[Kate!]

Fleur Titfanny

Dear Diary.........

First crush Was a boy on my street. I say boy, he was 16 and certainly had all the qualities of a man. He played rugby for the school and he played centre as well as being the centre of my attention for quite some time. Let me tell you, the dreams I had are not suitable for this show. Who knows, maybe one day, I will tell all.

First heartbreak Was over my first crush, while we enjoyed some flirting and the eye contact sent sensations down my spine. It turned out he preferred one of his team mates over me. I was distraught, but believed at the time I might have been the one he would turn for.

First time drunk! I was 14 years old and what a night that was. We partied till early hours in the morning, everyone laughed and danced like they were true celebrities. Later I woke up in bed with my best friend, we were undressed and not fully aware of what we might have done to each other. We haven't spoken of that night since then, but I have never forgotten how special it felt the following morning.

Hopes, dreams and ambitions One of my first dreams and ambitions was to take this rugby lad (my first crush) to bed with his best mate from the same rugby team. The things I had planned for with these two in my head, sent me high with incredible sexual pleasure. My main ambition now is to complete my new book based on what it feels like to be with a man. To arose the man, to touch the man in places he's only dreamed of. It's sure to be a top seller. I also have high hopes on traveling to many cities across the world and riding in an helicopter over them.

Holidays I like to travel and I like to explore every opportunity that's out there. There's nothing more I love than to go out into the world and live our the 'other half' live, whether that's full of the riches or getting down with the locals and learning their way of life.

My ideal holiday is Hawaii and although I've seen many places, I'm saving my Hawaiian trip for when I'm with the right man. We will take in every pleasure very slow and make this trip so memorable that we'll be wanting to do it time and time again.

Family Christmas's I'm a family girl and one of my favourite things to do at Christmas is spend it with my loved ones. Nothing beats the open log fire, everyone sat around listening to festive tunes and acting merry on the fruits of alcohol. I'm fortunate to have a family who go out of their way to make each Christmas the best one yet. The typical Christmas celebrations that others pine to be a part of.

18th Birthday. My 18th birthday was special because I spent it with my friends in Blackpool. We rode the 'big one' and we danced along to Bucks Fizz and Steps in the Blackpool Horseshoe Show Bar. Blackpool may be downright dirty to some people. The art of a good time in Blackpool, is to know where to go and how to have the right fun.

My 21st birthday was in Ibiza where we did things on the basis of what happens there stays there. Although I was tempted to go back a few more times and re-live that particular pleasure, being the loyal person I am, I stayed true to my word.

Kate's comment: Fleur has also really opened her heart here and shared many memories with the Bachelor, I am sure he now has a much deeper insight into her character.