Sorry to hear about your loss.
R.I.P

Aw Christina this must be really really hard for you, and from complete experience I know what you're going through and there's honestly not much that can be said to make you feel better right now. But I know you're strong and wonderfull and that even with the massive amount of pain you must be going through you'll push through it and get on with life like you should.

One thing death of a close family member did to me (after quite a lot of crying) is you learn to grasp life every day and literally live every day like it could be your last, and I've always thought that's a really good thing to have because it makes you enjoy life a lot more, it's horrible that it has to come at such a dreaded and mean cost.

Love you loads and I'm deeply thinking of you

R.I.P

xx

Thanks for your lovley words Kate. Im sorry for your loss too. The thing is i knew it was coming, i woke up and felt dreadful it was as if i knew. I cried in the shower and when i come downstairs mum said i should hold nans hand. At first i couldnt but i did. I dont whether i should be happy that she died holding my hand or not. But mum said its what she would of wanted. I will try and stay strong for her, although i havent eaten yet lool. Thanks to everyone again xx

Thats really bad news :( I hope you pull through and get back to your normal self soon :hug:

Thanks Conor, hows your cat? x

Aww Christina :sad: x

I remember you talking about your nan and how much she meant to you. I was in tears when I heard last night, just thinking about how you must be feeling.

If you ever want to talk, Im always on msn or srop me a U2U x

Just remember all your TiBB friends are here for you xxx

Nicky x

Aww thanks Nicky :sad: :hug: Im sorry to hear that you was upset but its ok she was 93 years old, she had a good life and died where she wanted to die. Shes at peace now, im sure shes up there with her friends having a good old chin wag lol x

Lol - yea, at least she will be happy now :) Catching up on everything with her friends :) lol x

:hug:

Yep lol, she always talked about them :tongue:

Btw heres a lil pic of her, i thought she looked sweet:

http://i528.photobucket.com/albums/d...asPics2991.jpg

xx

aw christina that post explaining what happend and when etc brought tears to my eyes.My earlier post said it all really,my thoughts are with you and your family,we are all here for you on tibb,your nan passing away has really made me think about my gran alot.God bless you ,your fmaily and your nan
R.I.P:sad:

Aww Christina!

That picture is so sweet and funny x

Thanks so much Laura, i just wanted to get what happened yesterday off my chest, i can say it in real life so being able to say it on here has helped me x

good,i am glad to hear that:hug:

I just feel kinda down, and im having to sleep in with my mum because my nans room was next to mine :sad: x

Sorry to hear about your sad news. Think of the good time. Your Nan may be gone, but your memories remain.

The pain never goes, but it does get easier to cope with in time.

My thoughts go to you and your family.

All the best,

Andrew.

Thanks Andrew, yeah its gonna be hard at first i just hope it gets better, im back at school next week so hopefully it should get my mind of it.
Im getting about a million texts now lol, i think my friend has let everyone know x

93 was a good old age for someone, :) and that waiting for you to see her thing isn't silly at all, I understand and its happened to me before. At least the death was peaceful, and she wasn't in any uncomfortable pain.

im sure in time that you`ll feel better,it just takes time.It must be so difficult for you right now but you never know,the funeral might help and be able to give you some closure.Like Nicky said,your grans in a better place now ,probably with all her old mates lol:hug:

We're all here for you Christina :hug: x

Good to see you back Christina, I hope everyones coping with there sad loss within your familly, I wish I could offer more practical help, other than a few words on a forum, but I'm pleased that everyones posts have helped you start getting back to normal.

Your nan came across as a real lovely lady you only need look at the ammount of tributes here to see how respected your accounts of her meant to people.
She meant a lot to me, as I know she meant the world to you Christina, and I know she's at peace now, and its lovely to see you back.

Angela x

Aw. It's obvious you and your family loved her very much and she loved you back just as much. She seems like she has had a fantastic life and you have been such a good carer for her. She's gone to a better place now where can rest and wait for you untill you can meet again. :hug:
P.S. That pic is so sweet lol

I'm sorry to hear what you've been through Christina :sad: RIP to your nan - my thoughts are with you and your family at this time.
I hope you can be strong for them. :hug: xxx

Thanks Ang, ahh im crying again lol. I made a little joke of it today saying that nan brought the sun out in Brixton [it like the 1st sunny day of the week lol]. Its just going to be so different without her. There will be nobody to sit with anymore and nobody to come home to. I suppose im just scared that its going to be lonley down here. But i have to get on with it now. Thanks for everything everyone xx

Thanks tooperfect and Ash, im sure we'll meet again lol x

That actually made me cry a tiny bit and that normally takes some doing (!), it sounds like it means a lot but there is a striking resemblance there to what my nana was like and what happened on the day she died, I can empathise with you 110%. I hope you all get through it with the knowledge that shes no longer in pain and it sounds like she was. Sometimes its for the best when someone dies and I know you will understand what I mean by this (but I'm not sure many others will so its not meant in a bad way) but in this situation it is a good thing and shes finally at rest.

Thankyou Tom and i completlety understand what you mean Tom. She was tired, weak and i can assure you she would of hated being in a hospice as would we. Soz for making you cry lool x

lol its ok, it just reminded me of stuff thats all, but yeah its not nice seeing people like that.

I can't say I know how you felt when you knew it was coming, my dads death was so sudden and no one could have possibly guessed in a million years that it was going to happen... but when i was five one of his arteries burst and he was amazingly lucky to survive, and the doctors said it could happen again any day, and that if it did, he would die suddenly and without pain. So for that I'm thankfull (that he didn't feel any pain) but it was a really hard time as it happened at an airport and me and he just went to the toilet and didn't come back... The next year will be unbeleiveably tough for you Christina and I'm so sorry this has happened to you, and even though it does get easier, the pain never ever goes away and i really wish it did.

I understand that you don't know whether to be happy or sad that you were holding your grandma's hand, but I really wish I had been holding my dads, then at least he would have died thinking of me, knowing how much I amazingly loved him and how I always will. I wish my mum could have said bye to him too, I know this is probably harder for her than it is for me..

It sounds cheesy I know, but you do think about them so many times each day, and without a doubt you always start talking to them, wishing they were there, because everything would be so different if they were.

Love you loads Christina, just remember, life is worth living!xxx

Im so soz Kate :sad: i hope your okay too x

Christina always remember you can see her whenever you want all you have to do is close your eyes :wink: i no its hard now, but in time you'll see something that will remind you of your nan and you will have a little chuckle to yourself about it.
I bet she is having a good old natter up there as i write this!!:wink:

Stay strong and if you ever need to chat or anything there is ALWAYS someone on Tibb to talk to!!

P.S that pic of your nan is classic it's amazing how much her character comes out of one photo!

Take care hun!! xxxxx :kiss:

Aww thanks Serensilver :hug: x