Was I molested as a child? SERIOUS THREAD!!!
 

THIS IS A SERIOUS THREAD

Ive been wanting to post this thread for a while but haven't had the balls because i know everyone going to be like, "Ohh well that explains a lot".

Anyway when I was about 9 to 11 I had this baby sitter (guy) who was about 17-19 (definitely turned 18 over the time) who would do stuff with me, NEVER ALL THE WAY.

But the thing is, he was hot :blush: and from what I remember I enjoyed it.

I was a very sexual child and, from what I remember, I had done stuff with at least 2 girls and a boy before this.

If I met him today I wouldn't say no.

Anyway I just want to know what people think, because I always wondered if id be a different person if this hadn't happened.
Would I be bisexual?
Would I love conflict so much?
Would I have such an obsessive personality?
Would I be so sexual now?
Would I have commitment issues?

I imagine it would have at least a small impact on all of those questions except for the obsession/conflict ones, which I can't see a link between

i was just listing the things that are abnormal about me

Wow eh don't really know what to say but if he was 18 an preformed a sexual act on you as a child,you were technically raped as a child.So basically yeah you were molested
I doubt this has anything to do with your sexuality,conflict etc.

It is likely to have affected all of them to be honest because experiences shape us as beings. However there is no point thinking about it really because it happened and you cannot change it. Just causing you un-needed stress.

But I can see links between all of them.
Obsession - you could feel its easier to attach yourself to things like The Real World because you could subconsciously find it difficult trust people.

Conflict - you enjoy the fact others aren't perfectly happy because you know your life wasn't and isn't.

I'm the same where I know experiences (domestic violence) have given me flaws but I know I just have to deal with it.

Yes, you were molested.

how did that happen without anybody knowing D:

but the thing is I enjoyed it, i wouldn't take it back, i looked forward to him coming over

also him and his parents moved to australia, and when he came back when i was about 14 we hooked up again and by that point i might as well be an adult and i could have easily told him to **** off.

Oh and technically you were molested law wise but if you enjoyed and didn't resist then the only way you were affected is because society says it should have affected you and its all in your head.

he was my baby sitter, my parents were out, my brother was in bed.

It doesn't matter weather you enjoyed it. He molested you, and it was against the law.

i guess so, its just that it was the only thing that in my life that was abnormal and so i just wonder if that lead to my part of me as an adult that as abnormal

but then i must have been abnormal to start with because i was sexual way before that, id go around kissing people in reception and god knows what else happened that i cant remember, i was basically a 50 year old pedo in a 5 year old body

He could be doing that to other children, absolutely disgusted.

yeah he could be doing that now still

Yes, he molested you and you probably should have told your parents about it. He should have known better

i always wonder if he was an actual pedo (and even gay), or just a teenager who was too shy to get a girl his own age
he definitely wasn't ugly, he was tall, long blonde hair, and was always getting compaired to david beckham.

well he obviously was a paedo or he wouldnt have tried to get it on with you when you was 9 :laugh:

No question about that!

To say you 'wouldnt say no' if you saw him again now is crazy sh!t, hot or not Id punch him in the face and get him reported (just incase he is still doing it). You play up on how sexual you are.

k that smiley at the end looks wrong

I think you should report him,you my have enjoyed it but it didn't mean everyone will.I think you need to realise there's a pedophile in your area and your potentially encoraging him to continue (he may think well if he fcks you and dosnt get caught maybe he can **** lots of minors and never get caught).
You need to think about the other kids he's potentially molesting !

i don't care, im actually laughing whilst writing all of this, im so ****ed up

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Did he force himself on you because even if you did enjoy it, its still technically rape and he should obviously be on a register

yeah i dont get how this could have like come about -_-

was it you that made the first move or what

rofl a 9 year old forcing himself on a 17 year old