A lot of TLOU players absolutely hate Abby and hated being "forced to" play as Abby after she killed Joel... and I actually think that's a big part of why and what made the game so interesting and something very different; you play through the whole first game AS Joel and as you say, he's the one you're keeping alive, he's the guy who represents YOU and who you're playing as... and then in the 2nd game you play for a bit as Ellie, and then a little bit as Abby when she's introduced and you fight alongside Joel... and THEN the scene comes where Abby kills Joel with Ellie forced to watch. It's so jarring I think specifically because of that firs game being all playing as Joel... and now this new character who you've played as has killed him :umm2:. Then you play something like a whole 6+ hours as Ellie, then it pulls a massive twist and you play through that same 3 days you've just seen from Ellie's perspective as Abby again. People really did not like it at all and resented playing as her, there was so much anger about it online :joker:. It might be a bit lessened in the show since it's just "watching" from Abby's perspective, rather than actually "being Abby".