Apology
 

For my stupidly and insanity the other night. I'd been up for like 40 hours, and drinking for 30 of them. I went to the dog racing in Hove Thurs night (will never go again), see a dog snap his spine, and that was the last straw for me, mentally. Got A LOT on my mind atm as it is, those close to me know about it. So yeah, some excuses for my behaviour, but not many. But at the end of the day, i am deeply sorry for my behaviour that day.

I really like this place. I have problems, and im not ashamed to admit them now.

Sooooo many members were concerned about me during, and after all that. What that shows is this place is full of fantastic, lovely caring people.

In one of my darkest nights and days, you ALL came to me caring, not judging. And trying to help me.

That meant so much to me, and i just wanna thank you all, you know who you are :love:

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Don't blame dog racing for your coke and booze binge

And plenty people judged you

Enough birthday card pish mate and get your act together

Im not blaming dog racing, watching a dog's spine snap live just sent me over the edge that. I don't do coke either, have done, but find it over rated tbh.

But yeah fair enough.

This is a forum though, so i guess as a bigger picture, every single one of us get judged daily.

Edit - Dog racing is barbaric, never again.

Swan the only one that you really hurt is yourself
I know life is hard but you must try and get yourself in a better place mentally

There is no point racing them, they are too fast
You will never win

Good win for Chelsea has pepped you up though I hope Swan :dance:

Yeah i see that now, think i upset Kate though.

:dance:

If you saw what i saw that night, you might feel different.

You are sorry for what you said so that’s all you can do

No love. Xx it was just hard talking with you in your frame of mind. I wasn't turning on you. I just thought it best to leave you be. I think a couple of posts here are a bit harsh towards you. We all are capable of going off the rails given enough reason. People should allow for this. Xx

This is why i will always defend you. Thank you xx

:hug:

Does this apply to all those times where you’ve randomly snapped my head off?

From the posts that I saw I have seen far worse meltdowns, including from myself.

So speaking for myself, I am fine with you Swan.

Hopefully you will get the help you need with the drinking.

Loving Barrys nice era :dance:

Deleted some posts. That Discord is nothing to do with this site, and doesn't need to be dealt with on this forum.