[CaraRawr]

i hate people so much.

basically i was sitting there in maths when i hear my sister's boyfriend talking to his friends about me. now i turned round to see what they were saying when my sister's boyf (i'll call him J) goes 'HI CARA' all loud and *****-like. Then his friend, M, goes 'oh yeah cara's too peng' clearly taking the piss and they all start cracking up. then they start going on about how much they fancy me and at this point i was near tears. i've suffered anxiety and low self esteem for 6 years and it makes me feel ugly and disgusting when i've only started to feel like i'm not totally hideous about 2 months ago. it's like all my friends and family insist i'm pretty but these ***** are seriously making me feel like i'm worthless and ugly and i hate it.

i have no idea what to do anymore, advice? it's sad because J is always really nice when he's not with M and that. :/