From the DS:BB Forum.
Ziggys discussion about leaving if you can be bothered to read it
Chanelle: You were in the diary room a while
Ziggy: Yeah
Chanelle: You ok?
Ziggy: I'm good babe, I'm fine, absolutely fine
Chanelle: What were you talking about?
Ziggy: Nothing, nothing. Just to do with, yeah, just home and stuff like that
Chanelle: Oh
Ziggy: Yeah. Erm...
Chanelle: What?
Ziggy: Um, if I speak to you then I speak to you in confidence
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Ziggy: ...on my decision so that's it
Chanelle: No
Ziggy: I want to, I want to, I'm not happy babe, I'm really not happy here. And you make me very very happy but I'm not happy here so...And I can't go round looking, I don't want to be seen on camera with an unhappy face, I really don't so, you know, if we can just finish it and just not talk about it. And I'll talk to you later about it but not in front of people. I don't want anyone to know, I just want to do it and that's done. And I want to talk to you about it and that's it, you know. And if it makes, you know, and that's it
Chanelle: Oh
Ziggy: Mmm. It's not, I'm not looking for any 'ohs' or any, you know. And it's, it's, it's, I shouldn't be feeling like this, I should be, I should be enjoying myself
Chanelle: But you do enjoy yourself
Ziggy: I do, yeah I do but, you know
Chanelle: Don't you want to wait until you've got an eviction?
Ziggy: Not really, no
Chanelle: (inaudible)
Ziggy: I know but I don't want to wait. I'd have to turn round to everyone and go "nominate me" and I don't really want people to nominate me. So yeah, so...anyway
He kisses her
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Ziggy: Course, yeah
Chanelle: What've they said to you?
Ziggy: They said "Think about the morning" but I said, you know, I want the ball rolling so I can sort it out in the morning, And that's it. It's pathetic. I don't want to be sitting on here saying this anyway. (inaudible) thing and Gerry and Bill...Charley having another argument. It's just so boring, it really is...Really is. You know. I know I worked very very hard to get in here but I can't be doing with any more of these arguments, any more of these people
Chanelle: But you're not in the arguments
Ziggy: I know but it's just the whole place just kind of getting to me and it's getting me down and you know. Like you felt, you know, if you're not happy about something you're not happy, you change it, you know
Chanelle: Yeah but change it in here
Ziggy: I'm not going to change it in here
Chanelle: I did that
Ziggy: I think things are just a bit and people in here are a little bit too *****ed up and a bit too wierd and that's it, you know
Chanelle: (inadible)
Ziggy: What? No, not you. So
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Ziggy: ...people playing games and stuff like that and I can't get myself involved in it any more, you know. I haven't got, literally got, physically got the, or mentally got the energy for it any more. You know
Chanelle: So don't get yourself involved. You get on with Carole and Gerry
Ziggy: I get on with loads of people
Chanelle: And you get along with Liam and Brian
Ziggy: I've said that, I said that in there. And that's not, not the reason of getting, not getting on with people. It's not about that
Chanelle: But do you not think that you're being a little bit pessimistic about it all?
Ziggy: No, because
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Ziggy:...factor, it really is. I mean, I think, you know, I really do, and as I said, you know, if things happen after and things like that, you know but, you know, you, you've literally kept me sane in here, really. I've left it to one person to keep me sane in here, and I, you know. You know? You got me through many many different things in here. And I think I got you through many different things as well. The actual situation of just being able to actually want to stay in here any more, I've gone, you know, I don't want to be here any more. You know?
Chanelle: So basically, what you just said is that I'm part of the reason why you're going
Ziggy: No, no no, you're not but I'm saying...
Chanelle: Well what do you mean "Are we good, are we actually good"?
Ziggy: Are we good, are we, you know, I, you're not part of the reason, please don't take it there, you're not part of the reason. Really you're not. You know. You're part of the reason why I stayed so long. That's what you're part of
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Ziggy: Things aren't perfect, you know, we've gone from one thing to another and, you know, it's...it's pretty hard, to be honest with you. But it's not, please don't start sitting there thinking it's to do with you, it's nothing to do with you, it really isn't. You know. You ask me why I'm sitting here on my own and stuff like that's cause I'm homesick, man. You know. I'm sitting here think...listening to Charley and listen to people and listen to this and this and that and I'm thinking "What the ***** am I doing here?"
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