The only thing I can think of is writing, I'm not sure why but I love doing world building. I've been kinda chipping away at a story for a while, it's set in this fantasy land I've created and I believe it's pretty original.
I used to have this notion of getting published, like in a way that felt like the proper goal I should have. But now I'm not so sure.
And as to why I'm not writing full time, I see it as a hobby and a kinda passion. Also I feel that I'm waiting for motivation. But like you say, if you don't try, you'll never know. So maybe I will try to focus more on it.