I was on it for 6 years but apparently my doctor should have changed it after 2 years because it was for my skin as well and you should only be on it for a limited time or it can cause bad side effects such as infertility and breast cancer. :sad:

Annie! Don't worry, Big Brother is only weeks away!

Yeah I'm being changed now to a POP, and it's been 2 years.

:hug: I know we're not the best of friends, but if you need to speak to someone random I'm here.

I'm so sad sad to hear that Annie, you deserve to have good things happening because UR MY GUUURL :lovedup:

Omg annie I had no idea.
I am so sorry! Is it matt thats done this?? x

Thanks a lot Lauren. Really does mean a lot to me. You have no idea.
I just want to forget about him. I just booked a last minute holiday to Salou so go away on Monday for a week. Hopefully when I come back my head will be feeling better and my heart will have healed.

Thanks Remy :lovedup:

Anytima anywhere. That kind of situations shouldn't be happening to cute girls like you I'm honest.
If you need to talk, you know where you can find me. :wink:

Annie :O!! I had no idea. Well none of us did but yeh. It makes my face shrivle up reading it. I hope things get much better, and I'm sure they will :) :thumbs:

Sadly yes.
He is soooo mean to me but its crazy cos I am still totally in love with him and cant stop. He has drink problems so a lot of the time i know its not really him saying or doing these things but at the end of the day, it is.

Thanks to everyone who is saying such lovely things. Its honestly soooo touching. :love:

I kinda know how you feel about the drink thing. My grandma died in a fire because she was drunk and took these sleeping pills so she didnt realise the house was on fire. My grandad has been an alcoholic for like 10 years. and now my mum is drinking loads and it turning in to a mean bitch lol x
I hope everything get better for you though!! x :flowers:

I had a feeling you were having those kind of problems. I dont now why, but its just the way your posts came out in the past few months. Obviously, its none of my business, so I didnt say anything about it.
But look, there is no one who is irreplacable. In fact if you think someone is, then they are definitely gonna take advantage of that.
Dont be in denial, and face whatever youre feeling head on. It will be much better.
Anyways good luck with everything, and hope you have a nice little holiday!

Thanks AMA and Nina :love:

No problem. Like lauren said, I know were not friends but if you want to talk I am here too. x

Annie :hug:

I agree with AMA - no-one is irreplaceable. A relationship is meant to be fun, not hurtful. None of us can tell you what to do, but from the way you're posting you probably know what you should do.

Have a nice holiday though, make the most of it!

Yeah I totally know what I should be doing. Its so easy when he is calling me every name under the sun and being really nasty etc.
But when he is sober and has been thinking about me etc, he texts like "Why are we doing this to each other?" and I know he feels bad for it. but then I just need to stay strong cos I know I shouldnt go back just cos he is feeling like he is regretting it.
I just want to stay away from it all, which is why I booked the holiday. I aint taking my phone with me so hopefully will be able to get away and not hear from him again.

Annie I'm so sorry to hear that,it's horrible. If you ever need to talk I'm here :hug:

So far 2009 has been very good, with a little bit of bad.

Good
I started refereing, and was told last week that I will be running the line at the cup final because I have been getting such good comments from managers.
Had a great school trip last week, had so much fun.
Realised that I was A LOT more popular than I thought
Got V Festival Tickets
Lost a lot of weight, got much faster and fitter.
Got another school trip coming up in September
Much better of money wise
Hopefully got a 5-day football course in August, with Premiership scouts there.

Bad
Didn't get Michael Jackson tickets.
Realised some people are total backstabbers, even though they didn't stab me in the back.
Hate German, so annoyed I didn't take PE

Annie hun. Oh my god! and i thought my Ever incrsing pile of coursework was bad. Oh my god. If you need to spek hun, just u2u. I may be young, but i know a lot abou life. Good luck hunny x

Bad.
It seems to be all my friends best year, but nothing but shitty things have happened to me, I swear Im cursed!

I'm sorry to hear about that Annie :( and anyone else who's having a bad year...

I think I have to go to hospital at some point this evening/tomorrow to say goodbye...which I really don't want to do but I suppose I should. :\

Good luck Shaun. :flowers: And I'll be thinking good thoughts for your mum and sister too - :hug:

Thanks Shaun. And good luck going.
I know this will sound a bit weird, but when he was alive and taking drugs. That wouldnt have really been him. Like coming down off them etc. That would have been a rather desperate young man and remember him as your brother from your childhood rather than your brother who took drugs and had to be turned off by life support.
My heart is honestly going out to you and your family tomorrow. xxx

Bloody hell Annie, Im so sorry, I didnt know. Is that Matt yeah??
It must be really hard for you. Hope your okay!! :flowers: :sad:
I feel like a complete dickhead for not knowing, Im moaning on about my troubles and worries when there nothing!