I can’t see myself ever going out with someone, the thought of ever letting someone into my life, and allowing them to know everything about me utterly terrifies me, and so I just don’t see the point. I can put up a front online, and everything but in real life the thought of someone even touching me or kissing me makes me want to be sick, and that’s scary, like the thought of it makes me shiver nad that’s not right for someone my age :s

So yeah I really have no idea what I’ll do in the future, and I hate the thought that this post will just be deemed as attention seeking but whatever -_-

I like you.

[Marcus.]

well done kate
43 wowers

and joey wowers

[Kazanne]

Reading some of the write ups on here,my life is still rather non eventful really with still loads to come though,never mind I find these things therapeutic so here goes.

I am 21 years old, Male,I came a little early while my Parents were visiting a relative in the South of England otherwise I would have been born in Ireland.
I am of full Irish ancestry on my Mother's side and full Scottish ancestry on my Father's.
My Father is a barrister and I have 3 older,much older, Brothers of whom all of them are in fact old enough to be my Dad too.
In fact 2 of my Brothers Children are in fact older than I am.It is odd when they call me Uncle.

I am fortunate to still be here at all, I have had pneumonia twice in my life and it nearly ended my life when I was 4 years old.
However that is the real only health problems I have had.
As a child I had a massive fear of Santa Claus, I wanted nothing to do with him,I couldn't sleep on Christmas eve but all for the wrong reasons,dreading him coming,even saying I wanted no presents and for him to take mine to someone else.

I have a wonderful supportive family who are always there for me but not in an intrusive way. What I decide to do as to my life has their support even if it goes against their own train of thought.
For instance, I come from a strong Conservative background, however I no way hold to any power or person who prey on the weakest while bulding up the richest and strongest.
This means I have crossed completely the political divide now following this Govts hard hearted policies against the weakest and most vulnerable.

Politics is something I am fascinated with and Law too, it is why I spent all my teenage energy making sure I got the grades to go to University and study Politics and Law, courses I have now just completed.
Now I have at least the next 6 months or so to go travelling a bit and catch up with people I have not seen for a fair few years now due to my intense studying.

The greatest influence in my life would be my Grandmother on my Mother's side, she was Irish and very outspoken but she instilled in me so many things that I try to live by.
When she died just before I got to University,I was really sad because I wanted so much for her to see me do it and be there when I finsished. That's life though.

I think I will likely stick with Law, I feel in poitics you are a small cog in a massive wheel that has one purpose to keep the party machine rolling, I don't see how that really helps people who are unable to fight or speak for themselves.
In Law,I will get the opportunity to help those who need it ease their worries and burdens, hopefully too by being as sucessful for them as I can.

I love music, all types of music except for rap, from classical right through all the commercial pop to the punk era and to the present.
My journey through music and I do like singing a bit too, has brought me to be a strong,almost obsessed,fan of PETULA CLARK.
Downtown, is my all time favourite song and I have set myself the aim to acquire as near as I can get to all her recorded work.
I am driving people mad with that.

I have a major problem though, I never know when to stop talking, I go on and on as you will have noticed in this write up. The description of me from some of my tutors was,that I was someone who if he was going to London from Manchester,he would go via Aberdeen.
I have tried to acquire the skill of saying a lot in a few words but have all but given up now.

I am in many ways a loner,
I have a wonderful family and extended family,I have many friends but few that I call really close friends,I need to be on my own a lot, preferably spending time with my dog but I always also make sure I am there for people who may want to talk to me or who may need me.
I can be sneaky, I have tested people I wondered if I could trust with some totally random nonsense about myself and thankfully only a few have proven unable to be trusted.
I hate genuine muck stirrers and 2 faced people, I have no problem with people talking about others but hate it when they quote the person they are talking about but add their words and what they wished they'd said rather than what they actually said.
Anyone in my life that was like that would be cast out of it very quickly.

I have at this point, no girlfriend, no intention of looking or any intention of getting married in the medium future.
I want to get my career sorted and secured and who knows what may happen then.
My family and friends and also some people on here,(tibb),are the people I like around me at this point in my life.

I come from a privileged background but the people I get on with best are those who didn't. They make up the bulk of my real closest friends.
I am a staunch and rigid supporter of the Police and I believe in the equality of all,where all benefit from all good things and not just some.

That's really me up to now, I have loads of Nephews and Nieces and few difficulties in life.
My only real fear is of daddy long legs, I lterally still freeze if I am in room with one,I am fascinated by the insect world but find it a cold and sinister world too.

A lot more to come for me in life,good and bad so I hope I keep to the words my Grandmother said, ''if you cannot say something good about someone then don't say anything, look to do good turns to people not bad ones''.

I knew it Joey,a man of integrity,honest and fair,your grandma was very wise as they often are,she would be so proud of you,your family sound lovely I am proud to call you a friend:hugesmile:

[Z]

:love: to everyone who has opened up in this thread!

[Shaun]

wow... this is a lot to take in, wish I'd read it from the start so I had a clue where to begin talking to everyone :laugh: you're all rather brave. :love: I'll post in here later.

[Me. I Am Salman]

right, okay....here goes.

I'm Kate, and I am a complete mess a lot of the time, I could write an entire book (seriously) The two things I retain which keep me going is my sense of humour, and a few people I allow close enough to call genuine friends.

I am 43, but I don't feel/act like that age, this could be considered either a good or bad thing depending on your point of view.

My background....

Grew up in an average family, mum and dad, two kids. I am the elder, my brother is three years younger. My dad has now passed away, and my brother is married, we are complete opposites, not at all close. My mum isn't at all touchy feely or one for demonstrating emotion, and was brought up herself very strictly and to always have the house perfect and is far too bothered about what other people think. She nags constantly. I always felt her disapproval and that I was a disappointment. She won't leave the house with so much as a hair out of place. I don't give a ****. (:D) I rarely do make-up and I live in jeans and t-shirts. You will NEVER get me in a dress.

I left home at nineteen and went to stay in my mate Jane's house. Got a job in a make-up factory packing. (I went to college after school, but just pissed about, I am not overly academically qualified, I am bright but was lazy, just wanted to have a laugh. Went a bit (ok a lot) wild. Weekends would see me at Lowie's club in town, with mates, picking up lads. I slept with a fair few, bit sluttish, but there you go.

At 21 I met my son's dad, and was involved with him on and off till the age of 29. I can't say it was the biggest mistake of my life because I have my lovely son as a result and he really is my pride and joy, but other than that it was a nightmare from start to finish, the best thing I ever did was (finally) walk away, though it took a hell of a long time to get there. If I thought I had low self esteem then, it was nothing compared to the state I was in emotionally when it was all over, some 8 years down the line.

He was the perfect guy for about 6 months, long enough for me to consider myself in love and then almost overnight, like flipping a switch, he changed. Well, he didn't really, he had just been hiding his true self.

He cheated on me regularly, and made no attempt to hide it, he enjoyed seeing me upset. He gradually isolated me from all my friends, and completely controlled every aspect of my life. The putdowns and insults were constant. When we moved in together he started to hurt me, he would twist my arm, flick his lighter in my face, or singe my hair, and laugh, say he was just playing.... He drank heavily, more and more as time went on. One night, he brought a bread knife to bed and put it on the floor, saying it was for if I got on his nerves. That became a regular occurrence.

When I got pregnant he calmed down for a while, he was still very controlling, but he was working away a lot driving coaches. He lost his license for drink driving in 1996, it was coming up to Christmas, and he was sacked. He came home drunk out of his head, smashed a glass on the floor and tried to shove it in my face. I was about 2 months pregnant at the time, was terrified. I managed to put my hands up to protect my face and my index finger was sliced to the bone, he phoned his mum in a panic, she took me to the hospital. I had to have plastic surgery on my hand and it is still scarred noticeably today, they took skin grafts from the inside of my palm to repair it.

I was ashamed, so I told my parents that I had cut it washing up, that a sharp knife had been in the bowl and I didn't see it, that lie is intact to this day, if they ever suspected they never said so.

I finally left him just after my son was born, he was born in July and I left in September 1997, the day Diana died it was. I just took him from the house saying we were going for a walk. We never went back. I went straight to my mums and that was the end.

In the final few months his behaviour had escalated to nightmare proportions, he had rigged up a noose in the bedroom and said he was going to kill himself soon, but he hadn't decided when, I would just come home to find him swinging. He had started using his lighter on my hair again and bringing the knife to bed.

The day I left he had gone out to the pub and I was ironing baby clothes and bedding, the news was on, it was all about Diana's death. I decided to go, this complete calmness just came over me. When he came in I said I was taking the baby for a walk, and as I mentioned previously, we never went back.

He tried taking me to court for access but the judge ruled him unfit. I never saw him again. In 2010 he was jailed for life, he stabbed his partner with a kitchen knife, I hope the evil bastard rots and dies in there.

I have rebuilt my life, but the effects still linger, I am not the person I was before I met him, I trust very few people. I have undergone long term counselling twice, once directly after I left him, and once after he was jailed as it brought everything back to me.

I will never have a relationship again. I know I will be single for the rest of my life, probably be a mad cat woman, I just cannot do it, I am quite happy on my own.

So right back at the the beginning of this epic post, I said I was a mess. But I am not unhappy. I thank God for the blessings and good things I have, and that I got out when I did.

I am far happier talking to people on a forum than I am interacting in real life. I prefer the written word to conversing in person, I write a lot for pleasure, creative writing is my main hobby. I enjoy organising stuff for people to do, and just being daft and light hearted. I crave praise and people saying good stuff about me, because I have never had it in actual life. This is more than a little sad, but whatever gets you through eh...

(I think I'm done)

I'm glad everything's good now :love:
And speaking of writing I remember you saying you almost became a writer for Hollyoaks last year, you must be really good :)

[Black Dagger]

Right I might as well do this, but I don't know what to include, I don't want to be morbid as **** either. :/

[Jessica.]

Right I might as well do this, but I don't know what to include, I don't want to be morbid as **** either. :/

All I did was went through all the years of my life and thought about anything that stood out. :joker: That's the easiest way, just leave out anything you want to.

[Jords]

Kate :hug:

Nice to get to know a bit more of you Joey and Dean.

[Firewire]

right, okay....here goes.

I'm Kate, and I am a complete mess a lot of the time, I could write an entire book (seriously) The two things I retain which keep me going is my sense of humour, and a few people I allow close enough to call genuine friends.

I am 43, but I don't feel/act like that age, this could be considered either a good or bad thing depending on your point of view.

My background....

Grew up in an average family, mum and dad, two kids. I am the elder, my brother is three years younger. My dad has now passed away, and my brother is married, we are complete opposites, not at all close. My mum isn't at all touchy feely or one for demonstrating emotion, and was brought up herself very strictly and to always have the house perfect and is far too bothered about what other people think. She nags constantly. I always felt her disapproval and that I was a disappointment. She won't leave the house with so much as a hair out of place. I don't give a ****. (:D) I rarely do make-up and I live in jeans and t-shirts. You will NEVER get me in a dress.

I left home at nineteen and went to stay in my mate Jane's house. Got a job in a make-up factory packing. (I went to college after school, but just pissed about, I am not overly academically qualified, I am bright but was lazy, just wanted to have a laugh. Went a bit (ok a lot) wild. Weekends would see me at Lowie's club in town, with mates, picking up lads. I slept with a fair few, bit sluttish, but there you go.

At 21 I met my son's dad, and was involved with him on and off till the age of 29. I can't say it was the biggest mistake of my life because I have my lovely son as a result and he really is my pride and joy, but other than that it was a nightmare from start to finish, the best thing I ever did was (finally) walk away, though it took a hell of a long time to get there. If I thought I had low self esteem then, it was nothing compared to the state I was in emotionally when it was all over, some 8 years down the line.

He was the perfect guy for about 6 months, long enough for me to consider myself in love and then almost overnight, like flipping a switch, he changed. Well, he didn't really, he had just been hiding his true self.

He cheated on me regularly, and made no attempt to hide it, he enjoyed seeing me upset. He gradually isolated me from all my friends, and completely controlled every aspect of my life. The putdowns and insults were constant. When we moved in together he started to hurt me, he would twist my arm, flick his lighter in my face, or singe my hair, and laugh, say he was just playing.... He drank heavily, more and more as time went on. One night, he brought a bread knife to bed and put it on the floor, saying it was for if I got on his nerves. That became a regular occurrence.

When I got pregnant he calmed down for a while, he was still very controlling, but he was working away a lot driving coaches. He lost his license for drink driving in 1996, it was coming up to Christmas, and he was sacked. He came home drunk out of his head, smashed a glass on the floor and tried to shove it in my face. I was about 2 months pregnant at the time, was terrified. I managed to put my hands up to protect my face and my index finger was sliced to the bone, he phoned his mum in a panic, she took me to the hospital. I had to have plastic surgery on my hand and it is still scarred noticeably today, they took skin grafts from the inside of my palm to repair it.

I was ashamed, so I told my parents that I had cut it washing up, that a sharp knife had been in the bowl and I didn't see it, that lie is intact to this day, if they ever suspected they never said so.

I finally left him just after my son was born, he was born in July and I left in September 1997, the day Diana died it was. I just took him from the house saying we were going for a walk. We never went back. I went straight to my mums and that was the end.

In the final few months his behaviour had escalated to nightmare proportions, he had rigged up a noose in the bedroom and said he was going to kill himself soon, but he hadn't decided when, I would just come home to find him swinging. He had started using his lighter on my hair again and bringing the knife to bed.

The day I left he had gone out to the pub and I was ironing baby clothes and bedding, the news was on, it was all about Diana's death. I decided to go, this complete calmness just came over me. When he came in I said I was taking the baby for a walk, and as I mentioned previously, we never went back.

He tried taking me to court for access but the judge ruled him unfit. I never saw him again. In 2010 he was jailed for life, he stabbed his partner with a kitchen knife, I hope the evil bastard rots and dies in there.

I have rebuilt my life, but the effects still linger, I am not the person I was before I met him, I trust very few people. I have undergone long term counselling twice, once directly after I left him, and once after he was jailed as it brought everything back to me.

I will never have a relationship again. I know I will be single for the rest of my life, probably be a mad cat woman, I just cannot do it, I am quite happy on my own.

So right back at the the beginning of this epic post, I said I was a mess. But I am not unhappy. I thank God for the blessings and good things I have, and that I got out when I did.

I am far happier talking to people on a forum than I am interacting in real life. I prefer the written word to conversing in person, I write a lot for pleasure, creative writing is my main hobby. I enjoy organising stuff for people to do, and just being daft and light hearted. I crave praise and people saying good stuff about me, because I have never had it in actual life. This is more than a little sad, but whatever gets you through eh...

(I think I'm done)

this was incredibly moving to read

i'm so glad you're away from that monster and that he's behind bars! he'll never be a father, no matter what the certificate says. i hope he never gets out!

[Sam:)]

Posted one yesterday but it was boring as **** tbh, so I just deleted it.

I'm Sam, I'm 16 in a month and a bit and I'm from Dublin. I'm the middle child between an older brother and a younger sister. I have a normal/boring family life, we're all close but not overly close. Its the one thing in my life I see no need for improvement. Without sounding like a way of rubbing it in, this thread has actually made me feel very grateful for them.

Appearance wise, I'm fairly bog standard. Nothing amazing, up until recently it was always something I loathed about myself. I went through a rough patch which resulted in me losing alot of weight (I posted about it on this forum before and basically got burnt at the steak and accused of attention seeking) I managed to get it under control after a while and I'm happier now, although im starting to get pudgy again tbf. About two years ago I really liked this girl so this resulted in me getting contacts, changing my hair and clothes. I suppose it was a good thing because looking back I was a fairly ugly child, Its sad but I cant stand looking at pictures of myself between the age of 6-13 because it just makes me feel like **** at how bad I looked. Hmm makes me seem really vein, but I'm not.

Personality for me has changed just as much as my appearance, I have gotten more shy as time goes on. I used to just constantly talk and be loud but recently i've just quietened down. Thats why I dont really post, I just like to lurk. Not in a weird way, I just like listening and tbh I find it hard to fit in to already established groups which this forum basically is. I'm part of a large enough group of people in real life but I've remained best friends with one of them for 10 years, the rest can annoy me but this person never does. We basically share the exact same opinion, always agree and he's basically a brother to me. I tend to get on better with girls, I'm not interested in football in the slightest and I find it easier to talk to girls. This has led to me receiving constant jokes about me being gay. It used to bother me, now it doesnt. I know I'm straight so I dont really give a ****. I do actually fear I'm bipolar, the description of the disease basically describes me as a person and how I feel. Its something I dont like talking about, I suppose i've never looked to have it assesed because Im afraid it will become more real then. I know I sound like i'm just being an attention seeker but I genuinely just go from being in an amazing mood to being sad for no reason in the matter of minutes. I told one person about it but we ended up falling out almost immediately over something different so its something I've never really talked about. I've managed well with whatever it is so far anyway, and I can deal with it for the time being.

I do quite well in school. I dont really listen and spend more time outside the door then I do in the class but I still maintain above average grades. Best of both worlds really! Im alot more confident in school, I dont know why. I think its being around the people I am in school just generally makes me feel more comfortable. I have just finished my junior cert and think it went quite well, I had a bit of the night before panic because I literally did about 3 hours for the whole of the exams. It worked out grand. I have no clue what I want to do after school, I definantly want to go college but I have no clue what I want to do. Its something I plan on deciding in the next year because I need to pick subjects and plan for points etc.

[Conzors]

so, so moving.
i love you all.

[Kazanne]

Conzors,you created a great thread here.

[Conzors]

Conzors,you created a great thread here.
Thank you very much!
For once its not a thread about being drunk, insulting someone, having a picture of me, or any sexual things haha.

<3

[Kate!]

Raph :hug:

keep going, you will get there. I admire your spirit :)

[Raph]

Thanks Kate, I appreciate it :hug:

[Conzors]

=]

[Marsh.]

When did Raph become Barker?

[Joe.]

Joe, 18, from Cardiff in Wales. In my second year of College studying English, Politics, Maths, Further Maths and Drama. My friends say i'm quite brainy- got all A*'s in my GCSE's apart from Chemistry where I got an A. Know it sounds hideously boring but i'd like to be a maths teacher when I'm older. I can speak Japanese which might be considered unique. I have two jobs- I work in a shop two nights a week and on weekends volunteer at a charity shop. Have a girlfriend of a year now who means everything to me. Bad Girls Club is my favourite tv show. I have OCD. I play the clarinet. I have a youtube channel also.

[Conzors]

what is your youtube channel?

[Joe.]

what is your youtube channel?

you won't be interested but here-
www.youtube.com/everytimejoe
:xyxwave:

[Conzors]

i like it :D x

[Jessica.]

This was one of the best threads, doesn't feel like it's almost a year old. :joker:

[reece(:]

<3

[Firewire]

hi im jonathan im 18 im from glasgow

[T*]

Hi, I'm Tom, I'm 13 (nearly 14) and i'm from Merseyside.

I love Graphic design and art.

I have a phobia of Spiders.

I'm very very awkward, not clichè teen awkward ("omgz becki iam soooo awkwardz XDXOXOXOX") Like, actually awkward.

I don't like children.

I'm a bigger weight than average and I'm hoping to change it this year.

[T*]

Oh and I have a squeaky voice </3

[Crimson Dynamo]

Hi, I'm Tom, I'm 13 (nearly 14) and i'm from Merseyside.

I love Graphic design and art.

I have a phobia of Spiders.

I'm very very awkward, not clichè teen awkward ("omgz becki iam soooo awkwardz XDXOXOXOX") Like, actually awkward.

I don't like children.

I'm a bigger weight than average and I'm hoping to change it this year.

you are a child :facepalm:

[Conzors]

aww thanks for saying it was one of the best threads ever!
it is nice seeing everyones real side!

[T*]

you are a child :facepalm:

Still doesn't mean I cannot hate children.

[lily.]

Interesting reading in this thread.

I'm not open enough to post one about myself, but kudos to those who did. <3

[Marsh.]

Oh and I have a squeaky voice </3

:laugh:

[smeagol]

My name is Maximus Decimus Meridius, commander of the Armies of the North, General of the Felix Legions, loyal servant to the true emperor, Marcus Aurelius. Father to a murdered son, husband to a murdered wife. And I will have my vengeance, in this life or the next.

[Livia]

Interesting reading in this thread.

I'm not open enough to post one about myself, but kudos to those who did. <3

Same.

[Kate!]

just re-read this thread and I am actually bawling.....

phew!

[Jessica.]

just re-read this thread and I am actually bawling.....

phew!

:hug:

[lily.]

Oh and I have a squeaky voice </3

That'll change. My son is your age. His voice is up and down like a yo-yo at the moment... I think soon he is going to wake up with a big man-voice which will freak me out a bit.. lol

[Ninastar]

theres a boy i know who is 15 and his voice hasnt broken yet, so hes really self conscious. i feel bad for him cause hes so sweet. I noticed it getting a little deeper so i told him that the other day and i think it made his week