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I'm so happy people are taking to this thread nicely! I know I think i know you all a little more now!

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Originally Posted by Patrick (Post 6095561)

I'll do mine - I'm pie eyed and listening to Pink Floyd so this should be good.

I'm Patrick, hi. Most of you know me (older members, not like age.. but duration wise) anyway - but for those of you who don't, I'm nearly seventeen years old and have just left school - starting college in September to do a two year course on Film and TV Production as I've always had an interest in that area.

Over the course of my short life so far - so much has happened, things that wouldn't normally happen to a typical teenager.

When my Mum and Dad split up back in 2002, I had to move away and became isolated from friends. The only company I had was my little brother, having alot of free time lead me to developing an interest in Big Brother, an interest that only developed further as the years went on, until eventually I joined this forum and for two years it became my primary source for socializing.

When the end of 2010 came - I changed as a person, dramatically in quite a short space of time, unintentionally aswell.
I've became more outgoing, more sure of myself and who I am, and have learnt alot.

I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder, Sensory Processing Disorder and Aspergers - all within 8 months, after dealing with sever depression and prolonged insomnia the previous year.

I got picked on quite alot in school for being different, it wasn't until the final two years that people started respecting me for who I was and felt able to include me - the last few months of 2012, I was attacked numerous times in town - this ultimately has driven me to complete and utter paranoia, but I'm overcoming it now and hopefully, getting back to myself and hope to have a good summer.

Hope that wasn't too long or dull haha x

Aw Paddy! - I feel for you we have some similarities!

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Originally Posted by Munchkins (Post 6095568)

Here goes omg, i bet no-one will read this but :laugh:

Hello I’m Jenna, and I’m from the UK.. I’m sweet Seventeen.. fun fun fun. I really have no idea what I want to do in the future, I get really good grades, but I just have no idea what I should be, and so im kinda stuck at a crossroad which sucks, as I’ll have to make my mind up soon enough

I’m a bit of a selfish bitch, I put up a front, and don’t let anyone in to be honest, most of my best friends don’t know the slightest of information about me, like some of my best friends didn’t even know where I lived until like a few months ago, and they’ve known me all my life. I come across cold at times, and I’d rather just not let people get close to me, I prefer to be alone, and that sucks but it is what it is, and I feel guilty for my friends. I've recently started socializing more, but it's been very very difficult

I got diagnosed with EDNOS (Eating disorder not otherwise specified) when I was 13, I’ve always hated how I look and I ABSOLUTELY cannot stand writing things like this on the internet, or even talking about it in real life, because it just comes across complete attention seeking and that annoys me, so I just never bother to talk about it, I’d rather people not know, so this post is hard. At my worst I was simply having a bottle of volvic flavoured water, and a Rivita, I genuinely just thought I was so fat and ugly. I currently weigh 7 stone 3lbs and I’m really not happy at all, but I’m forcing myself to get through it. I’ll never be happy with how I look tbh, and I’ll always want to be thinner or have a smaller nose etc, but I’m just trying to learn to live with it, and focusing on my studies, prevents me from getting too sad about it. I've never self harmed or anything though ,because the thought of harming my body would just make me hate it even more idk! :s

I love Dancing, I find it such a passion participating in tournaments and everything, and it takes my mind off a lot of things!
I identified my self as Asexual a few months ago, but I know that isn’t true, it’s very complicated, I can’t see myself ever going out with someone, the thought of ever letting someone into my life, and allowing them to know everything about me utterly terrifies me, and so I just don’t see the point. I can put up a front online, and everything but in real life the thought of someone even touching me or kissing me makes me want to be sick, and that’s scary, like the thought of it makes me shiver nad that’s not right for someone my age :s

So yeah I really have no idea what I’ll do in the future, and I hate the thought that this post will just be deemed as attention seeking but whatever -_-

Not attention seeking - this thread is about this stuff!

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Originally Posted by GypsyGoth (Post 6095609)

Wow, really good reading these :love:

My name is Claudia and I live with my mom and sometimes her boyfriend stays here. I have an older sister and it’s strange how a few years ago I had good relationships with friends and a not so good one with my family, and now that’s the complete reverse. I still meet a friend for a walk or a chat but I’d consider my sister as probably being my best friend now.

I don’t drink or smoke, I like being healthy.

I’ve lived over half my life without my father, he died of cancer. I have memories of him and I think my life would have been very different had he lived. I feel I was too young for his death to register with me properly, I don’t recall crying that much, however when our family dog (well he became my dog in his final years) died I was totally heartbroken.

Continuing the sad theme, part of my life I’ve suffering from depression, that was a really tough time. I attempted suicide and fully expected to die, I used to cut myself, and I had weird reactions to drugs. I was in a pretty dark place.

I don’t think there was any turning point in my life, I was on meds for a short time and just things slowly started to change, my outlook on life brightened. My diet now includes foods that are meant to lift my mood, and I exercise regularly.

I’m passionate about writing and I love doing research.

I took a year out from education with my mom’s permission, kinda a gap year, mainly to write but secretly I think I wanted to start to feel happy inside again. And of course I found here. The year turned into two and so on, anyway now I hope to be starting a job later in the year, it’ll be my first one.

Not sure what else to put, I've a lot of flaws, I’m still mildly crazy but other than that I don’t think I’m that interesting.

Omg i would so read your book! You like an inspiration.

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Originally Posted by mizzy25 (Post 6095823)

mine quite boring to the rest of u on here. my name is carole and im 46 ive been living with my partner peter since I was 23 im engaged but have no intention of getting married. we have 7 dogs (whippets) 4 live in the garden in kennels and 3 oldies in the house. the 4 that live outside go racing @ weekend. whippet racing is different to greyhound racing, theres no betting and they run on a field, still out of traps behind a lure with muzzles on but its more family orientated. im even secretary of the local whippet club even though I don't want to be lol I write a column for a whippet magazine monthly about the dogs from my region. I love writing and would love to do more of it but I just don't get round to it. I have chrones disease which im on medication for so @ the moment it doesn't really affect my life but if I ever get a flare up its really really bad but codeine helps a lot I take one every day which the drs know about. I also have carpol tunnel which affects your fingers/thumbs they sometimes swell up but its been ok lately as well as that I have sciatica in my back which exercize helps a lot and u have excema on my hands. for work I currently work part time for an agency cleaning houses,something that I know u could do myself if I ws motivated enough. Ive started to get into keeping fit and do 2 classes a weekl one is kettlebells one is a bootcamp. I used to have a massive phobia of moths but lately ive had loads in the house thankfully just small ones so now I can kill them @ one point I couldn't be in the same room as them. I have very weird dreams which ive actually grown to love and look forward to, yes odd I know. the one I had last night my car got stolen but it wasn't the car I have. Im a complete tv addict and would rather stay in and watch the bb eviction on a fri night that go out. I also love the soaps especially home and away and I love the chase. that's about it about me quite boring tbh.

Not boring - you seem really cool actually.

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Originally Posted by Ninastar (Post 6095871)

So many brave people on here. makes me feel selfish for not realising it.

I dont know where to start really. i guess i could start with the fact that I was born in Scotland...

I was born in scotland in a town on the coast. I lived there for a few months and then we moved to Pensacola, Florida. I wish I could remember living there because it was beautiful. But I was only 6 months old. We then moved to Italy where I stayed until I was 2.

When in Italy, outside the apartment we lived in there was a box on the side of the road. Inside it we found some kittens (I say this like i walked outside and found them myself... I didn't. Anyway) and we still have one of them to this day. He's very old now. I fear we are going to lose him soon. it terrifies me. I've had him in my life longer than my sisters. I think that's my biggest fear at the minute. Loosing our cat. I'm not ready and I know it will kill me when it does happen.

Anyway... I moved from Italy, back to America (Maryland) when I was 4. We stayed there for 7 years and I miss it so much. I think that was the happiest point of my life growing up over there. I don't know whether I want to go back or not.

We moved to England when I was 10/11 and have stayed in the same house since.

When my grandmother died in 2005, we had to go up to Scotland every weekend for pretty much a year to help my Grandad fix the house up. It was a fire and the living room, office, kitchen and laundry room were destroyed. My grandad tried to save my grandma, but he couldn't. He ran out to the main road for help, but 3 people drove past until 1 man finally stopped.

I don't think the was fixed until a year and a half later.

it's awful, but this event happening in my life has pretty much ****ed my life up. My mum ended up with depression and had a drinking disorder. Its pretty much the reason my grandma died (she drank too much and took sleeping pills and fell asleep whilst smoking). For the longest time, my mother was a horrible horrible woman. I could have honestly said I hated her. My parents split up and it was that bad that my sisters and I wanted to move away and live with my dad.

I think once my mum realised this, she knew she had done wrong. She stopped drinking (replaced it with smoking) and went to the doctors and they put her on medication immediately. She's like a different woman now. The woman i loved growing up. She's like my best friend.

Which is why I'm struggling so much at the minute.

I have no idea what i want to do in life. I hate my job right now. It's an awful place to work in. I know i'm going to leave soon, but I don't know what I want to do career wise. It's really messing with me. I'm stuck and I don't know what to do.

God this sounds all like doom and gloom, but i am pretty happy i guess. I'm just going through a tough time.

Yeah thats what i do - smile through the gloom, itll all work out eventually!

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Originally Posted by Niall (Post 6095873)

I think I'll give this a go too. It's been really interesting to read everyone else's! :D

I'm Niall, and I'm 18. I live in a Elm Park, Havering which is a boring London suburb. I've been here all my life and it's a nice place really I guess.

When I was 5, my parents divorced and my Mum went to live in Italy for 6 years. I kind of hated going over there to see her, not only because it meant being cut off from home and everything that was familiar but also because I hated her new boyfriend that she lived with. Though he never used to hit her, he was often verbally abusive to her, which is something that's stuck in my head to this day. I also used to speak Italian quite fluently when I was little, thanks to all the time I spent there. But because I never practised it when I came back home, I've sort of lost it all. It's a shame really.

Eventually she left him, and after a short return to Britain, my Mum lived in Ireland for another 6 years. That was... better, but having a parent a country away didn't make things easy really. Recently though, she's moved back to Britain for good, and I don't think it's quite sunk in yet. I have this odd feeling and I'm not sure how I feel over it all. I'm happy of course, but simultaneously it's so alien to me I'm not sure what I think about it.

Other than all that, I'm not terribly interesting. Eventually I want to be an author. I know that's a bit aspirational so I want to try and get into video game writing before that as an actual career, but one day I really hope that a book I've written does become a bestseller. It's a big dream of mine. :tongue: So to try and achieve all of that, i'm going to be (hopefully) studying English at University come September. It's always been one of my favourite subjects, and my grades for it at A-Level have been far better than anything else I've ever achieved in any other subject. Hopefully I'll get the grades to get into Uni! I also love to read, mainly because of the fact that in Italy there was no English entertainment when I was little. Immersing myself into any book is something I love to do. :love:

I also have really bad anxiety problems. I have anxiety attacks when I go out and I'm positive I suffer from a mixture of agoraphobia and social anxiety disorder. I'm supposed to be entering into therapy for it all shortly which should hopefully get rid of it all. It's just such an irritating thing though, I mean the anxiety keeps me from going out with my friends and stuff and It's just horrible.

I love to travel too, and thus far I've been quite lucky. My parents used to go to Florida quite often when I was small, so my brother and I have been at least 7 times each. Since then I've been to all sorts of different places, but my favourites will always be Florida and the trip to China I took with my Mum a few years ago. Some day I want to visit Japan (and learn Japanese too), South Korea, Hainan (in China), Hong Kong, Moscow, and take a massive road trip across the west coast of the US.

Omg, thats so cool you want to travel! I was thinking about that too!

I used to think i got bullied a lot in school, so i used to make a big deal out of it when really i know they were only having a laugh, but as a Vulnerable teenager who didn't really know who he was it seemed really bad a real.

I've only ever had one fight in my life, and I won. Yay.

Okay let's go:

I'm Kev, 23 from Teesside.

I've had a somewhat 'weird' upbringing, my mum & dad separated when I was about 6, they were always on and off for years to come, but now I've not seen him since December - doesn't bother me too much 'cos I'm a mummy's boy.

I've had a decent education with plenty of GCSEs & GNVQs nailed.
I had a good school life, I never stuck to one clique so I had plenty of mates,
However I had a rough patch in Year 8 when I got my phone stolen and was threatened with a knife, so I left school for 6 weeks. The boy who done it was, hmm, of an 'ethnic minority' and for months after I was very racist, I distanced myself from people who weren't white. I know this is wrong but I was a teenager and after what happened I didn't know any better, until I met this one person who changed my perception thankfully and now my stupid views are a thing of the past :hugesmile:

When I was 19 I went through a rough patch with no job etc, I used to spend hours on the internet and just locked myself away - Some days I wouldn't leave my room. This continued for another year until I met some new people, who were of the wrong crowd and I ended up drinking and taking coke most nights. This went on for a good few months until I decided enough was enough and I needed to get my life back on track!

Now at 23 things are looking up, although I left my job in March (was only temporary) I've got my confidence back, an amazing circle of friends and plenty of jobs applied for - just waiting for some unfortunate soul to take me on :devil:

Read ma full story in next weeks News of the World.

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Originally Posted by HD (Post 6096124)

amazing how someone can go through all that and still have a positive outlook <3

I'm Sam (no one really calls me Samuel unfortunately :(), 21 y/o from Haywards Heath, studying Creative Music Technology in Doncaster at degree level.

I have aspirations of being a successful hip hop artist, but more realistically I plan on teaching English in South Korea when I finish uni, and potentially travel Asia doing the same. Would like to work in the video game industry at some point, but the long hours and little pay is the big put off.

For most of my life up until uni, I was mostly a quiet loner with very little confidence. I was on anti-depressants as a 13/14 y/o, borderline suicidal during parts of my teens. I didn't have a hard life, albeit some bullying at school (nothing unordinary), I just wasn't happy. After dropping out of Sixth Form at 17, I spent the next year and a half basically sitting in my room, not knowing what on earth I wanted to do in life. Wasn't until I was 19 I realised music was for me, and I decided to do CMT on a fast track course at college.

A year later, after cramming a year's work into the final month of college, I was in Donny. Since then, I feel like a completely different person confidence-wise. The last year has easily been the best of my life and I'm happier than ever.

I've never met my dad, having left my mum before I was born claiming not to be the father. Part of me is glad, as I think growing up with just my mum has shaped me into a better person, and it drives me onto wanting to be successful even more. Still not sure if I want to get in contact with him, but I reckon I will at some point, even just to see what he looks like.

So yeah :spin2:

Im Louis cipher

I search the entire planet for free thinking mavericks who have original thoughts
Ive visited this website for a few years and Ive only ever read about 5 original thoughts
This whole country tries too hard to find an identity, most seem to want to define themselves by some disorder passed down by celebrities. In the end almost everyone is trying so hard to be different they all end up the same... Almost everyone gives in to peer pressure, must have these shoes, these clothes, must look like this, must sound like that, must listen to this music, all on the credit card building up unaffordable debt etc etc This drive for materialism and vanity, ego and pride superceedes everything else........Take away all the anger , the ego, the desperate need for attention seeking, the peer pressure and what is left of the individual? Its more like a poster than a person, more like

It reminds me of that sketch with harry enfield where some angry punk kid who is plastered in tatooes, he says this is my favourite one it reads INDIVIDUAL.....I got that because my mates have too

In this world we have 100001 tv channels , 1001 trash magazines, how many of them actually have interesting people? how many great movies are really made? how many great music videos are really made? how many great actors are alive now? you can count them on 2 hands. Where is todays Bruce li? Michaelangelo? Marlon Brando? Da Vinci?

it is only those brave enough to do things differently and not sell out to peer pressure and with no ego who are truly great.

The quest for originality goes on.

Jon, 22

When I was younger I used to be a goth, but then towards the last year of school I made friends with new people who are still my friends and eventually one became my girlfriend of 4 years. We broke because we both were busy at the time, but we remain good friends, she was my most serious relationship. She actually got me into big brother, I mean I used to watch it when i was younger but when starting to date her she was really into it and we ended up watching it together.

My weight has been wired, I used to be really fat when younger then lost it, then put it back on, but the last year I lost it again and feel the best that I have in a while.

Currently employed, I worked in a bar but quit because the boss was a bitch to me, then I worked in Tescos for a while but that ended, then I worked in a old folks home for a bit but they laid me off so looking for a job.

I feel depressed at the moment because all my friends have jobs and I am stuck in a flat all the time doing nothing, and I never have any money now to go out. So yeah, hoping things turn around soon.

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Originally Posted by Samuel. (Post 6096385)

Teaching in south korea is so cute! Youd get a hell of a load of life experience and learn so much teaching out there! Its good that maybe you want to get into contact with your dad, and its better to do so now when your happier in your life than when your not so happy!

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Originally Posted by the truth (Post 6096388)

This is a really thought out opinion - Im happy people think this way.

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Originally Posted by DrunkerThanMoses (Post 6096402)

Were similar with the weight thing!
Don't feel bad about not having a job! A number of people in Britain don't have jobs but very little are actually out looking - your a minority and you WILL find a job. www.reed.co.uk has given me loads and loads of job opportunities!
x

I'm Laura, 22, living in Ireland, having just finished my English and Linguistics degree with a 2:2. I'm moving to London in a couple of months and I'm very excited.

Ideally I'd love a job in publishing/journalism, I just want to be paid to read and write. Though really I just want to marry rich/win the lottery and have loads of children.

I really didn't like school, I was always the weird kid and then although I wasn't bullied in uni I was fed up of studying books and what not that I didn't like and getting rubbish grades because I didn't write like I was supposed to.

I've been on this website nearly 8 years and think I'm seen as I am pretty much, I used to be the one always obsessed with a BB couple and then Take That(still probably) and at the moment Caroline Flack and Olly Murs.

I can feel trapped here sometimes, stuck in a country I despise but I'm getting out soon and I'm so fricking excited and happy about it I can't even describe it.

Niall, I am new to this site so don't want to seem too familiar but reading your story wow I wish you all the very best of luck. I am so glad you are going into therapy, which I hope will benefit you greatly. I can identify with your anxiety issues and found therapy helped me a lot.x

Can I just say to all of you good luck and how brave to share the way you have xx

My name is Jessica, I am 20 years old. I live in the south west of Ireland and have lived in the same estate for my whole life. When I was just born my father was holding me and I basically died in his arms but luckily the doctors managed to resuscitate me, it was discovered I had fluid on the lung and was given three days to live, but miraculously I pulled through.

My father died on his birthday when I was three years old, for most of my life my mother was dishonest with me about how he died. She told me he fell into the river and drowned but I have only come to know and accept that he took his own life in the last few months. I have an eighteen year old half brother whom I don't have much contact with, again I don't know if my father cheated or if my parents had broken up at the time.

After my fathers death my mother went into severe depression, she would stay in bed all day and night for years only getting up to wake us for school or buy food, she missed all of my nativity plays and concerts and performances when I was in Primary school, I still have some resentment for that. We lost both of our parents instead of just one. My oldest brother, who is 10 years older than me, developed incredible rage problems and would occasionally beat me, my mother had to call the police on more than one occasion to save me from him because he couldn't control himself.

When I was 10 my sister had a baby and it changed all of our lives, my niece showed me that love exists and my mother realised that her family mattered and she wanted to be a good grandmother, she was 38 at the time, my life became so much more worthwhile after that, I didn't have any social skills since I barely had any human interaction apart from school for many years. My sister got pregnant again and when she was about 8 months pregnant with her second child she broke up with her boyfriend one night, he had been in and out of prison for assault and other things, he came to our house looking for her and we didn't let him in, so he stabbed the dog my niece got for her first birthday with a screwdriver, he tried and failed to break into our house while the whole family hid in terror upstairs.

I performed averagely in secondary school although I still didn't have any social skills, I found some people I was comfortable talking to, but never really could call any of them real friends. I got into a lot of trouble and got suspended every year of secondary school. I was never punished or disciplined by my mother of course, so I never respected any boundaries. I graduated when I was 16, since I had skipped a year in primary school and decided to take a gap year since I didn't get into the university I wanted. I used the internet very much in this time and joined TiBB etc.. The gap year turned into more than a year but I didn't really know what I wanted to do and I was quite happy to just do my own thing and enjoy time with my nieces and nephew.

In 2010 my sister got a new boyfriend, he did not treat her two children very well, for example my nephew was afraid of elevators and my sisters bf put him in an elevator alone and went up the stairs himself as a joke. My sister told me she was pregnant in July and I wasn't sure what to think of that. She said she was taking my niece and nephew on holiday to England for two weeks the day after that. When she got there she sent my mother a text saying she was never coming back, my whole world fell apart, I stayed in my room all the time crying and never went outside, I was in a very dark place, I couldn't look at anything that reminded me of them or I would cry uncontrollably, it was the hardest time of my life and I still get upset about the shock of it to this day. I saw the kids about 3 times since they were taken away. I had nobody to turn to irl but I had some really good online friends who helped me through a lot of stuff.

In April 2011 I started playing an online game and got very addicted, I made some friends in it and it took my mind off a lot of my problems. I made friends with this guy and we started chatting a lot, he was so kind and understanding, he made me smile when I didn't even know I was able. In June 2011 he asked me to be his girlfriend, I was hesitant at first but I felt something about him that I had never felt before. I began a long distance relationship with him and he changed my life, he fixed my heart. We had our two year anniversary this month and I am gonna fly to him for a week in August. I plan to move to Portugal for good as soon as we are both stable.

In March of this year my sister moved back to Ireland for good with her three children and left her abusive boyfriend who had changed my nephew to a shell of his old self, if he spilled water by accident or if he accidentally played too roughly he would cry to be punished because he thought he deserved it, I will never forgive my sister for allowing this to happen but all of the kids are improving very well and fitting in at their new school.

That is only that half of it really, there's a lot more I could say but I think this is long enough, I have a much brighter outlook on life now and I hope it will continue this way. :bigsmile:

..wow Jess, that's actually made me cry..you're so young and you've been through so much and felt pain that you shouldn't have...you deserved a childhood, everyone deserves that and you didn't get one...I'm sorry about your dad, that you didn't know and that it was so hard for your mum to come to terms with and she probably lost her heart for a while with that and certainly lost herself...I'm glad that your sister is back in Ireland with her children and away from that guy and that maybe her grandchildren will help fix your mum and make her whole again

..I'm glad you met someone, I hope he makes your life happy and is always kind to you...and have the best time in Portugal, ok...:hug:...

..oh and I should say, with all of that Jess...you seem like a lovely..and very outstanding young lady...

I'm undecided about whether to participate in this. I've unburdened myself on the forum in the past already so a lot of people know my basic story.

Conzors, you've started an amazing thread here though. It's eye opening and quite humbling.

There are a lot of amazing people here.

:love:

Nathan 22, born in Norfolk, live in Suffolk my whole life. 2 parents, and a brother and a sister which I am the youngest. Growing up was okay, but my parents never got on yet were always civil. They broke up at officially in 2010 ish after being separated for a while. They sold the house, so I went and lived with my mum in rented until she bought the house we live in now.

I got through school fine, got 8 GCSE's, but by the time I went to 6th form my parents kind of split up so that was a bit hard, I never really did enjoy 6th form as all my friends went to a 6th form college and I just stayed on at my high school's 6th. I never really put any effort in so I ended up with a U in History, C in Media and D in General Studies.

Suffered from anxiety and been a hypochondriac as long as I can remember, worry about anything..panic attacks the lot..so I signed up to here to keep my mind off stuff one summer and never looked back, although I know I'll have to leave here sooner or later to go and do something. Never exactly been thin my entire life, I can put weight on easily, but then lose it as well, that's why I don't put many pictures on here..I don't think I've put one on here that's new in about 4 years..I still do get quite depressed but have to always remember there's people alot worse off than I am, but it's hard when all my friends came from probably happier upbringings and they're all graduated from University/have girlfriends now..

I really, really hate not being liked but in a good way I suppose, I try to get on with everyone that was the same as school, always a floater, always try to be anyway. That's why I hope any disagreements I've ever had on here can be forgotten because I really don't wanna hold grudges

I've just put random bits in random paragraphs so this probably makes no sense now..I was raised a Christian, my family both sides are christian, well, the older generation anyway. I guess I do believe in it, that's why whenever there's a thread in Serious Debates I get pretty uptight because my mum is the nicest person you'll ever meet, and she's christian, and it's kind of like our rock to keep positive. That's why it's so annoying when people stereotype the Church. Not everyone sits in a COE generally being snobbish about everything and hating gay people..there are different types. I gave up really caring about going to Church when I was 17 because I just didn't get on with anyone there so I gave up

I've always made a thing out of not drinking and not taking drugs, but I don't want to judge anyone else for it as it's a life choice for me. I don't like most alcohol's anyway..

Unemployed now, looking to get what I can, build some money up and see where it goes from there..I'm starting voluntary work soon just to get out a bit..if anyone has suggestions to what career I should go into or whatever talk to me :laugh: I definitely have a weight on my shoulders because my brother and sister have done well for themselves. Yeah..I've definitely realized I'm not as bad off as I could be

Oh and I definitely need some new hobbies :idc:

and one last thing: I'm a terrible moderator, I get it..but I still do moderator stuff...ish

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Originally Posted by Ammi (Post 6096717)

Aww Ammi, I don't want you to cry! :sad: My mother was engaged for a few months recently but the guy broke up with her a few weeks ago, she's sad but she'll never go into that kind of depression again. My oldest niece and nephew come and sleep in my house at least two nights a week and they keep us going. :D Thanks a lot Ammi! :lovedup:

I just want to give you a hug Jessica, I take my hat off to you, I don't think I'd have coped with what you've been through.

I hope the future pans out well for you because ****ing hell you deserve it. Big love <3

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Originally Posted by Nathan (Post 6096758)

Unemployed now, looking to get what I can, build some money up and see where it goes from there..I'm starting voluntary work soon just to get out a bit..if anyone has suggestions to what career I should go into or whatever talk to me :laugh: I definitely have a weight on my shoulders because my brother and sister have done well for themselves. Yeah..I've definitely realized I'm not as bad off as I could be

Voluntary work is a great start to getting full time employment, when I volunteered it helped me with my confidence a lot.

Hope you find something soon :hugesmile:

I was born in 1976,I was abandoned as a baby along with my brother and adopted by the best mother and father anyone could wish for,I was hospitalised quite a few times with hearing problems which left me partially deaf for life,I had an amazing childhood,loved school and always remember being happy,have no desire to find my birth mother,I found her once via the Salvation Army,she wrote me one letter and that was it so I never bothered again,(my dad died a few years back)1993 was a traumatic year for our family,I lived in New York for a while,I have a brother who lives there also,and another brother who is a firefighter,I also worked in Greece and Turkey. I married Jay 11 years ago we have three beautiful kids,and I am in a happy place ,we live in a nice area of Shropshire,so that's me in a nutshell,for a little abandoned kid it worked out very well,lol.

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Originally Posted by Jessica. (Post 6096692)

Jess?I take my hat off to you:hug:

The nice thing about all these back stories is that even though some people have had a rough time at one point or another, everyone feels fairly positive for the future.

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Originally Posted by HD (Post 6096774)

:hug: Thanks, I hope your life turns out how you want too!

If we combined our life stories into a book it would be a bestseller..... Thank you everyone for your shocking, sad, heartwarming and honest stories.