I'm very depressed.
 

I'm struggling very badly financially and feel dreadful. I think I might have to cancel going to Blackpool this month because even though I've paid for everything except the hotel I just don't know if I can manage it and I have to pay it next week.

I'm such a mess. I hate myself.

Thank you.

It comes to something when Glenn is the only one who cares.

Its not a case of nobody caring .. they were probably, like myself, thinking what on earth to write ..


Thankfully Glenn to his credit ( of all people) nailed it !


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I'm crying, I feel so bad. I can't go home cos I've had a row with Karl.

Yes Nice Site

Maybe in an hour or so
can you try?

Talk with ur doctor about this. Maybe you need to go on meds. And that’s not a bad thing. I hit my lowest point this year and didn’t think I’d still be here. There are bad days, even worse days and some good days. I won’t say it gets better because it’s literally a cycle of never ending ****. But you will have some good days

I can't.

…oh Kate…:hug:…I know that it won’t be what you want to hear but it might be that Brighton does have to be cancelled…but there is nothing to feel bad with yourself for, we’ve probably all over-committed at times…on a positive of cancelling if it comes to that…you might feel that pressure lifted and feel a lot lighter because you’ve made that decision…

Kate have you slipped up and started gambling again?

It's your home too....just go to your bedroom or wherever he isn't. :love:

A bit but not to the extent that I was before. I'm pathetic.

…you can go home, as Annie said, it’s your home too…whenever you feel ready to go home then go and either open up conversation with Karl or go to a quiet space in the house…

I really hate myself, and I've let Vanessa down with Blackpool. I'm a disgrace.

…no you’re not pathetic, can you talk to your gambling councillor/group …do you have a helpline number/a contact etc…?..

…no you’re not a disgrace, not even close to…but you do need to talk to someone about your feeling…professionally, I mean…not here on the forum…so that you can start taking it one step at a time ….and I think you’ll feel much lighter just for having that conversation…

I'm angry with myself because everything is paid for except the hotel, we were both really looking forward to it and I've let Vanessa down.

No not at all, it happens, you need to reset and start again Kate.

Sorry didn't realise Blackpool was with Ness

Yes we've booked shows and everything, it's just the hotel. The only thing I can think of to do is cancelling the hotel and booking in somewhere when we arrive, I'd have the money by then.

Can you not find somewhere cheaper? Or even just go for the day if you have paid for some activities. You'll be there in an hour or so from Wigan. Just a thought:love:

Going on a vacation is a privilege. It sucks but it’s true. Sometimes you have to work instead of having much needed time off but unfortunately that’s just how life is these days

…I’m pretty sure that’s not how Vanessa will feel, her concern will be all for you and making sure you’re ok because that’s the important thing…

…so that’s one thought/solution and something to talk with Vanessa about doing…?..

Vanessa and I are a bit strained at the moment, we had a misunderstanding and I'm finding it hard to talk. I miss her.

Look on hotel booking sites, a lot don't need payment till you arrive. They take debit card details but no payment till you get there

Aw, hope you manage to sort that out

oh that is a shame, come on girls make up, you two are great together


are you still going to Blackpool then or no?

I hope so. I'll try and speak to her later.

…ok, so break it down and the first step…you and Vanessa see if you can talk things through and understand what’s gone off kilt between you because that’ll also help to establish if you’re both still on track to go to Blackpool together…

…hopefully this thread and your openness here will be the first step of you both opening up that chat…:hug:..

Shocking huh? It’s almost like I’m not the complete arsehole everyone makes me out to be

We Stan a caring king!

Hang in there Kate
we all support you in your troubles

…I always said that you and Kate were each others Kryptonite…I can’t recall a time when it wasn’t that way…:laugh:..

Thank you everyone. Especially for Glenn getting the ball rolling with the practical advice, it was very unexpected, and kind. I appreciate it a lot. It brought tears to my eyes.

Lovely replies from Ammi and Annie especially.

Kate, do you think you’d benefit from another call to Samaritans?

I'm going to contact Shout, who Glenn posted the link for. See how that goes. Thank you Sam xx

I'm missing Kate as well. It was all my fault.

It wasn't love.... we are just two very sensitive people. I have pmd you for a chat x