Who are you really?
 

Hello.
I'm sure, because its a forum, that people are perceived really different on here, than they are in real life. Perhaps its due to the way that they write, how many pictures they upload, their jokes that just aren't funny on here, but if spoken would be hilarious.

I know I've made a judgment about people on here, that have turned out to be decent people outside the forum - and I'm pretty sure that people perceive me as some picture taking, self obsessed homosexual.

This thread is a positive thread about, maybe, posting about some of your vulnerabilities, your insecurities - or just random facts that just make you a real person, or that differs you from what is thought about you here.

I'll go first...

My name is Conor. I used to be quite a bigger person, so therefore after slimming down i am conscious of my weight, and tend to look at myself a lot/take a lot of pictures to re-assure myself that i actually look normal. I work in a bog standard shop and I recently moved out of my house, into living with two complete strangers. It's been hard adapting to this environment of individuality, and going from a household of six noisy people, to three quite people has been quite lonely - but i think i'm adapting quite well, from doing my own washing/cooking - to making my own company quite nice.

I turned 20 a few weeks ago, and this past year I have really grown up and found myself as a person, and I'm much happier with who i am, how i am, and who i am around. I like to be positive. Nothing really disgusts me, and you can be the biggest slag around, and i wouldn't care because i make a judgement on how people act towards me. Each to their own.

I am known at work for farting a lot because i must take in a lot of wind because I eat so fast - I have IBS, and being a homosexual that's hard because nobody wants a ****dick.

I used to think i got bullied a lot in school, so i used to make a big deal out of it when really i know they were only having a laugh, but as a Vulnerable teenager who didn't really know who he was it seemed really bad a real.

I've only ever had one fight in my life, and I won. Yay.

I am very clumsy, fall over atleast once a day - i'm always banging myself. I've cut my bum cheek open twice, my penis once, my head three times and have been in hospital every year of my life up until the age of about 13. I get paranoid easily, but once i know you well that eases off a bit.

I'm not serious unless i need to be - thats the way i believe life should be!

I can't open medicine bottles, and i have a phobia of urinals and citrus (the actual thing, not the juice)

I am currently volunteering at a disabled home where there's people with autism, learning difficulties, down syndrome etc - and I am hoping to go into that field full time - Working a full time job and volunteering is tiring but hopefully it will pay off.

Now, you?

i am jackie travers

great post, your a very open person.

Not at all. You seem really nice and you don't come across like that :)

thanks :D
what about you?
anything that makes any of you different from here?
x

Im Keiser Sose.

What's IBS?

Oh I googled.

do you like, randomly **** or something? :confused:

Hmm

I'm Vicky. I am a DJ primarily, but also a karaoke presenter/singer. Work has dried up a lot recently so I am looking for something a bit more steady..but not looking very hard if I am honest. I am one of those people who just expects things to fall in my lap rather than actually work hard to get something..has done me well so far :p

I recently had a baby and have been rather fat since then..but again..havent really done anything about it so far. Keep using the excuse that I have just had a baby, but that excuse will only wash for so long, its been 7 months now and I have only lost half a stone of pregnancy weight..so I'm going to have to get my (large) arse into gear soon to get it sorted.

I am addicted to gambling. Literally every spare penny I have goes on gambling of some sort. Which is a BAD combination when you have a kid. I also need to sort that out because I feel sometimes that I am wasting cash on a buzz when I should be buying more stuff for my child. She doesnt go without or anything, and she has more than enough of everything, but I still feel guilty for spending money on nothing.

I am emetophobic..which means fear of vomit. This is awful and affects my everyday life. If I am out drinking or something, I am constantly worried that someone around me has had too much and is going to be sick. If I know anyone is ill I avoid them for weeks and weeks until I am sure its out of their system. Oddly enough, I can deal with Skye being sick..but thats it. Even my partner, if he is ill, is relegated to another room until its over.

This has been quite negative really..but I do enjoy life in general. Especially when I have had some codeine, which seem to work as antidepressants..I dont know if they are meant to. Was given them when I was taken into hospital not long ago with suspected appendicitus(turned out to be a cyst)..and now if I feel a bit down I have a couple and I'm much better within about half an hour

Anyway..probably said more than I should but there you go :laugh2:

this has to be one of the most honest posts i have seen or ever likely to see on this forum!.
i hope you can knock the codeine on the head, they are highly addictive.

Ditto.
Hope you feel better soon Vicky!

Wow, that is honest, whatever about the gambling, the codeine has to go Vicky.

codeine <3

I value my anonymity.

Well seeing as we are sharing...
I'm a recovering alcoholic, it crept up on me from a few bevvies with mates gradually building up to drinking alone,
It severely affected my health and have had related problems since, but not touched a drop since 24th december so am well on the road to recovery.
I worked for yrs as a housekeeper in a hotel but left to get some GCSE's at 35.
I promised myself by 40 I would be educated, slim, sober, working and in a relationship...
Not quite there but ticking them off... :)

I'm Dylan, I'm a 15 year old originally from London who now lives in Dover where there's not much to do. I live with my mum. My dad is a Turkish musician who lives in Malta (he was in the running to represent Malta on Eurovision this year apparently but he didn't get it s0b) and I speak to him occasionally on Facebook but I've never met him. I'm an only child (my dad has another daughter but I don't know her) and I live in a little countryside village within Dover with terrible internet and no shops or transport.

When I got to like 11 I became really fat like loads of kids do but people made comments for years about my weight and it still bothers me now even though people keep telling me otherwise :joker:

I sing a lot, I'm not tone deaf but I'm nothing special. A musical director (Barney Ashworth) whom I worked with recently told me I had talent though which gave me a confidence boost. I go to a drama group every week and have done loads of plays over the years, but still get extremely nervous before every single one.

My plan in life is to be a journalist or work in PR or something, I don't have any idea but my dream ambition is probably talk show host, as pathetic as that sounds.

TL;DR I'm fairly uninteresting

my names marc i am 24 years old
i have to on time for everything
i am a shy man around ladies
i am at the red cross vol
i have been told i have told i have different problems but they can pin it down that much
i am always happy and very smiley
if any little bit goes wrong i panic

hope that ok

My name is Jarrod Jones, 16 and living in Wales at the moment. Moved to Wales from Wolverhampton when I was 9 years old to a small seaside town on the north coast. I was pretty big... weight wise. I had no worries about my looks etc until I started high school where I slimmed down to 11st (I'm that now) and 5ft 12. Brownish hair, finally I have longish hair actually (Like... Louis Tomlinson's style from a year or so ago) and finally wearing clothes which are fashionable and nice (I never took pride in myself until pretty recently)

I recently finished Year 11 and my GCSE's and I'm nervously waiting on the results. I currently live with just my mum, brother and sister. My dad doesn't live with us anymore. For the past year, I've had an ongoing battle with Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder after an event which basically knocked me really badly. I'm getting over it and to be honest I really do think I am now.

I never really made that many friends in school until around Year 9 where I latched onto a small group where we stayed together and we are still best friends now. I came out as gay to select few in March and then eventually to everybody at the beginning of May. Actually I think TiBB knew before my mum... Honestly, my life isn't bad. I get around and I enjoy it. I aspire to be either a producer for television or film, an actor or set designer.

My current job... I don't have one. I run my own BB website which is such an amazing experience, you see Big Brother through a different light it's great.

Phobias
Spiders
Knifes
Fire
Alcohol
Cigarettes
Enclosed spaces
The underneath of airplanes and boats
Being lonely
Industrial type things (Mines, dumps anything like that)
Bees and Wasps
Onions...

see there you go!
Vicky - you may not feel beautiful but you squeezed the most beautiful thing out of your vagina - you'll feel more healthy soon, maybe cut down on the gambling and codeyne, but whatever makes you happy. Your sick phobia is not unusual either - i know alot of people that have it.

Kizzy - i praise you. Alcoholism is a hard thing get over, especially when there are loads of influences around you! - keep it up and maybe in the future you can trust yourself to control it and drink it on special occasions - maybe have a glass on your 40th aye ;).

Doogle - i need to hear your music, im sure your very talented and more confidence you will get to where you need to be. So cool that your dads a turkish musician, its not everyday that you hear that!

Marcus - Red cross <3 - when i had to be in a wheelchair thats where i got mine from! - maybe panic a bit less and just go with the flow - and with the ladies, just be yourself - your really really sweet :D

but you squeezed the most beautiful thing out of your vagina

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PMSL :laugh2:

Your like me with the whole appearance thing! I'm so happy your coming out was good too - it should be made to be such a big thing!! - Maybe in the future you can speak about your incident and maybe inspire others! Im sure your GCSE's are just fine, you have over a month till the results, so get with your friends and enjoy your summer! Stop worrying mr! x

We're pretty alike then if you think about it. :) Thanks dude. Means a lot :love:

We are! Seriously i never cared about my weight or appearance till high school, then i got too skinny and got bullied and didnt make friends till about year 9, and i still talk to my best friend from that group everyday to this day - and im 20.
If you do need advice or anything mister message me, i'll gladly help <3.

hahahaha sorry, i word things weird.

Oh dear. :O

Same with the paranoia. Seriously we seem to have a bit in common.

awww bless ya
i taking classes for the panic
and thanks

Yay!
I've noticed your writing has improved too! Keep it up man!
x

it seems we do!

Aw thanks conzors this is better than therapy haha!

Put my phobias up..

thank you
had help with that from classes and the amazing members on here

haha - it's just a good way of understanding each other - or maybe just getting to know - like now me and jarrod are now similar and we have things to discuss!

BRINGING THE FORUM TOGETHER!

So good Marcus!
Keep it up you actually are doing really well.
x

thanks

Eh i've wrote about my eating disorder problems and things like that on here before, cba to do it again :laugh:
Interesting reads of everyone though! it's amazing how people can be so honest on here

Eh i may post a long post tomorrow when i can be bothered i dont even know :laugh:

:joker::joker::joker:

I'll do mine - I'm pie eyed and listening to Pink Floyd so this should be good.


I'm Patrick, hi. Most of you know me (older members, not like age.. but duration wise) anyway - but for those of you who don't, I'm nearly seventeen years old and have just left school - starting college in September to do a two year course on Film and TV Production as I've always had an interest in that area.

Over the course of my short life so far - so much has happened, things that wouldn't normally happen to a typical teenager.

When my Mum and Dad split up back in 2002, I had to move away and became isolated from friends. The only company I had was my little brother, having alot of free time lead me to developing an interest in Big Brother, an interest that only developed further as the years went on, until eventually I joined this forum and for two years it became my primary source for socializing.

When the end of 2010 came - I changed as a person, dramatically in quite a short space of time, unintentionally aswell.
I've became more outgoing, more sure of myself and who I am, and have learnt alot.

I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder, Sensory Processing Disorder and Aspergers - all within 8 months, after dealing with sever depression and prolonged insomnia the previous year.

I got picked on quite alot in school for being different, it wasn't until the final two years that people started respecting me for who I was and felt able to include me - the last few months of 2012, I was attacked numerous times in town - this ultimately has driven me to complete and utter paranoia, but I'm overcoming it now and hopefully, getting back to myself and hope to have a good summer.


Hope that wasn't too long or dull haha x

Here goes omg, i bet no-one will read this but :laugh:

Hello I’m Jenna, and I’m from the UK.. I’m sweet Seventeen.. fun fun fun. I really have no idea what I want to do in the future, I get really good grades, but I just have no idea what I should be, and so im kinda stuck at a crossroad which sucks, as I’ll have to make my mind up soon enough

I’m a bit of a selfish bitch, I put up a front, and don’t let anyone in to be honest, most of my best friends don’t know the slightest of information about me, like some of my best friends didn’t even know where I lived until like a few months ago, and they’ve known me all my life. I come across cold at times, and I’d rather just not let people get close to me, I prefer to be alone, and that sucks but it is what it is, and I feel guilty for my friends. I've recently started socializing more, but it's been very very difficult


I got diagnosed with EDNOS (Eating disorder not otherwise specified) when I was 13, I’ve always hated how I look and I ABSOLUTELY cannot stand writing things like this on the internet, or even talking about it in real life, because it just comes across complete attention seeking and that annoys me, so I just never bother to talk about it, I’d rather people not know, so this post is hard. At my worst I was simply having a bottle of volvic flavoured water, and a Rivita, I genuinely just thought I was so fat and ugly. I currently weigh 7 stone 3lbs and I’m really not happy at all, but I’m forcing myself to get through it. I’ll never be happy with how I look tbh, and I’ll always want to be thinner or have a smaller nose etc, but I’m just trying to learn to live with it, and focusing on my studies, prevents me from getting too sad about it. I've never self harmed or anything though ,because the thought of harming my body would just make me hate it even more idk! :s

I love Dancing, I find it such a passion participating in tournaments and everything, and it takes my mind off a lot of things!
I identified my self as Asexual a few months ago, but I know that isn’t true, it’s very complicated, I can’t see myself ever going out with someone, the thought of ever letting someone into my life, and allowing them to know everything about me utterly terrifies me, and so I just don’t see the point. I can put up a front online, and everything but in real life the thought of someone even touching me or kissing me makes me want to be sick, and that’s scary, like the thought of it makes me shiver nad that’s not right for someone my age :s

So yeah I really have no idea what I’ll do in the future, and I hate the thought that this post will just be deemed as attention seeking but whatever -_-

Wow what amazing honest responses, kudos to both of you for being so open.

withadefinitely

but I'm far too ironic