[Ammi]

..I think people can often become victims of the very thing that has hurt them in their lives, it seems quite common..yes it is selfish, but people in dark places and addicts are often incapable of being anything other than selfish because they have no coping abilities in life...it's always strange when someone who seems on the outside to be coping as in she cared for her children and was a mother to them etc could be incapable of thinking of them more than what she was doing to herself but I guess unless you have been in that place that she was then you can't really understand it...

..I know someone in slightly different circumstances who was bi-polar and an alcoholic and she took her own life and left two young children ..I don't know what brought her to that at the second she did it or the time just before she did it and was focused on doing it but I do know that she loved her children, they were her life and she was an amazing mother...