Originally Posted by Kizzy (Post 7391914)

Originally Posted by Ammi (Post 7391918)

..oh wow, well done you..:amazed:...I bet that's a great feeling for you as well...

Originally Posted by Ammi (Post 7391931)

....:hug:..well, you went back to work and that was what you felt was right and they don't hate you and probably won't, it's just that you're thinking they will so wait and see how it goes the next time you're there and if it's not good, then you can think about that then and not now ok because you don't know if there's anything to think about yet...?...

..and she hasn't told anyone and if she did and told your Aunt, well how do you know that wouldn't work out to be ok as well...but they still don't know so stop worrying you silly sausage....

Originally Posted by Firewire (Post 7391911)

i was at work today and because i had been off for two weeks i didn't realise i had to go to our training centre anyway i went

but it finished early at like 3.30? i am supposed to work until 5.30 out of the 5 of us i work the latest so one finished at 3.30 and one at 4 so could go home easily without any worry

anyway i was walking back to our office with a colleague (it's like a 20 minute walk) and she was going home cause she's been there for years and she was supposed to be in until 5. anyway by the time we got back it was 4.15 and on the way there i said i would go home but i was worrying about it because i worry about everything when there's a chance i'm going to be in the wrong somehow. so i was worrying about it and idk why like it was just an hour and she told me to go home and she would back me up. anyway she went home and i got back to the office (i needed to go back cause my keys were in my locker and i was parked there)

but at the last second i decided to go back and speak to my boss because i felt bad about it and i asked her if i needed to go back on and she said yes so that was fine like i didn't mind working until half 5 it's just that everyone else left so if i had went home i would worry about missing it and i get a really guilty conscience when that's concerned

so then i started worrying about the fact they all might get into trouble because i came back and they didn't but it would've been blatantly obvious considering when i went back she said "oh yeah lynn called us and told us how you all found it" which was good i went back because they knew i would've been finished

but now i'm worrying about people talking about me and hating me because i went back to work but like now i don't know what to think and i'm worrying so much about nothing (idk why i'm worrying)

plus i came out to her because she asked me straight up which caught me off guard she wasn't mean about it but now i'm worried about that too because my aunt works for the company in a higher position but i'm not out to my family and i don't want anything to spread and i'm not ashamed obviously but i'm not ready and i'm just a mess

Originally Posted by Marsh. (Post 7391934)

It is. I've never felt so stress free. :flutter:

Originally Posted by Firewire (Post 7391945)

i'm back tomorrow but i just feel bad because i feel like i have betrayed them somehow but i did what i thought was best :shrug: that's true but i always do this and it's hard to shake it off

true but i don't know it's not something i was ready to reveal yet

Originally Posted by Ammi (Post 7391951)

..steady on, you'll be loosening that tie in your avatar and undoing your top shirt button next..:laugh:...I am pleased that you feel chilled atm though..you've obviously been really organised....

Originally Posted by Who Is She? (Post 7391950)

I hate that, I also worry way too much, I was nervous constantly throughout September but it seems to have calmed down a bit now.

Have you spoken to a doctor/therapist about it? It could be some form of anxiety, and you could try Kalms (if you haven't already)? I had them in the run up to a big presentation earlier in the year and they did wonders - I couldn't feel nervous at all due to them which meant I didn't stutter ect during my presentation.

I would love to be one of those carefree people, and I'm sure you would too - but you just have to except that you aren't one of those people. At least you won't get into trouble - and if you d get anything said about you, just lie and say your boss caught you going back into the office anyway?

Originally Posted by Daniel_ (Post 7391959)

I'm not organised at all the amount of times I gave work in late

Originally Posted by Who Is She? (Post 7391950)

I hate that, I also worry way too much, I was nervous constantly throughout September but it seems to have calmed down a bit now.

Have you spoken to a doctor/therapist about it? It could be some form of anxiety, and you could try Kalms (if you haven't already)? I had them in the run up to a big presentation earlier in the year and they did wonders - I couldn't feel nervous at all due to them which meant I didn't stutter ect during my presentation.

I would love to be one of those carefree people, and I'm sure you would too - but you just have to except that you aren't one of those people. At least you won't get into trouble - and if you d get anything said about you, just lie and say your boss caught you going back into the office anyway?

Originally Posted by Who Is She? (Post 7391954)

I'm an extremely OVERLY organised person like its irritating but I guess it means when people are worrying about assignments due in I know for piece of mind that I did mine a fortnight ago:laugh:

Originally Posted by Firewire (Post 7391961)

it's only things like this though :shrug: i don't get anxious about anything else, like i had presentations in uni and stuff i have no problem speaking in front of people

but yeah that was my plan anyway :laugh:

Originally Posted by Daniel_ (Post 7391974)

Why is Zoe's stalker William in Coronation Street

Originally Posted by LukeB (Post 7391978)

I don't remember a William in Hollyoaks