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Originally Posted by Maru
Not much. We had to put my oldest pup down several days ago. It was not a shock she was sick as she is within that age range and some signs I was noticing, but shocking considering how quick it all happened. She had laid down after coming home with us and didn't want to move. Breathing was elevated and when I checked gums, they were white, so dangerously anemic and blood loss somewhere. They did ultrasound and found apparent hermangiosarcoma (a very aggressive blood vessel cancer) which had done massive damage already to her spleen, possibly liver, the sac around her heart had fluid likely from the spread and between that and fluid in lungs (+blood loss) making it very difficult to get oxygen. The spleen tumor ruptured into her adomen which caused anemia and it's almost impossible to catch on screens with the quickness of it. She was so critical that hospice/EU at home wasn't an option.
The blessing is she lived her last days perfectly fine with her happy family, playing normally, rushing after squirrels, eating well. Most of her signs could have been just as easily age, but some I knew well enough were signaling the end was nearer than not. In fact this week I meant to take her in early for her annual to do major bloodwork. I am having a harder time than I thought I would ever have being with illness I am typically very logical, but I guess seeing as she was a special needs baby in her own way.. highly neurotic and major separation anxiety.. and was such a huge part of our happy lives, I am having a hard time. Even the home we chose to live in was partially to cater to her unique needs. A big yard to play in which feels so empty without her. Her end was so very peaceful and it is everything we wished for her, that she did not have to endure stressful medical hospice or extensive separation/vet anxiety, but it just feels like so much is missing from our lives... even if I was mentally prepared, I certainly wasn't ready.
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…I’m so very, very sorry, Maru…
…no matter how logical we are and I know that you are, we all see that…our hearts also logically attach to those animal pets who have also formed such a big part of our family….as much as we’ve cared for them, they’ve also been there through many of our difficult times also and have been a huge comfort in our lives…they are just so much cherished …I’m glad that her end was peaceful but we can never prepare for losing a much loved part of our family…we grieve because we love…I’m really so sorry…
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