It's a forum, you don't have rights.
You have a choice, follow the rules to a tee, or leave the forum if you want to change them.
"because at the moment Im lost to what was so bad in my posts that u felt nessasary to delete".
Re-read the rules... did you follow them exactly?
PS. The forum rules don't need any revolutionary change, they're fine and functional at the moment and I suspect they're staying that way for the good of the forum.