Hi
I dont think you are depressed. I think youre attaching the word to your state of life feeling lacklustre. You only really realise you were depressed when you come out of the spell. I have only been there twice, very short periods though, around 4 weeks and 2-3 weeks. You feel very hopeless, you do not really want to talk about anything revolving around it and feel lonely and that you cant move on with your life unless big changes happen.
Either way focusing on the GOOD points in life get you through depression or this feeling of lacklustre - be it your family (or member of), a friend or friends, work or at least getting paid for doing something useful for people, education, the excitement of your pet when they see you in the morning. People do have bad points, some worse than others but after realising yeah life isnt THAT bad and you DO HAVE good things, you aim to turn these not so great things around. Sometimes it does help to move away but as you said, its not always possible. Take steps.
Now and then I do feel trapped, frustrated with life, disappointed etc. But right now life is pretty damn good... could be better... could be worse.
I suggest making a list of 20 targets you want to achieve this year and aim to fulfil them, post in this
thread.
Maybe even bookmark your post so when you do feel stuck, you can easily remember what YOU WANT to do.
Good luck buddy!