[Beso]

It is a struggle Lalaland.

I'm at the stage where I need diagnosed with PTSD, but I am also the type of person who would just be happy and relieved to know that it is PTSD. Probably, (my assumed, to me depression) will stop me getting the tablets needed to aid my PTSD, due to the hassle of it all.

But I'm at an age where I reckon I can handle the fact that it's PTSD. So will just soldier on.

I do however realise that many men like me just cant talk to anyone about it (ive been lucky enough to have my mate michael, (an ex military guy, who suffers and is medicated for PTSD) popping in twice a week. Or my ex and her kid who I can chill out with at the weekends, but many men don't.