[user104658]

NGL I'm a bit of a mess at the moment, worse than I've been for a while. As Marsh says, it can be hard to see that it'll pass as always when you're in the middle of it, that it isn't "different this time".

I don't think it helps that the world does lowkey seem to be going to **** right now, so when I go with the usual tactics - telling myself that things aren't actually a crap sandwich and it's just my stupid obsessive thinking getting the better of me - there's this constant actually not irrational voice I can't shake sneaking in at the side saying "lol but actually..."