Pale light streams in through the streaky windows, illuminating the room. I’m still laying on the floor, and on the couch Aly is still asleep, breathing softly.
My mind takes a few moments to pull itself from the haze of sleep, but when it does I remember my decision.
I rise slowly and carefully. I’m glad woke up when I did - it’s only a little after dawn, so we should have enough time to escape. If my plan works that is.
I move into the bedroom that Aly and I share. There isn’t much inside: just two mattresses on the floor with tattered bedding and an old wardrobe placed in between them. On the right wall is the door to a small closet, on the left are a few more dirty windows. I have to be fast. The sun is almost all the way up.
I open the closet and the familiar smell of mildew greets me. I sweep aside the various pieces of clothing inside and grab a duffel bag from the back. I’ve always kept it for carrying larger amounts of food back from trading. Never did I think I would use to escape an entire army.
Scooping up an armful of t-shirts, I dump them into the bag. I do the same with trousers, underwear, and pretty much anything else we’ll need. I swing the bag onto my shoulder and I creep back into the kitchen and place it carefully on the counter. In the kitchen, I’ve been smart enough to build up a stash of long lasting food in the cupboard under the (broken) sink. A couple of years ago I discovered a loose floorboard underneath, and now it’s mainly filled with canned goods, dried fruits and meat which is the sort of stuff that expensive and rare. My whole reasoning for it all was to keep it as a sort of insurance should Aly and I not be able to trade for food. I remove the plank of wood and take all that I can fit inside the bag. Whether it will last us long enough to escape I do not know, but at least it’s something.
When I dump the bag onto the counter, only then does it strike me that no matter how many supplies I bring with me, we won’t be getting far at all with those ‘tracking beacons’ in our hands. I stare at my palms, looking at them closely, feeling each one carefully. I press my fingers down gently in the palm of my left hand and meet the unfamiliar resistance of a tiny square of hard material. This must be it.
Grimacing, I open a drawer and pull out a long knife. The blade is long, and glints menacingly in the weak dawn light. I bring the tip to rest just beneath the tracker, and take a deep breath. Never have I had a high threshold for pain or gore, and the ghastly visions I’m having of blood spattered walls and a knife wedged into my hand aren’t exactly helping me.
But I have to do this. I have to. It’s the only way I’m going to survive. With that firmly lodged in my mind, I shut my eyes tight and roughly shove the blade in.
Instantly I feel a pain so blinding I almost let go of the knife, but somehow I keep the presence of mind. Gingerly, I open my eyes to survey the damage, and what greets me is a horror show of red, beige, and grey. My first instinct is to drop the knife and throw up, but I force myself to wedge the chip from my hand. Though it takes a few moments, eventually I manage to work it free, it and the knife then hitting the floor with a loud clatter somewhere near my feet.
I’m hunched over now, and it’s taking all the will I have not to scream from the pain. My right hand is clamped over the left but it isn’t stopping the blood. I can’t see much near me that can be used for a makeshift bandage either.
Then the bag on the counter catches my eye. I rest my arm up against my chest to slow the bleeding, and wrench opend duffel bag. I grab the first thing I see - a T-Shirt - and wad it up around my left hand, and place it above my shoulder. Hopefully that will help the bleeding too.
“ADAM WHAT THE HELL?!” Aly is standing over me, hands on her head and incredulity written across her features.
I’d really hoped she wouldn’t see me like this. “I-I can explain really I-”
“Then why is your arm covered in blood?!’ Her eyes dart to the knife, still slick and dripping. “Why is that knife there?!”
“I-I-Look, I’ll tell you In a sec, just help me bandage up my hand first okay?”
Exasperation plays across her features, “Fine.”
Aly grabs another T-Shirt from the bag (so the other one can soak up the blood), and tears off a long strip. I’d made a point of teaching Aly how to bandage a wound before. She’d always get cuts of scrapes somehow and I wanted her to know how to take care of that on her own if ever she needed to. This situation isn’t exactly the one that I pictured however.
We then worked the garment free from my hand, and the waves of agony I expected never came. In fact, there was nearly no pain at all. “I doesn’t even hurt that much now.” I say.
She looks at my hand more closely, “There’s still a lot of blood on here.. maybe if we was that off we can see how to fix this…” Confusion clouds her tone.
As Aly dabs the remains of the torn T-Shirt across my hand, I think of how we had no wounds after we got back from the market, even though both of us were bleeding before we got back. “..it’s almost as if this blood has come from nowhere..” Sarah herself had said that. There were no marks, no scars, nothing. What if the same was happening now? A deep sense of unease swirled within me.
“Adam.. there’s nothing here. No wounds or anything. Is this some sort of joke?” , and sure enough, my hand is spotless. I trace the spot where I had wedged the knife minutes before, and the unease swirls faster within me.
“No no at all.. I-I was trying to get that tracker thing out of my hand, so I cut open my palm, and I, I don’t know..”, my eyes are still fixed on my palm. I don’t like this at all.
“Well at least you got the tracker out,”, she holds out her palm, and nestled within is a tiny green and grey square, “now would you mind explaining why you went and did all this?” I catch the faint note of terror in her voice.
Through the windows I notice the sun creeping higher and higher.. Sighing, I fix my gaze back on my sister, “I’ve had a change of heart since last night. I want to get out of here, escape.”
“So that’s why you decided to wedge a knife into your hand?”
I roll my eyes, “How else was I supposed to cut out the tracker?”
“Touché. I’m guessing that’s why there’s a bag of supplies too?”
“You guess right. Now if we’re going to escape we have to get your tracker out.” My eyes flicker toward the knife.
“No. No way. You’re not jamming a knife into my palm-”
“Do you see any other options here?” For several moments I can practically see the cogs in her head whirring together to concoct another plan, but she comes up short just as I expected, and gives me her palm.
“Just.. Just do it quickly, alright?” I nod. Trying to make this a little less messy than my own handiwork, I make sure to keep Aly’s arm raised at first to slow the blood flow a little. After a little while I have us sit opposite each other on the floor, her palm in front of my knees and the knife poised above it.
“Okay, on the count of three: 1… 2 … 3” Aly lets out a shriek as I bring down the knife. I try to be fast, so I make a small cut and gently flick the tracker out.The torn strip of t-shirt is still on the counter so I grab it and make a quick bandage across the wound. Aly whimpers quietly so I give her a hug, “It’s done now. You took it much better than your jackass brother.” She lets out a strained laugh and I pick up the tracker from the floor and place it with the other on the kitchen counter. They look peculiar, two small green squares criss-crossed with hundreds of tiny gold and silver lines. They look like old computer parts that people scavenge ruined buildings for, and they’re often extremely valuable.
I pick one up and turn it over in my hand, it’s stained with blood but otherwise it’s pristine, “These could be our ticket out of here, Aly” I murmur. If I trade these with the right person, we might just get out alive, and hopefully trick the occupiers into thinking we haven’t left in the mean time.
“Well we should cover them in something. Keep them safe y’know?” I nod. I tear another strip of fabric (first cleansing them of the blood) and we tie them up in a neat bundle before placing them in the bag. “So.. What now?” Aly’s head is tilted to the side, a quizzical look plays across her face.
I look back at the duffel bag and wonder if there’s anything else that we could possibly need: clothes, food.. Water and shelter are the only things we don’t have but if we escape the city then that shouldn’t be a problem. I turn back to her, “We have everything we could need for now.. the next thing to do is to find a way to escape.”
She shuts her eyes gives a quick nod. We move around the apartment and grab some last minute things. Aly pulls her shoes on, I raid the cupboards for any food we have left, even if it is perishable. Once we both finish I shoulder the duffel bag and grab the keys and we leave. Oddly I fail to feel any sentimentality toward our little flat at all. I lock the door and as we exit down that filthy hallway, and descend those long concrete steps, my mind is focused only on escaping. Everything other than that is a blur.
The heavy doors at the end of the staircase greet us once more, and we push through. On the other side, the entrance hall is quieter. Curiously, these people from Arescet have still allowed us to have control over this area. Beyond the dull glass fronted entrance I can see that they’re still ‘registering’ people outside. If we’re quick, we might be able to slip out before they invade the space even further.
I look around and decide that maybe seeing Sarah is the best option. Being on the ground floor this whole time might’ve given her the chance to see where other escapees might have gone. I jog other, Aly in tow behind me.
Her door is shut, so I bring up my fist and knock sharply three times. No answer. I knock again, “Sarah. Sarah it’s me, Adam, just open the damn door for a second I nee-”
The door swings open, “Shutup! Just get in here okay and be quiet Adam, for **** sake…” She disappears back into the room and I frown. Sarah never did like being bothered.
Aly and I follow her in and shut the door behind us. For several seconds there is an uneasy silence. I open my mouth but Sarah cuts in first, “I know what you want. You want to get out of here, escape.” she lights a cigarette and takes a long drag before speaking again, “and yes I can help you, but no it’s not very safe, and yes you might get caught. It’s your call.” She looks at us expectantly.
Aly’s eyes narrow, “But.. But how did you know I don’t ge-”
“Oh please, Alyssa” another drag from the cigarette “look at what your brother has slung over his shoulder. That massive bag just screams ‘I wanna escape’ now doesn’t it?
“I.. I guess..” says Aly.
“Well we’re definitely leaving so yeah, we’ll do whatever you say,” I reach into the bag and grab the small bundle, “I just need you to take these, Sarah. They use them to track where we are.. Just hide them somewhere in the building. Move them every so often. Fool them into thinking we’re here.” She eyes the small white bundle suspiciously, but sighs and grabs it anyway, giving me a nod of assent.
“Okay” says Sarah “this is how we do this, further back in here is an old sewer tunnel. You two climb out and follow the tunnel until it veers left. You’ll have to walk down there until it stops. Then you’ll climb up a ladder and that’s it. You’re free. Any questions?” We remain silent. “Okay. Then lets go.”
Before we go, Sarah has me push a battered old bookcase filled with medical items in front of the door to stop intruders. Then she walks to the back of room and opens what I previously thought was a closet door. In actual fact, it opens out along the side of the building. Luckily, the wall surrounding the block is so close here that no-one should see us.
Sarah leads us a little way down the side and then stops around circular piece of metal lodged in the ground. I’ve been told that before the bombs fell, these pipes are where sewage and waste was transported. I feel slightly sick.
We pry the metal cover off and place it to one side. Below there is nothing but a dark tunnel, and a very rusty ladder. Sarah hands me a torch. “It’s dark down there so you’ll be needing that. There should be enough juice in there to last you the walk.”
I sweep her up in a big hug, “Thank you. Thank you so much” I let go and Aly pretty much copies me. I hitch the bag higher on my shoulder and begin to descend the ladder but Sarah stops me.
“Wait just one more thing: stay there until sunset. If they can’t see you, you’ll have a better chance of getting out.” I nod and carry on climbing down.
I continue climbing down and Aly joins once there is enough space. The metal lid clangs shut over us and all there is now is the clank of our shoes against the rusty ladder. For now, we are safe.