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thanks thats quite helpful. wow, top third. thats quite scary especially given how quickly i was called back after the final audition. i mean its not like they even waited out the rest of the week.

its not that im as much nervous as i am anxious. i only really applied casually, and going back to more auditions really was a case of "how deep does the rabbit hole go".
both the psyches told me they were "completely thrown" by me. as, in the words of one "you arent the type of person that usually applies for this process and that is probably why you are sat in front of me right now".

my motive for doing the show was diagnosed by one as a "thrillseeker" and the other a "fantasist". both of them said im certainly not a "fame chaser".

the attention and the conspiratorial secrecy of the whole thing is sublime though. its enough to turn anyone into one of the masses!