[Noel]

I can't physically look at a spider or I begin to take panic attacks.. That's how bad I am. It's not really what they can do to me, it's just the way they look. Like, it's mostly a phobia, but a reflex too. My head automatically fdlingd back by itself when I see one. When I try to explain to people they never understand..and it really bugs me because it does affect my life A LOT. I can't even watch Rihanna's Disturbia video! I just wish I wasn't as scared..:/