Awwww.. Poor Britney:sad:

Poor Britney, mainly because the sources are going to tell the newspaper and thats the LAST thing she needs right now :bored:
I really hope she can help and get better.

Yay Soph you went.I'm glad for you hunny. You're on the way forward now! You can do it and don't forget we're always here for you! :hug:

YEY:hug:
I know it will be hard, but I will feel soo much better when it's all over.

Good Luck Soph!!
You've taken the first step.. and soon im sure you'll be healthy again.
:hug:

Fingers crossed eh! :hug:

Can people understand that I didn't want to be weighed? Because If I was weighed and i felt like a weighed too much, I'm going to like loosing all of this weight and carry on.

^^^ Soph, good on you for being SO strong so far!
I'm glad things are going well for you right now, keep it up! :thumbs:

Thanks Ash:hug:

And now I'm experiencing it, I don't want anyone else to go through it.

EDIT: Thanks again Linda for that website. It's really helpful.

Well done on going to the doctors, hope everything sorts itself out now.

YW Soph... I'm glad it helped. There's only so much I can do for you cuz I haven't experienced it but there will be people on that site who know exactly what you are going through and will be able to relate to what you are feeling right now.

About the weighing thing.. It's good that you recognise that you might like the result and see the weight loss as a positive thing when clearly it's not. So, you made a really good decision by not getting weighed. You might want to tell the doc that next time you see her.. explain that you don't want to know your weight. That way, if she needs to weigh you in the future, she can take a note of it without telling you what it is.

The website has helped! Thanks again. Made me understand alot more.

I know that I will have to be weighed so they can note progress and stuff, but I just don't want to. I can see that iv'e lost alot of weight, which would be good if I lost it the healthy way. I NEVER weigh myself, I'm too self concious so if I got weighed I would aughtomatically say that I'm fat... that will then lead to obsessing about my weight and then I will want to stay ill. I don't want that though.

You should definitely tell the doc about that.. and anyone else you need to see during your recovery period. That way they can note your weight without you having to know any numbers/figures (if you get me.. ).

You are on the right road girl... I have every faith in you.. you can beat this, and we will be there along the way, even if it's just to provide you with a distraction and a laugh! :spin:

hehe. Yea that's an option. I just don't do weighing scales. At 14 I was obsessed with mesuring myself with a tape measure!!

It's soo annoying because this is the only thing that's on my mind. Just worrying and stuff about it. I come on this place to distract myself from it. There's always someone on here that will make me laugh!:laugh:

Like you for example.. your obsession with posting that pic of them pants!

Ummmm.. I'm starting to get scared now. I'm actually liking the weight loss. And that's the first thing I didn't want to happen.

:|

Oh Soph! Hmmm I don't really know what to say but you can't be liking something that can do extreme damage. You gotta get better girlie!

Now, admit it.. U love the pants!!!

Here's some more..

haha. Linda, it's not as funny as the other though!

And Laura.. I just don't know what to do! I think it'll be easier for me to just stay like this, instead of having to bother with the doctors. I'm all used to everything now.

Soph,just because you might think its easier doesn't make it the better thing to do! You need to bother and you need to not be used to it. Its just gonna take some time and some effort is all :hug: Always here for you!

The easy option is usually the wrong option. The easy option for an alcoholic is to continue to drink, but the right option is to stop. Or for a smoker, to continue to smoke would be the easy option (believe me, I've been there) but the sensible thing is to quit (also done that and never looked back). Same for addictions etc. Even for the little things like the easy option is to lie in til noon, but realistically we have to get up and go to work/school.

Basically it's not guna be a picnic Soph. It's guna be hard, but with the right information and the right support, you can do it. You can do anything when you put your mind to it, and all you need to do is be strong and try. Like Laura, I'm also here for you, even if you just wanna laugh at pants!

Take care.. x

Put the hard work and effort in Soph and it will pay dividends in the end. As I stated previously, good on you with the progress you've made so far and keep it up.

I too am here for you, as I'm sure are many other TiBB members. :flowers:

Thanks Laura, Linda and Ash :hug:

I really do understand what your all saying. It's just going to be soo hard and Iv'e kinda got into a habit with it. I'm at a moment now where I just don't care anymore, it's like my stomach has had no food at all in around 5 weeks (maybe more, i'm not sure) and I feel that eating again is just going to shock my entire system and make me even more ill.

It will shock ur system to start with, but what you have to do is take it in stages. You can't go back to eating full meals like you used to straight away. Just step it up gradually. Maybe even write down what you eat in a day, so you can see that you are making progress. Like keeping a diary. That way you can make an effort to eat something more each day.

I've used that method before with dieting (only in the reverse obviously) but it's amazing how well it works. It gives you something to look at and then you can see that you are making progress. That way when you feel down or feel like it's pointless you can look at your book and see how far you've come. It might be an idea to write how you feel each day as well. Then hopefully you will see your attitude become more positive as you start to get back to your old self.

Just some ideas Soph. I'm no expert, but anything is worth a shot, isn't it?

x

Found this!>>

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Soph you didnt tell us how you are getting on honey? I hope that you are still taking those huge steps.

You mentioned in a previous post that you were scared to eat, do you know what thats normal! it's ok to be scared of something or doing something, but remember your body needs fuel and you have fed it for more times over the years than you have starved it so your body will quickly re-adjust to being fed, in fact it will love it!

Your mind might not like it but like Linda says do it a little at a time and try to write it all down, pour those feelings out, if they are on paper they are not in your mind consuming your every thought. The first big step is admitting you have a problem you have done that so now is the time to take those next steps and stay on track as much as you can. You are going to have days where you panic and think oh my god I cant do this, but then you can look at your diary and see that actually you can and have been, with luck that will encourage you no end.

I will be thinking about you Soph, you take care and remember you are not alone you are part of the huge TIBB family :dance2:

I gave up recovering a very long time ago! I'm just not prepared to recover and to be honest I'd rather not recover. I'm doing fine at the moment, still haven't eaten anything and I don't have the desire to eat either. It's slipped into my daily life now. Some days I get mad that I let this go on as long as it has, but most days I'm fine about it!

But thanks so much for your support! And to everyone else on TiBB! :hug: