Yay!
I've noticed your writing has improved too! Keep it up man!
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it seems we do!

Aw thanks conzors this is better than therapy haha!

Put my phobias up..

thank you
had help with that from classes and the amazing members on here

haha - it's just a good way of understanding each other - or maybe just getting to know - like now me and jarrod are now similar and we have things to discuss!

BRINGING THE FORUM TOGETHER!

So good Marcus!
Keep it up you actually are doing really well.
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thanks

Eh i've wrote about my eating disorder problems and things like that on here before, cba to do it again :laugh:
Interesting reads of everyone though! it's amazing how people can be so honest on here

Eh i may post a long post tomorrow when i can be bothered i dont even know :laugh:

:joker::joker::joker:

I'll do mine - I'm pie eyed and listening to Pink Floyd so this should be good.


I'm Patrick, hi. Most of you know me (older members, not like age.. but duration wise) anyway - but for those of you who don't, I'm nearly seventeen years old and have just left school - starting college in September to do a two year course on Film and TV Production as I've always had an interest in that area.

Over the course of my short life so far - so much has happened, things that wouldn't normally happen to a typical teenager.

When my Mum and Dad split up back in 2002, I had to move away and became isolated from friends. The only company I had was my little brother, having alot of free time lead me to developing an interest in Big Brother, an interest that only developed further as the years went on, until eventually I joined this forum and for two years it became my primary source for socializing.

When the end of 2010 came - I changed as a person, dramatically in quite a short space of time, unintentionally aswell.
I've became more outgoing, more sure of myself and who I am, and have learnt alot.

I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder, Sensory Processing Disorder and Aspergers - all within 8 months, after dealing with sever depression and prolonged insomnia the previous year.

I got picked on quite alot in school for being different, it wasn't until the final two years that people started respecting me for who I was and felt able to include me - the last few months of 2012, I was attacked numerous times in town - this ultimately has driven me to complete and utter paranoia, but I'm overcoming it now and hopefully, getting back to myself and hope to have a good summer.


Hope that wasn't too long or dull haha x

Here goes omg, i bet no-one will read this but :laugh:

Hello I’m Jenna, and I’m from the UK.. I’m sweet Seventeen.. fun fun fun. I really have no idea what I want to do in the future, I get really good grades, but I just have no idea what I should be, and so im kinda stuck at a crossroad which sucks, as I’ll have to make my mind up soon enough

I’m a bit of a selfish bitch, I put up a front, and don’t let anyone in to be honest, most of my best friends don’t know the slightest of information about me, like some of my best friends didn’t even know where I lived until like a few months ago, and they’ve known me all my life. I come across cold at times, and I’d rather just not let people get close to me, I prefer to be alone, and that sucks but it is what it is, and I feel guilty for my friends. I've recently started socializing more, but it's been very very difficult


I got diagnosed with EDNOS (Eating disorder not otherwise specified) when I was 13, I’ve always hated how I look and I ABSOLUTELY cannot stand writing things like this on the internet, or even talking about it in real life, because it just comes across complete attention seeking and that annoys me, so I just never bother to talk about it, I’d rather people not know, so this post is hard. At my worst I was simply having a bottle of volvic flavoured water, and a Rivita, I genuinely just thought I was so fat and ugly. I currently weigh 7 stone 3lbs and I’m really not happy at all, but I’m forcing myself to get through it. I’ll never be happy with how I look tbh, and I’ll always want to be thinner or have a smaller nose etc, but I’m just trying to learn to live with it, and focusing on my studies, prevents me from getting too sad about it. I've never self harmed or anything though ,because the thought of harming my body would just make me hate it even more idk! :s

I love Dancing, I find it such a passion participating in tournaments and everything, and it takes my mind off a lot of things!
I identified my self as Asexual a few months ago, but I know that isn’t true, it’s very complicated, I can’t see myself ever going out with someone, the thought of ever letting someone into my life, and allowing them to know everything about me utterly terrifies me, and so I just don’t see the point. I can put up a front online, and everything but in real life the thought of someone even touching me or kissing me makes me want to be sick, and that’s scary, like the thought of it makes me shiver nad that’s not right for someone my age :s

So yeah I really have no idea what I’ll do in the future, and I hate the thought that this post will just be deemed as attention seeking but whatever -_-

Wow what amazing honest responses, kudos to both of you for being so open.

withadefinitely

but I'm far too ironic

Wow, really good reading these :love:


My name is Claudia and I live with my mom and sometimes her boyfriend stays here. I have an older sister and it’s strange how a few years ago I had good relationships with friends and a not so good one with my family, and now that’s the complete reverse. I still meet a friend for a walk or a chat but I’d consider my sister as probably being my best friend now.

I don’t drink or smoke, I like being healthy.

I’ve lived over half my life without my father, he died of cancer. I have memories of him and I think my life would have been very different had he lived. I feel I was too young for his death to register with me properly, I don’t recall crying that much, however when our family dog (well he became my dog in his final years) died I was totally heartbroken.

Continuing the sad theme, part of my life I’ve suffering from depression, that was a really tough time. I attempted suicide and fully expected to die, I used to cut myself, and I had weird reactions to drugs. I was in a pretty dark place.

I don’t think there was any turning point in my life, I was on meds for a short time and just things slowly started to change, my outlook on life brightened. My diet now includes foods that are meant to lift my mood, and I exercise regularly.

I’m passionate about writing and I love doing research.

I took a year out from education with my mom’s permission, kinda a gap year, mainly to write but secretly I think I wanted to start to feel happy inside again. And of course I found here. The year turned into two and so on, anyway now I hope to be starting a job later in the year, it’ll be my first one.

Not sure what else to put, I've a lot of flaws, I’m still mildly crazy but other than that I don’t think I’m that interesting.

Im not bob.

to all that have wrote on here, I have the upmost respect for you all!.
its very brave to show people the real you.
it also shows how strong you are and that you are dealing with issues that can make life a living hell.

mine quite boring to the rest of u on here. my name is carole and im 46 ive been living with my partner peter since I was 23 im engaged but have no intention of getting married. we have 7 dogs (whippets) 4 live in the garden in kennels and 3 oldies in the house. the 4 that live outside go racing @ weekend. whippet racing is different to greyhound racing, theres no betting and they run on a field, still out of traps behind a lure with muzzles on but its more family orientated. im even secretary of the local whippet club even though I don't want to be lol I write a column for a whippet magazine monthly about the dogs from my region. I love writing and would love to do more of it but I just don't get round to it. I have chrones disease which im on medication for so @ the moment it doesn't really affect my life but if I ever get a flare up its really really bad but codeine helps a lot I take one every day which the drs know about. I also have carpol tunnel which affects your fingers/thumbs they sometimes swell up but its been ok lately as well as that I have sciatica in my back which exercize helps a lot and u have excema on my hands. for work I currently work part time for an agency cleaning houses,something that I know u could do myself if I ws motivated enough. Ive started to get into keeping fit and do 2 classes a weekl one is kettlebells one is a bootcamp. I used to have a massive phobia of moths but lately ive had loads in the house thankfully just small ones so now I can kill them @ one point I couldn't be in the same room as them. I have very weird dreams which ive actually grown to love and look forward to, yes odd I know. the one I had last night my car got stolen but it wasn't the car I have. Im a complete tv addict and would rather stay in and watch the bb eviction on a fri night that go out. I also love the soaps especially home and away and I love the chase. that's about it about me quite boring tbh.

Far from boring mizzy, phew I feel exhausted reading your activities!
Gypsy, I hope you do become a published writer I think you have a special gift.

So many brave people on here. makes me feel selfish for not realising it.

I dont know where to start really. i guess i could start with the fact that I was born in Scotland...

I was born in scotland in a town on the coast. I lived there for a few months and then we moved to Pensacola, Florida. I wish I could remember living there because it was beautiful. But I was only 6 months old. We then moved to Italy where I stayed until I was 2.

When in Italy, outside the apartment we lived in there was a box on the side of the road. Inside it we found some kittens (I say this like i walked outside and found them myself... I didn't. Anyway) and we still have one of them to this day. He's very old now. I fear we are going to lose him soon. it terrifies me. I've had him in my life longer than my sisters. I think that's my biggest fear at the minute. Loosing our cat. I'm not ready and I know it will kill me when it does happen.

Anyway... I moved from Italy, back to America (Maryland) when I was 4. We stayed there for 7 years and I miss it so much. I think that was the happiest point of my life growing up over there. I don't know whether I want to go back or not.

We moved to England when I was 10/11 and have stayed in the same house since.

When my grandmother died in 2005, we had to go up to Scotland every weekend for pretty much a year to help my Grandad fix the house up. It was a fire and the living room, office, kitchen and laundry room were destroyed. My grandad tried to save my grandma, but he couldn't. He ran out to the main road for help, but 3 people drove past until 1 man finally stopped.

I don't think the was fixed until a year and a half later.

it's awful, but this event happening in my life has pretty much ****ed my life up. My mum ended up with depression and had a drinking disorder. Its pretty much the reason my grandma died (she drank too much and took sleeping pills and fell asleep whilst smoking). For the longest time, my mother was a horrible horrible woman. I could have honestly said I hated her. My parents split up and it was that bad that my sisters and I wanted to move away and live with my dad.

I think once my mum realised this, she knew she had done wrong. She stopped drinking (replaced it with smoking) and went to the doctors and they put her on medication immediately. She's like a different woman now. The woman i loved growing up. She's like my best friend.

Which is why I'm struggling so much at the minute.

I have no idea what i want to do in life. I hate my job right now. It's an awful place to work in. I know i'm going to leave soon, but I don't know what I want to do career wise. It's really messing with me. I'm stuck and I don't know what to do.

God this sounds all like doom and gloom, but i am pretty happy i guess. I'm just going through a tough time.

I think I'll give this a go too. It's been really interesting to read everyone else's! :D

I'm Niall, and I'm 18. I live in a Elm Park, Havering which is a boring London suburb. I've been here all my life and it's a nice place really I guess.

When I was 5, my parents divorced and my Mum went to live in Italy for 6 years. I kind of hated going over there to see her, not only because it meant being cut off from home and everything that was familiar but also because I hated her new boyfriend that she lived with. Though he never used to hit her, he was often verbally abusive to her, which is something that's stuck in my head to this day. I also used to speak Italian quite fluently when I was little, thanks to all the time I spent there. But because I never practised it when I came back home, I've sort of lost it all. It's a shame really.

Eventually she left him, and after a short return to Britain, my Mum lived in Ireland for another 6 years. That was... better, but having a parent a country away didn't make things easy really. Recently though, she's moved back to Britain for good, and I don't think it's quite sunk in yet. I have this odd feeling and I'm not sure how I feel over it all. I'm happy of course, but simultaneously it's so alien to me I'm not sure what I think about it.

Other than all that, I'm not terribly interesting. Eventually I want to be an author. I know that's a bit aspirational so I want to try and get into video game writing before that as an actual career, but one day I really hope that a book I've written does become a bestseller. It's a big dream of mine. :tongue: So to try and achieve all of that, i'm going to be (hopefully) studying English at University come September. It's always been one of my favourite subjects, and my grades for it at A-Level have been far better than anything else I've ever achieved in any other subject. Hopefully I'll get the grades to get into Uni! I also love to read, mainly because of the fact that in Italy there was no English entertainment when I was little. Immersing myself into any book is something I love to do. :love:

I also have really bad anxiety problems. I have anxiety attacks when I go out and I'm positive I suffer from a mixture of agoraphobia and social anxiety disorder. I'm supposed to be entering into therapy for it all shortly which should hopefully get rid of it all. It's just such an irritating thing though, I mean the anxiety keeps me from going out with my friends and stuff and It's just horrible.

I love to travel too, and thus far I've been quite lucky. My parents used to go to Florida quite often when I was small, so my brother and I have been at least 7 times each. Since then I've been to all sorts of different places, but my favourites will always be Florida and the trip to China I took with my Mum a few years ago. Some day I want to visit Japan (and learn Japanese too), South Korea, Hainan (in China), Hong Kong, Moscow, and take a massive road trip across the west coast of the US.

You're must be so strong to go through all that Caitlin. Whoa. :hug: And I never knew that you lived in Italy before? :shocked:

well

My name is Jonathan. I'm 17 and I live in Glasgow. I've lived in Glasgow for my whole life and it's not such a bad place. I live outside of the main city, in a small town. It's quiet, nice and just a nice place to live. However, it is boring. I've lived in the same house for 13 years, which isn't so bad (it's in a nice area), with my parents, my younger brother (aged 15) and my two younger sisters (aged 12 and 7), and, of course, my dog, Buddy, a Jack Russell Terrier.

I recently left school. For the last two years of school I suffered a great deal of abuse. I befriended a boy in my year and subsequently fell for him, which I wish I hadn't. I trusted him more than I should have, but I couldn't help it. I told him everything. I came out to him some time in August 2011. I confided in him and he told people behind my back, which I wasn't ready for, yet. I didn't really know this until recently. He cheated on his ex-girlfriend with his current girlfriend, and I told his ex-girlfriend, "A", a close friend of mine now, that this happened. I think this ruined everything, but I personally don't care because I feel it was right of me to do. It happened at a party 18 months and I recently found out that it happened many more times, which backed up my view of me being in the right. At the time, however, "C" didn't let on that I had did him wrong. We continued being friends, or so I thought.

During my penultimate year of school, I was left out. I went out with my friends fairly little because C's friend "L" had a hatred for me. To this day I'm still not completely sure why she hates me, was it because I exposed her friend's affair (which I actually didn't expose it exposed itself)? Or was it because I was gay? I was now out and it wasn't easy. The group consisted of about 20 people and I liked most of them. There were just three who tried to make my time hell. One of them was C, whom I thought was one of my best friends, I just didn't know it was all fake.

Everything changed (for the better?) about 8 months ago. Our group of 16 split and now features a group of 8 (which I am part of and happen to be the only boy) and another bigger group. We have literally been at war since. At a party, I received abuse via twitter from CLJ, L told me that she wishes that she could "slit my throat", J said that my career prospects were "busking on the streets" and C said that I was a "******" (tell me something I don't know) and then laughed about it.

Since the group's divide, I have been a much happier person. However, this doesn't stop the group of dickheads trying to put me down whenever they can. I've left school now and I've left all these people behind. I never have to see them again.

Other things that are worth knowing are the fact that I once got suspended for calling my Headteacher "Adolf Hitler" on Wikipedia, I want to be famous and I once met Cleo Rocos in Victoria Station.

There's so much more that there is to know, but I'll leave it at this right now.