[Tom]

Mines not that scary really, well to some people anyway. Some people don't really mind it. But I have a phobia of dead bodies, faces are always bad but bizarrely I find coffins the worst of the lot, especially open ones, doesn't matter if they're empty or not I still find them worse.

Anyway when my nana died, that morning I went in to see her as a final goodbye type thing, but that didn't bother me in the slightest because it wasn't long after, only about 3 hours or so so she just looked like she was asleep, perhaps a little cold.

She died on a bank holiday weekend (it was 3 years yesterday in fact, it was a Friday) which meant that the funeral had to be delayed by almost a fortnight so by that point she would have looked a lot worse than she should have when she was buried. Anyway on the morning of the funeral I decided to find the courage from somewhere to go into the dining room and see her again (where she was, my mum told the undertaker to bring her back to ours instead of her being in the chapel all night) but everything was a little much because it was like all my worst phobias rolled into one. I wasn't really prepared for what she looked like though, when the veil was took off her face she was unrecognisable and blue, and I had to leave pretty much straight away. I must have only been in there for about 5-10 seconds but it felt like the longest 5-10 seconds ever. That was pretty scary.