ok... so
I said a lot of what I wanted to in the questions already... but
I know a lot of you are thinking... why did Messie stick to the end if they didn't want the win. Well as many of you have pointed out ... I did want to quit at several points in the game... mostly because I just found the schedule to hard to keep up with, because nessie was not as into playing as I had hoped, and because I got really sick of the TiBB politics that come into these games. It can never be a true BB format on here when everyone comes in with predetermined alliances and friend groups can it??
But that aside... I did stick with the game... but as I have said purely for the fact that I was playing in a team of people... and I thought it would be unfair to let that team down by quitting... because the numbers became increasingly stacked against us as new additions to the game always added to the other side of the house divide... which no one can deny existed tbh.
There was a point last week where I pm'd Jamie and Ross and said I think I needed to get out of the game that day... and I did go on the block that day... and one of the two of them won... I don't know which one... and I felt that talking to the two of them about.. things... at the time, and their friendship towards me and support... I felt bolstered by them... and didn't want to let them down as a team... so I was taken off the block that day... and then I just played for them. I had stopped wanting to win or playing to win already... but I didn't want to see their hope of getting to the end squashed by my selfishness.. so I played on ... but only for Jamie and Ross and Cald... who unfortunately went out that vote
I was able by staying to win that double veto with Jamie... and turn the tide in his favour. Jamie has played so hard and won so many comps throughout... had friendships and alliances on many fronts... and honestly is the male version of Ammi on this forum... he never has a bad word to say about anyone... is always gracious and kind... and has put 1000% into this game.
If you decide to vote for me over him out of spite or malice... the bad karma be on you... but I know I would be devastated to take this win from Jamie... and would probably hid the forum award off my profile out of shame.
The end