[lostalex]

I've never experienced any direct homophobia against me personally.

the worst i've seen is just people expressing homophobic opinions around me (not knowing i was gay) or the odd homophobic joke.

I've definitely seen other's experience it, but no one has ever said anything homophobic to me directly, or attacked me personally for being gay.

I'm definitely grateful to have lived a life in the time (1982-now) and place (America) to have never suffered any direct abuse.

I definitely am outraged by the people that have though, it makes me sick to my stomach, and grateful for the life that i have.


that being said. i've definitely experienced indirect homophobia. thinking of myself as a second class citizen, thinking of myself as repulsive, and even damned. thinking of myself as mentally diseased or broken in some way. Those thoughts creep into every gay person because of the indirect homophobia. and of course the worst consequence of indirect homophobia... fear.

no one has ever called me a ****** to my face. maybe because i'm male and because of my size, but honestly, i still fear it. and i don't know how i'd react if it did happen.