..I just realised that I never replied about your current writing and just not feeling the first draft atm..?..I’m so sorry, I must have got distracted and completely forgot...but yeah, maybe it’s just not time yet, Dezzy...the emotional drain of Black, you know..?...that type of thing needs redirecting and it’s not something that would necessarily happen without more space and time..?...it just can’t be forced ..it has to lead you really into the right time..?...

..isn’t it strange when you think about it, about Barbra and Judy’s obvious deep connection and friendship so long ago ..and that Barbra then went on to replace Judy in the lead of Star is Born as well all of those years later...life is strange, Dezzerae...if any of your day is strange I hope it’s in a lovely strange way.....

..anyways I think as it’s Friday then this is the vibe for many Mon-Fri people looking forward to their weekend...and obviously also obviously us....

https://youtu.be/zFVxX3RtyhQ

..that’s a beautiful song which I haven’t heard before...thank you.....I’m not really sure if this is something that will get me banned or infracted but at the very least I’ll fear for my life with Shaun and maybe you as well...but I haven’t really got into Grimes much yet...apart from chart stuff and I’ve loved everything I’ve heard so far...but I haven’t really delved any deeper yet...I guess just generally easily distracted etc, I don’t know...would there ever be any excuse or reason..?...Shaun will hate me forever I know.....

..oh wow, you’re almost finished the first draft...I’m so looking forward tomt(e final draft and the publishing and the reading of it because I know it’s going to be so much to look forward to and a joy when that’s all reached eventually.....yeah Eva’s voice and that song have been ticking through my head quite a bit since I heard it in town that time...and that’s the thing as well though, Dezzy...like when you hear a voice and song for the first time and the beauty of that first time discovery...it’s the same with songs you haven’t connected with for a long time and that reunion and connection again, you know..?.....even through a fairly average street artist..because it’s the associations and connections and not how the song is performed you know..not making much sense, I know...a little bit of a fuzzy day...

...oh I meant to say also...I saw what twosugars asked about Black..?...I will send him a little PM later just to say ...yeah it is heart wrenching with some of the chapters but how I felt it helped me as well atm in engaging so much with the characters and helping me to connect...well everything I said really..(..in a short version though, not a rambling one..)...not that I would ever be rambling, no...

....

..it feels like a subdues Thursday today...that’s the vibe I’m feeling...so I think we’ll have this as we mentioned it quite recently..?...so somehow I was drawn to it and have been listening to it while I sleepily browse...

https://youtu.be/9UVjjcOUJLE

I've wanted to read it since it first came out. Just can't take too much mental anguish atm.
But you're right, as the author you can't judge that, you're too immersed in that world.
Great suggestion tho, will ask Niamh and Cherie.

is the book very upsetting, be honest