[Vicky.]

Not lost as such. Though, it was also a loss and still makes me feel awful now.

Had a VERY good day on the slots. Unbelievable. Had gone on to pass away 5 mins, put on 20 quid, and got up to...5k.

Me being ****ing ridiculous, decided I was on a roll, it would be daft to stop now...balah blah gamblers logic. Upped bets to 20 quid, as when would I ever be able to do this otherwise, and afterall, it was not a loss really and would be still on a high!

Then got to 7k.

Still craptalking myself. And yeah, obviously, lost the 7k. Biggest depression ever. Most people don't know, as its...awful to admit?! Have only ever spoke about it really with my brother who also has had issues gambling, and I know it will sound ludicrous to many on here. Biggest win, I never got. Its proper weird for me, listening to 'normal' fun gamblers. I hear 'free bet of a fiver, won 20 quid, took it out, yey' and am like..why bother taking 20 out?! My sister won a hundred quid on a free bet, and to me, thats ages of more playing, she took it out and was chuffed, which I KNOW is normal really, but it still seems weird to me. Very ****ed up that way, and seemingly no improvement really.