Christina's Agony :(.

[Conzors]

Hello.

I am writing this on behalf of the well known, and the well liked TiBB member;; Christina. Its a sad time for her at this on moment in time. Christinas nan, has been ill for a very long time, and sadly her nan has passed away :(.

I phoned her, to see if she was okay. And its more upsetting for her because she was holding her nans hand as she unfortunatly died, and is now at this one moment in time holding the hand, untill her nans daughter gets here. (her hand is very old she says).

I am so sad for her, because she is one of my very best TiBB friends, and i know first hand that she has dreaded this day for so long, and unfortunatly it has happened today.

This is forcing Christina to QUIT the very famous TiBB game ELIMINATION. Which i know many of her supporters are dissapointed.

I just wish her the best of luck, and may her nan rest in peace. She says shes going to be strong, and fight this. She was getting prepared for the death, but didnt know it was happening this soon.

No hatred on this thread please (like she has any) as its a sad time for her.

Be strong Christina.
And may your nan rest in peace.

Love You x.

[Lauren]

Your nan is at peace now Christina :angel:

I hope you will feel well soon over this and get through it ok.

[Shaun]

Awwww :sad:

I came into this thread expecting a DamonJ-style magazine thing but that's dreadful news. RIP. :(

[Annie]

Please pass on our good wishes Conzor and we all hope that she can be strong for herself and her family.

May her Gran rest now.

xxx

[Jackie]

I hope Christina's okay and I'm sorry to hear about her Nan.
RIP Christina's Nan.
Hope you're back soon on Tibb.

[Hugo]

Aw that is dreadful. I wish her and her family the very best for getting through this time. :hug:

[MarkWaldorf]

:sad: So sorry Christina. I remember reading your posts of all the nice favours you did for her. I'm sure she appreciates it grealtly.

[Callum]

Something similar happened to me with my great grandma, and I know what your going through. Stay strong Christina and just think your nan is probably having a great old time wherever she is. R.I.P. and my best wishes go out to you and your family.

[melanie]

I hope shes okay, I wish her and her family the best. RIP.

[AngRemembered]

Oh Christina, I am so very very sorry for you, I know just how much your Grand mother meant to you but cant imagine what the loss of her will mean to you.

I just hope you take your time being with your familly who will need you the most right now, as you will need them also.
I got to know your Nan through your pics and posts about her, and she came across as a very sweet and dear lady who will be missed very much, I cant tell you exactly how very sad I am at this news.

My heart,tears and condolances go out to you darling, and the hope that you come back when your ready this place wont be the same without you.

All our love....... Angela and Nicole xx

[Conzors]

Aww Angie.

I do love your posts xx

[JOSHUAH!]

Christina, I've only just heard this has happened now - Like Angie said, I know how much your Nan meant to you Christina x We were only speaking last night, even though it was about 5am!

I am so sorry for you Christina, we spoke about this earlier and I remember telling you, your Nan wouldn't want you to be upset and she would want you to fight this and I know you will do that for her. Christina your such a lovely person and I'm so glad I met you on here, I hope and pray you're okay and your family is too. I'm so sorry Christina.

I'll remember when you phoned me and your Nan was on the phone to me! She said I lived next door to you LOL!, Just try to remember those good times Christina

Stay Strong x :love:

[Ninastar]

God christina i will never know how you feel but i had something very simalar happen to me.
I am so so sorry to hear but now that your grans at a better place and isnt suffering.
Thats what i had to think when my gran died and it does kinda help.
I am so sorry and hope you and your family well.
xxx

[Ninastar]

and conzors you did a very very nice thing and i am sure christina will apriciate it x

[serensilver]

:hug: ohh this is sad news! all the best for you and your family christina :hug: hope to see you on Tibb when you feel up to it!
your tibb friends are always ready to talk! :wavey:

[Ross]

That's awful Christina. I know how you feel.

Don't worry about the game, your family needs you more. :bawling:

R.I.P to your Nan and my thoughts are with you :hug:

[Scarlett.]

That is so sad, hope you ok Christina :hug:

[Chemicle]

R.I.P, i'm so sorry Christina, I wish you and your family the best wishes at this time. My Condolences, look forward to talking to you on msn. x :love:

[Conzors]

She says thanks to you all.

And...

Thanks Ninostar

xx

[Benjamin]

Christina I am so sorry for you. I hope you are ok sweetie? We're all here for you. We all love you loads and we are all sending you a big group TiBB hug.

[Conzors]

She says thanks to you all.

And...

Thanks Ninostar

xx

[AngRemembered]

Originally posted by ninostar
and conzors you did a very very nice thing and i am sure christina will apriciate it x

absolutely Ninostar :kiss:, thats what good friends are for

[Novo]

Originally posted by Angiebabe
Originally posted by ninostar
and conzors you did a very very nice thing and i am sure christina will apriciate it x

absolutely Ninostar :kiss:, thats what good friends are for

she'll be greatfull am sure conzors

[gavinh2008]

Aw I am so sorry
:hug:
If you need anything Christina then just let me know when you read this
R.I.P

[Conzors]

Originally posted by andy-dale-win
Originally posted by Angiebabe
Originally posted by ninostar
and conzors you did a very very nice thing and i am sure christina will apriciate it x

absolutely Ninostar :kiss:, thats what good friends are for

she'll be greatfull am sure conzors

Awww.
Thanks you threee

-hug-

xx

[Xander]

Aww Christina kept telling me about her Nan, and we had a few conversations about it. Its really really sad to hear, as I know she was a great carer for her nan, and did everything she could for her to feel more comfortable. My thoughts are with her family and her. :hug:

[Marc]

Aww I'm so sorry to hear about that Christina, my thoughts go out to you! and whenever you just wanna come on and chat and have a laugh... just let us know xxxxx

[\PJ/]

That is so sad christina im always on msn if you need me.:thumbs:

[Tom4784]

Oh no, I remember Christina talking about her nan fondly. I'm so sorry to hear this news. If she doesn't read this please pass on my condolences, My grandad suffered from alzeimers and cancer so I know how she feels. I wish the best for Christina and her family.

:sad:

[supernoodles!]

aw no this is such sad news,christina had spoken to me about her nan in msn convos and on the forum before and i felt i could relate to her situation in some ways as my gran also has alzhimers and is in the later stage of it atm.My toughts go out to Christina and her family at this sad time and i hope she can come to terms with her loss in time.Thanks for posting this Conzors its very sweet of you,if your speaking to her again let her know that myself and im sure all her other friends on tibb are thinking of her:bawling:

[Noel]

I'm so sorry to hear this, Christina.
Be strong, and just know we're all here for you.
At least your nan can rest peacefully now.
RIP.

[bronaaaa]

*hugs christina*
sorry to hear about your nan x x x

[Dan_]

I could tell from her posts just how much she cared for her nan, I'm sorry for your loss Christina.Best wishes to you in this hard time.

[Jen]

I'm really sorry Christina, I know what you are going through and its not easy. But Christina you are a trooper and we are all here for you, for a chat or for a laugh!

Thankyou Conzors for letting us know :)

:love: xxx

[Firewire]

Aw Christina. RIP to your nan.

You know we are always here to talk.

[Magic]

Christina, stay strong.
Your Nan is in a better and happier place, and I am sure she will never forget you.

Thinking of you alot,
X

[BigSister]

awwwwwno im sorry to hear that christina I know just how you feel but you can get through it and we will all be here for you:hug:

[Loukas]

R.I.P.

Christina, you are a strong girl. You can pull threw this. I'm sorry to hear about the loss. You have my number if you want a chat. xx Love you.

[Christina]

Id like to say a massive thankyou to everyone who has thought about me and my nan. Your posts have brought tears to my eyes. It was an extremley hard time for me yesterday, i felt as though my nan waited for me as silly as some of you might think it sounds. I didnt get up until 3pm [i wish i had of got up earlier but these things cant be helped] and she waited until i had got ready. The doctor and district nurse had come in that morning and had told us that she needed to be put on a drip, she was also having to be taken to a hospice but we were ready to fight for her. She told us that she wanted to die at home. She got her wish. She passed away at 3.40 pm, and i held her hand moments later she fell asleep and she was gone. She was surrounded by her family which i feel she would of wanted. Unfourtunatly she didnt make it in time for her daughter but her daughter did see her. The undertakers took her to the chapel of rest at 8.30pm and i sat with her until they did. It was honestly the worst day of myne and my familys life.

My nan played a massive role in my family. She cared for me all my life which makes it harder as i have never spent a night away from her [excluding the sleepovers and mini holidays]. Her bed and room is now empty but i can feel that she is with us. We are not sure when her funeral is but she is to be cremated. We are going to be putting our old pet cat Mitzy's ashes in her coffin as one of my nans old phrases were 'Mitzy you'll be quick enough to jump in my coffin'.

I knew that my nan didnt have long left. These past 6 weeks have been heartbreaking to say the least, i have seen how weak she had become, she had got to the point were she could no longer talk, eat, drink or even walk. My nan was a fighter and i loved her very much. I have asked if i can write a special poem for her and my auntie and dad have said that i can do whatever i want. As distressing as this may sound, i had always feared waking up and finding my nan dead. I had always been afraid. But when i sat there with her it looked as though she was asleep. She was very cold but looked very peaceful and comfy. I just thank God that she has lived 93 years of her life. And i could feel her pulse slowing fade away as i held my grandmothers hand.

And finally before i go i would like to say a massive thankyou to Conor who wrote this in memory of my nan. Im sure she enjoyed her late night phone call with you. I thankyou for everytime i come to you, Josh, Alex and Loukas [and everyone else]. Im sure wherever my nan may be she is looking down on all of you and raising a glass of whisky to each and everyone of you at Tibb. Thankyou all so much for your kind words. And R.I.P to my wonderful strong loving nan. I love you and i always will.

Thanks again xx

[Christina]

P.S I also am very thankful that i was the last to kiss her goodbye when the undertakers took her away. I told her i loved her and how thankful i was to her :sad: x

[MR.K!]

Sorry to hear about your loss.
R.I.P

[Kate..]

Aw Christina this must be really really hard for you, and from complete experience I know what you're going through and there's honestly not much that can be said to make you feel better right now. But I know you're strong and wonderfull and that even with the massive amount of pain you must be going through you'll push through it and get on with life like you should.

One thing death of a close family member did to me (after quite a lot of crying) is you learn to grasp life every day and literally live every day like it could be your last, and I've always thought that's a really good thing to have because it makes you enjoy life a lot more, it's horrible that it has to come at such a dreaded and mean cost.

Love you loads and I'm deeply thinking of you

R.I.P

xx

[Christina]

Thanks for your lovley words Kate. Im sorry for your loss too. The thing is i knew it was coming, i woke up and felt dreadful it was as if i knew. I cried in the shower and when i come downstairs mum said i should hold nans hand. At first i couldnt but i did. I dont whether i should be happy that she died holding my hand or not. But mum said its what she would of wanted. I will try and stay strong for her, although i havent eaten yet lool. Thanks to everyone again xx

[Conor]

Thats really bad news :( I hope you pull through and get back to your normal self soon :hug:

[Christina]

Thanks Conor, hows your cat? x

[Nicky.]

Aww Christina :sad: x

I remember you talking about your nan and how much she meant to you. I was in tears when I heard last night, just thinking about how you must be feeling.

If you ever want to talk, Im always on msn or srop me a U2U x

Just remember all your TiBB friends are here for you xxx

Nicky x

[Christina]

Originally posted by Nickyy
Aww Christina :sad: x

I remember you talking about your nan and how much she meant to you. I was in tears when I heard last night, just thinking about how you must be feeling.

If you ever want to talk, Im always on msn or srop me a U2U x

Just remember all your TiBB friends are here for you xxx

Nicky x Aww thanks Nicky :sad: :hug: Im sorry to hear that you was upset but its ok she was 93 years old, she had a good life and died where she wanted to die. Shes at peace now, im sure shes up there with her friends having a good old chin wag lol x

[Nicky.]

Lol - yea, at least she will be happy now :) Catching up on everything with her friends :) lol x

:hug:

[Christina]

Yep lol, she always talked about them :tongue:

Btw heres a lil pic of her, i thought she looked sweet:

http://i528.photobucket.com/albums/dd322/x-kween-dilemma-x/ChristinasPics2991.jpg

xx

[supernoodles!]

aw christina that post explaining what happend and when etc brought tears to my eyes.My earlier post said it all really,my thoughts are with you and your family,we are all here for you on tibb,your nan passing away has really made me think about my gran alot.God bless you ,your fmaily and your nan
R.I.P:sad:

[Nicky.]

Aww Christina!

That picture is so sweet and funny x

[Christina]

Thanks so much Laura, i just wanted to get what happened yesterday off my chest, i can say it in real life so being able to say it on here has helped me x

[supernoodles!]

Originally posted by Christina
Thanks so much Laura, i just wanted to get what happened yesterday off my chest, i can say it in real life so being able to say it on here has helped me x


good,i am glad to hear that:hug:

[Christina]

I just feel kinda down, and im having to sleep in with my mum because my nans room was next to mine :sad: x

[Nurse57]

Sorry to hear about your sad news. Think of the good time. Your Nan may be gone, but your memories remain.

The pain never goes, but it does get easier to cope with in time.

My thoughts go to you and your family.

All the best,

Andrew.

[Christina]

Thanks Andrew, yeah its gonna be hard at first i just hope it gets better, im back at school next week so hopefully it should get my mind of it.
Im getting about a million texts now lol, i think my friend has let everyone know x

[Xander]

93 was a good old age for someone, :) and that waiting for you to see her thing isn't silly at all, I understand and its happened to me before. At least the death was peaceful, and she wasn't in any uncomfortable pain.

[supernoodles!]

Originally posted by Christina
I just feel kinda down, and Im having to sleep in with my mum because my nans room was next to mine :sad: x

im sure in time that you`ll feel better,it just takes time.It must be so difficult for you right now but you never know,the funeral might help and be able to give you some closure.Like Nicky said,your grans in a better place now ,probably with all her old mates lol:hug:

[GhettoSuperstar]

We're all here for you Christina :hug: x

[AngRemembered]

Good to see you back Christina, I hope everyones coping with there sad loss within your familly, I wish I could offer more practical help, other than a few words on a forum, but I'm pleased that everyones posts have helped you start getting back to normal.

Your nan came across as a real lovely lady you only need look at the ammount of tributes here to see how respected your accounts of her meant to people.
She meant a lot to me, as I know she meant the world to you Christina, and I know she's at peace now, and its lovely to see you back.

Angela x

[Hugo]

Aw. It's obvious you and your family loved her very much and she loved you back just as much. She seems like she has had a fantastic life and you have been such a good carer for her. She's gone to a better place now where can rest and wait for you untill you can meet again. :hug:
P.S. That pic is so sweet lol

[Bells]

I'm sorry to hear what you've been through Christina :sad: RIP to your nan - my thoughts are with you and your family at this time.
I hope you can be strong for them. :hug: xxx

[Christina]

Thanks Ang, ahh im crying again lol. I made a little joke of it today saying that nan brought the sun out in Brixton [it like the 1st sunny day of the week lol]. Its just going to be so different without her. There will be nobody to sit with anymore and nobody to come home to. I suppose im just scared that its going to be lonley down here. But i have to get on with it now. Thanks for everything everyone xx

[Christina]

Thanks tooperfect and Ash, im sure we'll meet again lol x

[Tom]

Originally posted by Christina
Id like to say a massive thankyou to everyone who has thought about me and my nan. Your posts have brought tears to my eyes. It was an extremley hard time for me yesterday, i felt as though my nan waited for me as silly as some of you might think it sounds. I didnt get up until 3pm [i wish i had of got up earlier but these things cant be helped] and she waited until i had got ready. The doctor and district nurse had come in that morning and had told us that she needed to be put on a drip, she was also having to be taken to a hospice but we were ready to fight for her. She told us that she wanted to die at home. She got her wish. She passed away at 3.40 pm, and i held her hand moments later she fell asleep and she was gone. She was surrounded by her family which i feel she would of wanted. Unfourtunatly she didnt make it in time for her daughter but her daughter did see her. The undertakers took her to the chapel of rest at 8.30pm and i sat with her until they did. It was honestly the worst day of myne and my familys life.

My nan played a massive role in my family. She cared for me all my life which makes it harder as i have never spent a night away from her [excluding the sleepovers and mini holidays]. Her bed and room is now empty but i can feel that she is with us. We are not sure when her funeral is but she is to be cremated. We are going to be putting our old pet cat Mitzy's ashes in her coffin as one of my nans old phrases were 'Mitzy you'll be quick enough to jump in my coffin'.

I knew that my nan didnt have long left. These past 6 weeks have been heartbreaking to say the least, i have seen how weak she had become, she had got to the point were she could no longer talk, eat, drink or even walk. My nan was a fighter and i loved her very much. I have asked if i can write a special poem for her and my auntie and dad have said that i can do whatever i want. As distressing as this may sound, i had always feared waking up and finding my nan dead. I had always been afraid. But when i sat there with her it looked as though she was asleep. She was very cold but looked very peaceful and comfy. I just thank God that she has lived 93 years of her life. And i could feel her pulse slowing fade away as i held my grandmothers hand.

And finally before i go i would like to say a massive thankyou to Conor who wrote this in memory of my nan. Im sure she enjoyed her late night phone call with you. I thankyveryone of you at Tibb. Thankyou all so much for your kind wordou for everytime i come to you, Josh, Alex and Loukas [and everyone else]. Im sure wherever my nan may be she is looking down on all of you and raising a glass of whisky to each and es. And R.I.P to my wonderful strong loving nan. I love you and i always will.

Thanks again xx

That actually made me cry a tiny bit and that normally takes some doing (!), it sounds like it means a lot but there is a striking resemblance there to what my nana was like and what happened on the day she died, I can empathise with you 110%. I hope you all get through it with the knowledge that shes no longer in pain and it sounds like she was. Sometimes its for the best when someone dies and I know you will understand what I mean by this (but I'm not sure many others will so its not meant in a bad way) but in this situation it is a good thing and shes finally at rest.

[Christina]

Thankyou Tom and i completlety understand what you mean Tom. She was tired, weak and i can assure you she would of hated being in a hospice as would we. Soz for making you cry lool x

[Tom]

Originally posted by Christina
Thankyou Tom and i completlety understand what you mean Tom. She was tired, weak and i can assure you she would of hated being in a hospice as would we. Soz for making you cry lool x

lol its ok, it just reminded me of stuff thats all, but yeah its not nice seeing people like that.

[Kate..]

Originally posted by Christina
Thanks for your lovley words Kate. Im sorry for your loss too. The thing is i knew it was coming, i woke up and felt dreadful it was as if i knew. I cried in the shower and when i come downstairs mum said i should hold nans hand. At first i couldnt but i did. I dont whether i should be happy that she died holding my hand or not. But mum said its what she would of wanted. I will try and stay strong for her, although i havent eaten yet lool. Thanks to everyone again xx

I can't say I know how you felt when you knew it was coming, my dads death was so sudden and no one could have possibly guessed in a million years that it was going to happen... but when i was five one of his arteries burst and he was amazingly lucky to survive, and the doctors said it could happen again any day, and that if it did, he would die suddenly and without pain. So for that I'm thankfull (that he didn't feel any pain) but it was a really hard time as it happened at an airport and me and he just went to the toilet and didn't come back... The next year will be unbeleiveably tough for you Christina and I'm so sorry this has happened to you, and even though it does get easier, the pain never ever goes away and i really wish it did.

I understand that you don't know whether to be happy or sad that you were holding your grandma's hand, but I really wish I had been holding my dads, then at least he would have died thinking of me, knowing how much I amazingly loved him and how I always will. I wish my mum could have said bye to him too, I know this is probably harder for her than it is for me..

It sounds cheesy I know, but you do think about them so many times each day, and without a doubt you always start talking to them, wishing they were there, because everything would be so different if they were.

Love you loads Christina, just remember, life is worth living!xxx

[Christina]

Im so soz Kate :sad: i hope your okay too x

[serensilver]

Christina always remember you can see her whenever you want all you have to do is close your eyes :wink: i no its hard now, but in time you'll see something that will remind you of your nan and you will have a little chuckle to yourself about it.
I bet she is having a good old natter up there as i write this!!:wink:

Stay strong and if you ever need to chat or anything there is ALWAYS someone on Tibb to talk to!!

P.S that pic of your nan is classic it's amazing how much her character comes out of one photo!

Take care hun!! xxxxx :kiss:

[Christina]

Aww thanks Serensilver :hug: x