..I knew there was a reason why I loved you so much and why you really are Babs...your words mean so much and I thank you so much for them...and one of the things for the future that I still am so looking forward to is reading your words in your book...your book, Dezzy...you did that and that’s why it will be the best book in the world ever...because you did that.........

...I’ll stop pestering your wall, I have a little PM to send then I’m off to find some shade to stop the melting process atm......

...catch you later alligator...stay beautiful, stay you.....you’re Dezzerae, you’re everything and everything is possible...

...ughhh I can’t get the link for some reason...Dezzy you’ve allowed the internet to break, how did that happen...so anyway...Andra Day - Stand Up for Something...go play it, go listen to the lyrics...and hopefully you’ll see why it’s becoming ‘my song’ and atm more so than Joni and Both Sides Now...

...I’m going to give you a song, let me just go find the link...it’s not a beautiful song as such and it’s not even your vibe I don’t think...but it’s the song I’m going to give you just because....bizarrely it’s something that has inspired me so much the last few weeks to try to find myself again after spending so long having to focus on myself and illness...it’s that disengagement I’ve felt in everything because my total focus has been getting through surgeries and treatments etc...and just not knowing if there will always be a tomorrow...but then there is a tomorrow, it arrives and it’s hard to refocus back again on all of those little things in life that have become so unimportant in the grand scheme...if that makes sense...but let me go find this song that has inspired me...

...true story...

...well all I can say is...would I rather be Babs or would I rather be Audrey....?...and no matter which way that flips, Babs is much more fabulous...and more importantly she’s much more fierce...no one would dare put Babs in the corner because the death would be slow and painful if they tried....(...and fabulous to watch..)......

...and that’s a great thing.....an amazing and stunning thing...

...I don’t think I’ve ever known anyone more like Babs than you...

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