I'm very depressed.
 

I'm struggling very badly financially and feel dreadful. I think I might have to cancel going to Blackpool this month because even though I've paid for everything except the hotel I just don't know if I can manage it and I have to pay it next week.

I'm such a mess. I hate myself.

Thank you.

It comes to something when Glenn is the only one who cares.

Its not a case of nobody caring .. they were probably, like myself, thinking what on earth to write ..


Thankfully Glenn to his credit ( of all people) nailed it !


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I'm crying, I feel so bad. I can't go home cos I've had a row with Karl.

Yes Nice Site

Maybe in an hour or so
can you try?

Talk with ur doctor about this. Maybe you need to go on meds. And that’s not a bad thing. I hit my lowest point this year and didn’t think I’d still be here. There are bad days, even worse days and some good days. I won’t say it gets better because it’s literally a cycle of never ending ****. But you will have some good days

I can't.

…oh Kate…:hug:…I know that it won’t be what you want to hear but it might be that Brighton does have to be cancelled…but there is nothing to feel bad with yourself for, we’ve probably all over-committed at times…on a positive of cancelling if it comes to that…you might feel that pressure lifted and feel a lot lighter because you’ve made that decision…

Kate have you slipped up and started gambling again?

It's your home too....just go to your bedroom or wherever he isn't. :love:

A bit but not to the extent that I was before. I'm pathetic.

…you can go home, as Annie said, it’s your home too…whenever you feel ready to go home then go and either open up conversation with Karl or go to a quiet space in the house…

I really hate myself, and I've let Vanessa down with Blackpool. I'm a disgrace.

…no you’re not pathetic, can you talk to your gambling councillor/group …do you have a helpline number/a contact etc…?..

…no you’re not a disgrace, not even close to…but you do need to talk to someone about your feeling…professionally, I mean…not here on the forum…so that you can start taking it one step at a time ….and I think you’ll feel much lighter just for having that conversation…

I'm angry with myself because everything is paid for except the hotel, we were both really looking forward to it and I've let Vanessa down.

No not at all, it happens, you need to reset and start again Kate.

Sorry didn't realise Blackpool was with Ness

Yes we've booked shows and everything, it's just the hotel. The only thing I can think of to do is cancelling the hotel and booking in somewhere when we arrive, I'd have the money by then.

Can you not find somewhere cheaper? Or even just go for the day if you have paid for some activities. You'll be there in an hour or so from Wigan. Just a thought:love:

Going on a vacation is a privilege. It sucks but it’s true. Sometimes you have to work instead of having much needed time off but unfortunately that’s just how life is these days

…I’m pretty sure that’s not how Vanessa will feel, her concern will be all for you and making sure you’re ok because that’s the important thing…

…so that’s one thought/solution and something to talk with Vanessa about doing…?..

Vanessa and I are a bit strained at the moment, we had a misunderstanding and I'm finding it hard to talk. I miss her.