[LemonJam]

Oh, forgot about the "the most" part. Fail

I guess whatever I do in life I always want to be the best and be successful. I seriously hate failure of any kind. I mean you have one life to live and the last thing I'd want to have is an uninspired lowlife job, alone because I can't find anyone to spend my life with and generally being unsuccessful in any endeavours I attempt throughout life. I mean, alot of people would say that life isn't about success it's about having a good time but I strongly disagree, because being successful for me is the best feeling you can possibly get.

Why I've always felt the need to prove myself so much I don't know, when I lose something even as simple as a video game, I'll try work out to myself where I went wrong to try make improvements.

My sisters a top art student so I guess I've always felt alot of pressure needing to beat her. Also going to a Grammar school where everybody was smarter and more athletic than me was a kick in the nads and make me think "Hey, I can be better than them." That could be where it came from, plus influences of the media contantly saying "You're not good enough" is probably never helpful.

-is having forum breakdown- ah\