[smudgie]

I don't think you are evil to think like that at all.
We are all human.
Nothing wrong with how we feel about things..just because it might not conform to what others feel is right etc.

I am battling with something on these lines at the minute.
Not hating someone exactly, but it found out yesterday that me ex sister is really ill, we havnt spoke for over 5 years and I now have to thnk about not going to her funeral if she dies.
Ain't life just a bitch.