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Originally Posted by Kate!
Ah, what a can of worms this question has opened for me. If I could turn back time, knowing what I know now, I'd never have had my child. Sounds truly awful but it's not from a selfish perspective, rather the opposite. It's always on my mind, every single day, that my son is alone in the world without either a mum or a dad with him choosing to go his own way. As most on here will know, his dad is in prison. He's only 25. It haunts me. It's something I just have to live with however. Guilt is my companion. I feel responsible for him, having brought him up as a single mum for such a long time. It's hard not knowing how he is day to day, whether he's happy, whether things are going well for him or not., how he's coping financially etc.
So yeah If I knew then how things would turn out I feel it would be kinder not to have had him. For his sake.
It's an awful world to face on your own.
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Aww kate, Kate darling, that's heartbreaking to read. I hope he reaches out to you soon.
I dont think you truly wish him dead, that's the heartbreak making you say that.