...and you wouldn't have done it a year ago/probably..?..but it was the start of the journey for it to happen..it sometimes takes a longer time to reach these things and be ready for them...you know James, if you had gone sooner, I don't think that you would have been happy and that would have been the worst thing...because that would have been an association in following another dream...a fear of it, you know...hawwww, it's not been great for you and the grimmest at times but these things are all sadly things that we have to experience as well....we'd be fairly much all in a loopy farm if we didn't have these balances in life but it's knowing that there will be great ones as well....and thse are the ones that make it all make sense...

..I need to write you a song though and atm, I'm Shaun's Christmasvion slave...and you know how cruel and relentless he is...

..and I don't care about you still having internet and being on here..(well I do obviously because you're a beautiful llama..)...but I'll know that if you're not here, then it's because you're enjoying every moment and that's the thing that would bring the most happiness, so being without you here, is just selfish stuff really...

...how are you feeling/how long will you be away..?...I just know that you're going to love it there, it's something that I feel, that this is your world opening and this is what has been waiting for you....

he's so underrated and insane <3333

do you stan ahmed

why are you writing on your own wall love

..or just hush up, I could as well...

....and check with visa control that all's cool and ok..?..

..ok, well I might have just over thought it a bit when I read a thread that you would be in Australia for Christmas and Christmas is all around us atm, but you know me....when are you of though...and how organised are you for the trip on a 1 to 10 scale..?../do you need me to do a check list of essentials for you....