[Lostie!]

I'm sorry to hear this. I suffer from anxiety too, some of the time I'm fine but in certain situations it flares up and holds me back a lot which in turn results in periods of feeling really low and miserable. One of the worst things to do is to start thinking you're the only one and everyone else is living this perfect, ideal life when in reality there's a lot of people who've felt the same things as you so there's always people out there to confide in who'll completely understand how it feels and to help you put things into perspective when you need to.

And as has been said, concentrate on the good in your life like your partner. And it's never too late to get even more fulfillment out of life, it's just that people with things like anxiety and depression struggle to push themselves to do so so it ends up becoming a vicious circle. Make small steps to break it and you might be surprised by how much progress you could find yourself making.