I'm really sorry to hear that, liliacqueen.
Speaking from bitter experience, it's always hard when you love someone more than they love you . . . . . .
But now I have someone who loves me just as much as I love them, and we've been married nearly 10 years now. I hope you find that person too in the not too distant future.
Don't know if you watch 'Friends' but, if you do, then your 'lobster' IS out there!