Signing out for good - an apology
 

This may not be well punctuated or even legible but I'm a mess right now and this is an instinctive thing for me so I am sorry if it's hard to understand

Last night, the friend of someone I am extremely close to committed suicide as a result of online bullying. Everyone I know has been hit extremely hard by it and it's my first real experience of the damage that cyberbullying can do to people

I feel as though I need to apologise for my own actions over the past few months. I may not have been directly involved with it but I still had an intense association with that.

Some of the comments I've heard made by the group I associated with were chillingly similar to the ones that have appeared to cause a young woman not two years older than me to take her life and that's unforgiveable. Picking on people because of their weight or appearance is something I always just took for granted, I didn't realise the hurt it could cause and this has hit me in the strangest way

Sorry to everyone for anything I have done, my actions were out of line and I'm pretty ashamed of myself.

Oh God Lf, that's awful :( I'm so sorry for your loss but proud of you for having the balls to apologise for what you did :hug: I hope you're ok

I'll second that :clap1:

I'm sorry to hear about your loss.

Thanks also for the apology, it can be uncomfortable realising you have been in the wrong but admitting it makes you a better person and enables you to make better choices in the long run.

Exactly this.

Sorry about your friend too, that's awful.

I had a friend take their own life because of bullying & being targeted on by groups of people, its just a shame it goes to this extent before people finally realize what they're doing is wrong. Sorry for your loss though.

Everyone says or does things they regret. Great to see you put that behind you, and I'm very sorry to hear about your friend.

This forum, for all its faults, got me through the toughest time in my life, which I know sounds melodramatic. Think about staying, you'll need friends around you x

Well it's sad that something like this has to happen to make people realise, really sorry for your loss though and I'm sure your apology will go a long way

So sorry to hear about your friend,we are always here to chat to.

The whole point of life is to learn from your mistakes and come out of it as a better person. A few years back I ignored someone on Facebook I knew at school who was only reaching out for people to talk to because she was lonely. She committed suicide too.

The fact of the matter is you beat yourself up about it for a bit, dust yourself down and come back better and that starts with what you have done today by accepting responsibility.

I wasn't affected by what you all did so my opinion is worth squat I know but at least you came on and faced the music so I don't think personally you should hang your account up for good.

Sorry about your acquaintance as well. Being in the position of wanting to take your own life is a horrible place to be. I'm sad for her/him and their family.

Maybe a heartfelt personal PM to the people that were involved in your groups activities would be a good place to start.

All the best chief.

So sorry to hear about your friend LeFreak :( I hope you are ok :love:

That's awful! Sorry for your loss. Glad you've realised you were in the wrong though. Hope you're alright man.

Sorry to hear about your friend, but dont be to hasty to leave the forum though, its a good place to chat and let off steam if you feel the need.

Sorry to hear about your friend. It's awful when something like that hits so close to home. THE problem with the internet is it seems so anonymous but people are still affected terribly. You've Been the bigger person to acknowledge what you did was wrong, even by association but now you need to put it behind you and chalk it up to experience and learn from it.

Take care of you and your friends :love:

I second this.

Really sorry to hear about this Alex I hope you get through this ok :hug:

I'm sorry for your loss Alex, I hope you're okay :hug:

Sorry for your loss.

I think sometimes people don't realize the effect words on the internet..even from strangers..can actually have on someone.

I hope you are okay, and your friend's family too. Good on you for apologising - though I don't see what you've posted that would upset anyone, it's mostly just harmless sass.

Hope you're okay Alex x

Sorry for your loss Alex, you know you can talk to me anytime http://cdn.thisisbigbrother.com/smilies/hug.gif

Goodbye sweet prince and sorry for your loss x

Sorry for your loss, I'm here to talk if you ever feel like you need to let off steam :(

I'm sorry for your loss.

As I said a couple of days ago, Internet sites can be a place to learn how to mature, I feel that FB did it's job here, only it sadly took someone elses life in the midst of it all.

But you have any issues you should talk to me or one of the other members on here, I'm sure we would all hear you out.

This really.

Sorry to hear about your friend.

Omg :sad: :hug: Sorry about your friend D:
I'm happy to see you turn around from the wrong and apologise :love:, I wish you luck and happiness through this tough time.

As someone who absolutely detests online bullying, due to finding her sister in the bath covered in blood and half conscious I can honestly tell you how brave it is of you to do this. I'm proud of you for apologising, much unlike some of the people you've hung around with the past few months. Well done for having the courage to say all this. Thank you for that.

Sorry for your loss.
I don't think you cyber-bullied as such.

Your were just having 'banter' and sometimes went a bit too far but not to the point where your constantly on someone making them feel ****.

Dont feel as though it was your fault or you caused anyone to do this. Be strong and be there for everyone who is suffering.

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I keep thinking about this. Hope you're okay... I find that the forum really helps me when I'm feeling down. Try not to leave for good, there are some truly brilliant people on here

I've been thinking about this too and the only thought I come to is just how pathetic cyberbullies really are.

With everything that's happened on here over the last few months by individuals who take absolute pleasure in insulting people on their weight, looks, etc the only thing I feel for them is pity.

I'm so sorry lf, when things like this happen to those you know it makes it real, in a way it isn't always when read about in the media.
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You don't need to leave. We all do things we regret in life, but we try to learn from our mistakes. I'm so sorry about your friend and i hope you will come back when you feel better. Take care of yourself. :kiss:

You must not take it personally Glenn

sticks and stones etc

Thank you so much for everyone's kind words, they've really been a comfort to me. x

Glad you're feeling better. :hug:

I'm sorry for your loss, Alex. :(

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I deleted my earlier posts so I could start this again.

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss, I can't imagine the pain and sadness you must feel at losing someone close to you. It was nice of you to apologise and accept that you have been in the wrong. It's a learning curve and I'm sure it'll do you good.

Aww Alex I hope you are okay and I hope the family and you and all the victims friends are coping ok. This was very brave of you to do lovely xxx

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