[RockStar]

I'm giving you the benefit of the doubt and taking your statement at face value.

However, there's a limit to what anyone can do for you online. You really need to speak to an adult in your life. If not your parents, then someone else you can confide in. You can't hold onto this on your own, and online is not the place to get the help you need.

Please try to speak to someone. I'd love to be able to help, but I'm only font on a screen I'm afraid.