..that's your she who must be obeyed ban hammer voice, so ok...actually after a conversation with Shaun, who is my guru and compass, I couldn't remember why I opted out..I just knew that I wanted to let Zee know before the list went up and I messed it all up again...Shaun just has this way of putting it all right for me and getting my balance back..or shouting at me, I'm not sure which it is...I'll stop over-thinking everything and just DO IT...hmm, I sort of promise, I might do lol....but seriously, if you are not higher next time then I'm flouncing...in fact my next Eurovision entry will be devoted to it...R Kelly, Ignition...flounce, flounce, flounce....

..Dezzy days are here again, let's get happy......

..I'm so pleased that you were in the top 20, Dezzy.....you deserve so that and much more..if you are not in the top 10 next time, I'm going to throw a diva tantrum, which will put the whole forum into shade....but seriously, congratulations..it's lovely to see that other people see what I do...what an amazing and lovely person you are...

..no, I always say the true things, Dezzy...I love Beautiful South, I still often listen to them, it's just that kind of chilled, easy music..they're success was kind of short-lived but I'm not really sure why...I don't think it was anything to do with their music or popularity...just maybe that they wanted to move in different directions..maybe they did stuff as individuals after that, but I didn't really follow them...so many musical artists, so little time lol...

..this was probably my favourite of theirs...

ok i will dl once and watch it tomorrow and if i am still craving when it ends im booking myself into rehab

i just don't seem to have the attention span to be able to watch tv anymore i think sucking too much dick has numbed my brain or s/t

-downloads everything-

..oh, it's a bit big, lol...

..oh and..this is actually a drawing.....perfect.....

...perfect 10, perfect 9..perfect 8...7.....

..the number will change because it's not the number that's perfect, Dezzy..it's the person..and that doesn't change, no matter what number is there...it's 'your year' every year because you were born to be you and you were born to be perfect..and you don't need anything, anyone to tell you that..cos t'was written in the stars the day they took you into their heart and shone their light on you...and you are because you are..a perfect 10.......