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21-10-2007, 03:20 PM
Sisi Jghalef tried to kill herself last weekend after struggling to cope with being booted off The X Factor.
The 22-year-old was a member of girl group Hope, but she was axed after show producers discovered that she had failed to complete a community service order.
"Once my X Factor dream was shattered I plunged into a bottomless pit of total depression and worthlessness," Sisi told The People. "On the outside I still tried to be the same bubbly Sisi going out clubbing and being the life and soul of the party but inside I was falling apart."
"One night I sat in my bedroom watching over and over re-runs of the wonderful moment I'd been told I'd made the final," she continued. "It was everything I'd ever wanted and worked towards. I laid on my bed crying my eyes out and sobbing uncontrollably knowing it was never going to happen.
"I stumbled into the bathroom to wash away the tears and saw a bottle of paracetamol on the cabinet. I unscrewed the cap and emptied the bottle into my quivering palm - some spilling on the floor as I was shaking so much. I can't remember how many there were and just swallowed them with a gulp of water as I stared back at my swollen face in the mirror."
Jghalef was rescued by her mother, who discovered what her daughter had tried to do in time. She stuck her fingers down Sisi's throat, forcing her to bring the tablets back up.
"Since my overdose I've managed to pull myself together thanks to my friends and family," Sisi added. "The only reason I'm talking about this is to warn other young people and parents about the pressure put on contestants on such high-profile shows."
The 22-year-old was a member of girl group Hope, but she was axed after show producers discovered that she had failed to complete a community service order.
"Once my X Factor dream was shattered I plunged into a bottomless pit of total depression and worthlessness," Sisi told The People. "On the outside I still tried to be the same bubbly Sisi going out clubbing and being the life and soul of the party but inside I was falling apart."
"One night I sat in my bedroom watching over and over re-runs of the wonderful moment I'd been told I'd made the final," she continued. "It was everything I'd ever wanted and worked towards. I laid on my bed crying my eyes out and sobbing uncontrollably knowing it was never going to happen.
"I stumbled into the bathroom to wash away the tears and saw a bottle of paracetamol on the cabinet. I unscrewed the cap and emptied the bottle into my quivering palm - some spilling on the floor as I was shaking so much. I can't remember how many there were and just swallowed them with a gulp of water as I stared back at my swollen face in the mirror."
Jghalef was rescued by her mother, who discovered what her daughter had tried to do in time. She stuck her fingers down Sisi's throat, forcing her to bring the tablets back up.
"Since my overdose I've managed to pull myself together thanks to my friends and family," Sisi added. "The only reason I'm talking about this is to warn other young people and parents about the pressure put on contestants on such high-profile shows."