Watching this now it's almost finished. I'm still so devastated by it. It's so sad

I mean realistically that wouldn't be possible - there are people just behind the mirrors watching them at all times. Though he might have been able to get one of 'em before he was stopped... I reckon he'd have gone for Richard.

I don't think Shahbaz would have laid a finger on anyone, it was more verbal and the worst he did was hiding food.

If anything Sezer seemed more aggressive ( I could not stand that arrogant little pr1ck) , he bullied Shahbaz and other housemates joined in. Hiding his clothes and locking him in the garden was childish & mean.

I just checked again ,I don't understand why it's still not available :conf: .

No..I don’t either.

Her diary room rants were epic!

I really don’t like the name of this documentary though.
She said “who is she” about someone as a derogatory statement
And then they call the documentary that as a like who is Nikki
Which is just weird.
And sure Nikki wouldn’t have wanted it to be called this.

I don't think the title is disrespectful, it's a play on her famous quote and quotes are what people are remembered for.



This was a truly sombre and harrowing documentary about Nikki's life beyond the surface. Hearing her voice a few days before she died saying how lucky she was to have escaped death sounding the same but knowing she looked far different from those last pictures was chilling. It seemed the help came critically too late for her.

Her psychologist getting a call that a clinic in South Africa were willing to take her in but a private clinic in her own country were too eager to get her out is disturbing. Hopefully lessons can be learned about urgency of care for people with eating disorders.

It was nice to see Carly, her best friend who I recognised from BBLB. Didn't know that's how they met, at an eating disorder clinic.

But Ch4 Consulted the Mother
and it is her most famous clip, she said
when that other mature Lady entered house.

It’s on there now Goldheart…

Oh ok
I might watch it tonight then :wavey:

Yes I’m going to watch it tonight…:wavey:

Just finished watching it , it was very sad indeed.

Yeah it looks like lockdown caused her illness to deteriorate , it's ashame that before that ....she didn't move back in with her mum or one of her friends who could have looked after her .But anorexia is a difficult psychological illness aswell as physical, and it took her over completely .

Seeing those latest images of her looking so thin and poorly was really terrible and shocking , especially the photos on the go fund me page. If only she got help in time R.I.P.

Just watched it, rubbish documentary,
Didnt go deep enough into her illness.
didnt even really capture a full picture of her life either
They could have shown her in Canada.
Just felt like they skirted over everything
50 minutes of my life and i learnt nothing new.

Very sad…and very tragic. She was one of a kind….

Routine is so important for people with mental health issues. Gyms should have been able to make allowances for people over lockdown.

It was a Great Documentary
you are WRONG.

It starts with her not eating as a child
and as she got older.

I did not know she was Force Fed as a Child.

And her Close mate
saying her in Big Brother
was her doing better
and eating better


Tantrum a Day
was Niki's style.



Her Close Friend Lady
loved the overnight Live Feed


Nice of her Mum
to say Big Brother Saved her Life.



Also Great to see an old TV Clip
her Win the Public Voted Award
at the NTA.


And the Conclusion
showed how 2020 Covid
made her withdraw
in the wrong way.

In 2001 a Clinic in South Africa was ready to take on Niki
but it was too late.

Great Post.