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Everything
Deep and personal thread this.
It’s nature vs nurture. If we don’t form a primary caregiver within the first 6 months of life then one particular scientist would say that we will struggle to form and maintain them throughout the rest.
Our childhoods shape us.
I was an extremely sad and lost person. I only ever wanted to be happy. I think this forum saved me at times because I didn’t really have anything else. It was escapism and fantasy.....you replace the reality with fantasy because sometimes life gets too hard to handle.
.....but it gets better!!... you just need to help yourself sometimes, but that can be extremely difficult.
I won’t go into particular reasons.