..but he didn't, he wanted..(or it felt..)..to make sure that he got the most out of his 'selflessness' when he went into the DR and the tears flowed again...I mean fine, he's a gameplayer, I don't mind that but it's a bit one dimensional gameplay atm with the woe is me and that seems a little disappointing from 'Mr Showbizz', you know...surely there is more exciting and showbiz gameplay than this...

....hmmm, Simon is a bit of a funny one actually...for me he's kind of disappointing again because he keeps referring to insecurities and obviously with 'Mr Showbizz', I felt that was masking so much but he never really expands on those insecurities either, just constantly with the tears etc and actually I'm starting to feel that he isn't actually or may not be that insecure at all but totally self absorbed and wanting to make everything about him...he gave the gift to Chloe, which whether a gameplay thing or not, I think that he should have just left it there ...

...I go a little up and down with Joel and am never sure if I like him or not but I have to say that I do spend more time liking him..I don't think that he's the most 'dynamic' of characters so in some ways may seem like a 'boring winner' if he were to win I guess but I tink that he's the one in there for me who probably least 'goes with the crowd'...what I likes last night is how he stood up to Marc when they were in the garden and Marc shouted but at the same time, not making it a big drama either..he just seems so balanced and I am liking him more and more...

..anyways, I must try to stay awake and catch up with it .....you have a good day, ok......

...what's interesting with those two as well I think is that although he seems quite disrespectful to females in many ways, he did say that in relationships he's always faithful/monogamous...so is it her being polyamorous that he really finds it hard to cope with and understand, is that the reason he seems to dislike her so much..?..

..I just don't find myself atm interested in Sam that much..and Harry, although I like her is just going for the 'obvious' thing, kind of a no effort thing and the nudity etc...Simon really is showing that he's not that great at 'gameplaying' because e hasn't been subtle enough...so I guess it's down to Marc to try to make it more interesting and I'm not sure that will happen for me either...he does make me laugh sometimes even when I don't want to but I do also think that maybe he's just come in with a 'bang' but that it will fizzle out quickly....there hasn't been much of him and Jade in the last few shows...(that I've seen anyway/the bits I've seen..)...and I think that's what I would like to see more because they spark off each other so electrically....

....I think also though Glam that maybe I just can't get into it so much is because of the 4 in and 4 out thing because it feels like I was just starting to get into a TV series..(fictional..)..and starting to 'bond' with some characters and then they were just 'killed' off straight away when they were so interesting and had so much potential and now it's trying to maintain that interest and get into the new ones which is hard...maybe if they ad all gone in a week later or a few days later it would have been easier, I don't know...

..so I started to like him a bit and found him interesting...this thing with nominating Eileen though.....hmmmm, obviously that's no good because I like her so how dare he.....he's now Satan.....but seriously though...is he just being very wise in that yeah, he probably likes her but really that's no reason for 'loyalty' in that loyalty/friendship etc doesn't apply to someone you have just met ..?...but then he used the age ting which not only makes him look like a hypocrite in that he had said that her age offered much experience to the house but also he's of a similar age himself so is really just invalidating his own place in the house as well..?..or maybe he just wants to be the only 'older' in the village..?.....

..when Simon first went in I thought that he would be the most irritating person ever although I have to say that I did feel sorry for him in that how awful and cruel to have arranged all of your plans and life etc to spend some time in the house, no matter how long that was and then to have to leave on launch night so I think that I always felt ..(or hoped..)..that BB couldn't be that cruel and some 'time-bomb' was always going to give him another chance in there...and then when e did go back in, he seemed to be much less Mr Showbizz and starting to show a bit of who he really is which he might find quite hard, to show insecurities...

..oh good luck with your exams, Glam....hmmm, I'm really struggling with it all a bit atm tbh...also because of the timing and missing so much, that's making it harder but I'm also finding it quite hard to find a favourite, I mean a real favourite..there are some that I like but I think it always lacks something for me anyway when there isn't someone that you can really get behind and understand etc....