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You are a brave woman and I admire you enormously. I'll be rooting for you to succeed but don't be TOO hard on yourself if there is the occasional lapse.
The important thing is to understand why and then start again.

If it's what you want Janette, I really hope you do it. You've got a very determined nature and that will definitely help you get through. The very best of luck & I'll be sending you some positive vibes if it will help!!!!